Wednesday May 10

Awesome, awesome post! So glad you shared this with us.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I needed to hear that today.

Deb

Great epiphany! Thanks for sharing!

205.8 Living in the midst of a tornado as usual. I read every day and developed my own Squash the Ostrich challenge. I ran out of perfume. I only wear a little bit, but it is expensive and I cannot rationalize it. It sounds so sad to say but nobody buys me gifts, so I would have to buy it for myself. Therefore, I am going to reward myself if at the end of the month, I have STO and gotten the scale under 200. I know we are not supposed to focus on the number, but that is a HUGE victory that I truly regret losing in my regain. This will be ongoing, if I do not get there this month, the deadline will extend to the end of next month. If and when I make that challenge, I'll continue it with another reward. I was thinking a pedicure, but the condition of my bear paws makes it a necessity instead of a luxury.

Greetings Thoughtful People

Happy Birthday Paula.

Down another half to 135 so the pig-out pound is gone but not forgotten. Today will be a long day but there is leftover pot roast for dinner.

Liz if you are the first one in the office does that mean you get to leave first? Hope the PET scan goes ok for DH.

Well BB, anyone can have issues with their bodies and appearance. Its all relative. But I am glad you came to the conclusion that you are happy with how you look and that you wrote down your thoughts with such clarity. You are young and it takes most of us 50 years to get to your point. There is a book called Body Love that is kind of old but is about accepting your body and part of it is experiencing the joy of what you can do physically. Anyway, great post, one that I will re read from time to time.

Joey isn't it awful how those old memories lurk around from childhood slights and remarks. I had a friend whose mother did nothing but criticize her appearance and that of others - me included. She was truly awful.

Well Ann, hope the internet is back soon. We lost ours for a bit with the windy weather but not long enough for withdrawal symptoms.

Take care all. Diane S

Good morning, friends!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, PAULA! I'm wishing/praying for the gift of health for you and DH and the boys for your b'day.

Down 1.4 today. Glad the First Communion celebration and popcorn weight is saying goodbye.

Nice thinking today about body image and balance. Both very difficult to concepts in which to develop healthy practices. So many of us are plagued with a lifetime of not only negative body image, but so many of us also suffer from some level of body dysmorphia. Body image is a very tough issue to manage constructively.

Had a chance to talk with psychiatrist via email. He asked about maintaining same dose or increasing. The three other people I know who take Vyvanse all take higher doses than I do right now. I'm also noticing that the evening thoughts are returning, as is the physical reaction to foods. It is interesting to observe how my body is adjusting to the medication. Part of me feels like I should not increase the dose, but the part of me that is delighting in the absence of compulsion is encouraging me to ask for a dosage increase. I have two worries about the med. The first is developing a dependency. The second is the inclination to use it as an appetite suppressant, which is not what I want to use it for. I've gotten past the stage where it's working as an appetite suppressant, but I'm still easily able to stop eating and listen to the signals the Sleeve of Steel is sending about fullness.

No exercise for two days other than the daily 2-3 laps around our school multi league soccer/softball fields. Must try to get something in today.

Hi Devon,

Even at a higher dosage it's not an appetite suppressant, at least for me. I take it around 10:00 in the morning. Has helped the nightly grazing. It's not magic but what a difference, I don't think about what to eat or more important what not to eat all day and night like I use to.

Not sure but my Dr. said if it's not the correct dosage the benefit of the drug would be wasted. Took me about 2 months I think to get to the full dose.

Enjoy reading how it's helped since I wondered if it was just me. Will be watching your research to see what you come up with.

Karen

Thanks for letting me know. I take mine at 7:00 am. That works with my school schedule, so I need to keep it that way. I, too, have found the intrusive thoughts about food have basically gone away. The only time I have them any more at all is from around 8:30 or 9:00 until bedtime. I am going to ask to try an increase and see how that goes.

Devon,

I also took mine at 7:00 am until about a month ago. Works much better for my schedule too. Found myself making "deals" with myself in the evening. Decided to change the time since my Dr. said many of her other patients reported the same thing and most started taking it a little later with good results. It's been a month and I can tell the difference, not sure if it will continue but since I'm a work in progress I will see how it goes. So much for wanting to be "normal". Guess this is my normal. This is just what is working for me at the moment. For the first time I am very happy that I can and do make the best food choices for myself.

IMHO it's brave of you to share so much that helps so many others.

Karen

Happy Birthday Paula!