Saturday May 6

Love this!!!!!

I feel special. :)

OK, yet another post from me today, because home wifi/internet is back on! Yea!

I hear you on the "ostrich" thing, Shel. It's a good way to think of that mental posture and to name it. Sort of the opposite of alertness / noticing / mindfulness.

What critter would epitomize mindfulness?

Love the question about mindfulness critter. Meerkats? Owls? (I'm a little tired of owl-this and owl-that so not sure I want it to be an owl. Except those little owls that live in the ground, they might be ok....)

Oh my goodness Shel, my first thought was Meerkats! Great minds think alike. Our little white dog sometimes sits up like a human and looks like a "Meerdog" - that's what I call her anyway!

First off, I saw the ostrich avi and thought, "WTF?!?!?!" Now I understand.

I totally understand the ostrich thing and also the half baked plan. It's often more important just to get some intent verbalized and then figure it out so it makes sense. I do have an inner ostrich, but my rebel without logical cause is far stronger than any other dysfunction. He is so good at saying FU to logic and good intentions and plans. He is a very persuasive fellow, my little Rebel.

Squash your Ostrich, girl!

Greetings Ostriches and Other Creatures

Well a windy but sunny day here on the north coast. The bad news is I am up to 136. No doubt due to a day of little activity plus eating too much off the treat table at art night. I swore I would eat no chips and only had a few but crackers and cheese and wine turned into 3 hours of grazing. At least the event was well attended and the weather cleared up and we were able to have the live music outside. Our customers must have wondered why there was an ostrich sitting behind the desk.

Shel I love your comments and the ostrich analogy. Maybe I will make a figure to remind me. I used to wake up in the morning with two thoughts in my head "I hate being fat" and "Gotta go to the store to get chocolate". Such an amazing ability that humans have to think completely incompatible things. Often shows up in political context. We have things we want and proceed to do the opposite of what it takes to get it done.

Well DH got costco shrimp so it will be a low cal dinner tonight.

Liz, sounds like DH is going to make it into the trials so I hope it helps.

I've been thinking about the 23 and Me thing too for the health genetic stuff. Mine will probably say "you come from a long line of fat people" even though I know thats not true. Maybe I will do that.

Well no great insights from me except that I have proved to myself for the zillionth time that cheese and crackers are crack to me. Time for more coffee.

Peace to all. Diane S

Liz, keeping my fingers crossed that DH makes the trial! Hopefully, the new med therapy will help.

Paula, busy much?

Diane S, gathers like your gallery happenings are absolute hell for me. I understand the irresistible lure of cheese and crackers. I'm more drawn to the sweets, but it's all the same - FREE FOOD! (free access, free to take more, free reign to disregard portion -because grazing doesn't fill us up so it couldn't possibly have too many calories, right?)

I was down another pound today. I ate both lunch and a light dinner and even a little dessert yesterday. It's either my restriction has notched up or, more likely, I am hearing/feeling signals from my sleeve more easily and have the ability to recognize and acknowledge my satiety and act accordingly. Whatever it is, I am not questioning, but am happily accepting this change. Would be so wonderful for it to be an ongoing/permanent change.

OMG ... FREE food. Yes. That.

Were we really that poor when I was a child?!

Brings up sensations of DEPRIVATION. And GREED. And dreams of "not having to share."

Good grief.