Happy May Day ! 05/01/17

208. I took my daughter back in to the hospital Friday night, a little after midnight, then went home and slept a couple of hours. She was discharged around 5 a.m., picked her up and drove her home. She went back to the hospital Saturday and was admitted. (Very little sleep Friday and Saturday nights.)

She was heartbroken to miss my younger grandson's First Communion Sunday. There were a lot of snafu's along the way, but my grandsons did not notice them. I got the boys ready for church, picked up their dad and was early! My son went to the hospital to sit with his sister. Unfortunately, my SIL's stroke and resultant brain injury took away any inhibitions and he is increasingly inappropriate especially in public. He started joking with my older grandson and the two of them were laughing during the First Communion ceremony. I was mortified and unable to stop them. My SIL is obviously impaired, but that was no comfort in the moment. It was also very difficult to have an almost empty family pew. It was just me, my SIL and grandsons. Again, my grandsons did not seem to notice.

My SIL was not feeling well, so we dropped him home then went to the hospital to visit my daughter. There were tears. But... we then went to the boardwalk, had pizza, went on a ton of rides and played a few boardwalk games and even won a prize. The holy boy requested KFC for dinner and Costco cake for dessert. I may have overcompensated, but I am the granny, it's my job. My older grandson said his brother's First Communion celebration was even better than his big party. We went to bed extra early so I could drop the boys at my brother's extra early so he could take them to school for me.

I had a protein bar before church, one slice of pizza, skinless breast meat from KFC and a small piece of the cake. We walked a ton! Eating has been pretty good, but I believe I should be taking Vyvanse.

Greetings Intrepid Maintainers

Still at 135. Yesterday I had to sit at our studio sale for quite a while and ATE A COOKIE. I didn't bring enough protein food and was hungry. Just one. Then it was a big scramble to wrap up the late customers and get funds to the night bank deposit. But it was a successful sale. Clean up today.

Well Diane O I'd say you indeed have some thinking to do. My DH once told me at my lowest weight that I was killing myself. It upset me a great deal. I was down to 117 and could not seem to stop losing. Thats where the peanut butter came in. Dr. wasn't worried - he knew I would bounce back and I sure did.

Joey sorry the first communion was not as you had hoped but sounds like the grandsons were fine with it. You must be doing such a great job with them in view of what they and you are facing. Hope your daughter can get more stable with her illness.

Paula your son looks absolutely fabulous. Glad it worked out and they had fun. Everybody needs more fun these days.

Ann so sorry about the floods in your area. Sounds awful and you are right that some things will never recover. I was in the midwest for the 1993 floods. We have had some out here too but the rainy season is drawing to a close I hope.

Well Bramble has a name! Yay.

Well Liz may the intense meetings go well. All systems pointing to retirement.

Paula keep healing.

My mom is still hanging in there. Crazy friend still managing to make trouble but fortunately she can't get around enough to do too much.

Off to the studio to see kiln goodies. Cheers all. Diane S

Weight back down .8, so I'm guessing that the weight loss is real and will stick.

The minor negative side effects of Vyvanse are lessening (jitteriness, a bit scattered in thought, minor irritability). What is sticking is the awareness of food taste and texture, sense of restriction, and lack of physical response to trigger foods, and a minor lack of interest in food. HOWEVER, my experience on Saturday followed by my experience last night has clued me into the fact that emotional triggers will be harder to suppress than the purely physiological triggers. Vyvanse does give me a fighting chance though even with the emotional trigger.

I did not use protein shakes yesterday and was pleased that I was able to eat two meals of real food and a snack later in the evening. My appetite increases by dinner time, which is good. Lunch time is not as easy yet. Today I made a highly appetizing lunch of smoked brisket and green beans. The brisket came from the fattier part of the brisket and the texture had an unappetizing feel in my mouth, though I had trimmed the meat. It was too marbled. The green beans were okay, but simply didn't hold much appeal. I had a bite or two of my lunch and put it away. I think I may keep some protein powder and almond milk at school to have should I have another day of not wanting to eat lunch. I must keep my protein up. Really need to eat something - considering the time!

Shel, I'm wondering if you know what Vyvanse does in the brain. Does it shut down receptors? I sort of understand how ADD/ADHD meds work, but this is different. It's as if the medicine has turned down the volume of the voice that insists on eating so much so, that even though it's still there, I don't have to listen to it. I can choose to ignore the quiet urge and recognize it as an urge - not a need or hunger that must be sated.

Sounds like it was a busy, wild weekend for several. Glad everyone made it through storms and visits and family changes/adventures/struggles/illness to tell about it! Life is certainly full of twists and turns. I know I certainly look forward to reading and sharing on this board. This board is portal to my compatriots in the battle against obesity.