Wednesday April 19

Fun-nee!

So I just checked my weight report on MFP. I'm basically the same weight I was 2 weeks ago!! Ugh!! Two weeks of lost time :( At least it's not up overall, but still. Maybe it'll all drop at once again?

I'm going to smack you upside the head! (with love, of course!) It is NOT two weeks of lost time. You have been working so diligently and with such focus to change your physical well being. Take pride in that and stop focusing on the few extra pounds that are still lingering. You are working at a physical level you have never asked your body to do before. I'm certain that there is a lot of muscle repair work happening, which means water retention. Stay off the sugar, alcohol, keep the carbs low and focus on protein and keep doing what you're doing in your exercise program AND THE WEIGHT WILL FOLLOW. It may happen more slowly than you'd like, but in the end I think you will be happier with the slow loss and the sculpted body you will have achieved.

Now, to follow my own advice.... LOL!

Thank you for the vote of confidence, Kairk. I needed that today.

I'm feeling really stretched thin today. And not the thin I need/want to be. It just feels like so much. I'm feeling like I need a break...and yet I ate fairly liberally Friday-Sunday and skipped the gym last Friday & Sunday. Why is this so hard for me?

But you're right--I need to get back to focusing on only being better than myself. I'm definitely accomplishing that, albeit slowly.

I guess my biggest struggle recently is not getting enough time to cook and unwind at the end of the day. Luckily I have been able to prep dinner and have it ready when I get home. So at least it's home cooked. (but some people are scaring me about the idea of leaving an oven unattended...so idk). It just feels like I've been constantly going and I'm not used to that. I'm used to getting home, watching the news, making dinner, watching tv shows. I haven't hated going to the gym. In fact I've rather liked it. But I am especially missing my "veg out" time today. But since my husband doesn't get home until 6:30, we often don't make it up to the gym until 7, and not home until 8:15 or 8:30!

Well now I'm just complaining. Trying to figure out how this fits in the big lifetime picture. How do people do it? And I don't even have kids! sheesh! Especially feeling for y'all with kids/pets/spouses/parents to take care of. Today I feel like I'm failing at just taking care of me!

Perhaps it's too soon for you, but I often consider the gym my "down" time. I'm doing it strictly for myself and working out takes away all the stress (at least for the hour I'm working out) and when I cool down with cardio it's "think" time.

You are creating a new normal, which takes much work and effort and TIME to become a relaxing habit.

Stick with it. The pay off will be awesome.

Not sure if you remember a few years ago I posted about hiking up a huge hill with my students. As a MO person I found excuses to not make that hike each year. Since VSG I have not missed it once - even with my substantial weight gain the past two years I am in a state of fitness like I've never been before simply because through all the weight gain I never stopped exercising. I'm too heavy again, but I'm STRONG. And honestly, I'd rather be heavy and strong than thin and frail!

207. My daughter was moved from ICU to a regular room a little before midnight. She called me when I was sound asleep very upset because she was getting a roommate even though her doctor repeatedly told us she should never share a room at the ER or hospital. After several calls, I was told that although the nurses agreed that a dialysis patient should always be in a single room, it is against hospital policy. They kept repeating the roommate is clean, and has no infections. I explained what the doctor told us about the risk of infection and said I was going to have her sign out to move her to another hospital. They agreed to move the other patient so she will be alone overnight for dialysis and said the situation would be reassessed in the morning. Her doctor does not practice out of that hospital, so he has no say. She went there by ambulance. It's up to the hospital's doctors. This hospital gets more and more ridiculous every day.

Naturally, instead of waiting for a return call, I got up and showered, intending to drive down to move her, possibly get home for more sleep, before taking the kids to school and then to work. Luckily, the roommate was moved and I could go back to bed, but got very little sleep. The hospital doctor was appropriately horrified that they tried to put anyone in there with her while she was on dialysis with an open port. He signed orders so it will not happen again.

After the excitement died down, I felt hungry, it felt real, but I did not give in to it. Today, there are lots of holiday goodies everywhere and I am less prepared than usual. However, I have not and will not give in. It is harder when I am overtired and incredibly stressed. A co-worker keeps scream yawning like a wild cat. I told her she has to stop it, she's killing me. She laughed and said that she had a full night's sleep and doesn't understand what is wrong with her. I just told her again to stop it. This is the same person who sneezes and coughs loudly and wetly without a thought of covering her mouth. She has not stopped. sigh

So much stress --- best wishes flowing your way and to that DD of yours. I wish you had a bucket of lavender and lilacs to plunge your head into for extreme aromatherapy.

Joey, I can't possibly "like" your post -- that's too much stress to like. But I've been thinking about you so much. Last night I thought that if I could somehow get my hands on a fairy godmother magic wand, the first thing I'm would do is loan it to you.

Poof!!

Thank you for the thought, how great would it be to be able to poof everybody healthy?

Damn, I've said it before, but wow! you really need to catch a break!