Tuesday April 11

good morning everyone. Thoughtful and heartfelt posts yesterday. Am very appreciative of the honesty.

walked for only an hour but kept the food faith.

we are all keeping on. Yay!

Drive-by (in the office). Weight 116.25, calories 873.

Took DH to neurologist yesterday. He wants some tests because of recent quicker decline - also told DH to not drive until eval (and only after if okay). DH said he wouldn't. Neurologist endorsed the clinical trial we are looking at (was familiar with it and knows the researchers) but implied that DH might be too far along to participate.

Oh and found POA! SIL had the original!

Have a great day!

Weight: 156 grrr, Calories: 1077, Workout: Chest and back with trainer (no cardio)

Liz-glad you found the POA! Whew

Weight up today but trying not to let it phase me. Yesterday was a good day. I did eat lunch out at Firs****ch but ordered egg white power wrap and only had half. Dinner worked out well. I put sweet potatoes in to bake, and then place pre-marinated pork tenderloin (pretty small) with chopped and seasoned asparagus in a roasting pan in my other oven and put on "cook time" so the oven would shut off after 40 min. and headed to the gym. The asparagus was overcooked but everything was good and done when I came home from the gym.

It was weigh in day at the gym. I kind of wonder if they don't tinker with that to make you feel better? I know their scale weighs lighter, but the difference should be the same. But what he wrote down shows a 12lb. difference for me in 6 weeks. And yet I know I've been weighin higher the last 2 days and even at my biggest loss--counting from before we started with him, my scale only reflects 12lbs. Anyway, I'll take it. Important thing is we are losing and everything agrees :) The workout was chest, which is my weakest. It's a pretty frustrating workout for me because I feel like I only have two modes: go so light on weights that I don't feel anything, or go up the next level and am unable to even finish the first set. Grrr. Maybe it's just like being "in between sizes"

DSS announced that he's moving to Colorado this Wednesday (aka tomorrow). He's been wanting to do this for quite awhile but this is still sudden. He's taking a bus and crashing on a friend's couch until he can start making money. How different people are!--I'd have to have it all planned and picked out before I could make a move! DH is sad but shows it so differently. I don't think he likes to talk it out like I do. Men.

Yes... stressing over three pounds, within my target range, would be obsessive. I posted on Sunday that I was up 9 pounds from Saturday, then Sunday I added that when I moved my scale to the hardwood, there had been 3 pound increase from that original 9 pound increase. The twelve (12) pounds caused a complete and total panic and lack of logical thinking. I haven't worn my compression wrap or stocking in weeks, letting myself believe that my chronic lymphedema would "resolve" for capris season. After wrapping, I was down three (3) Monday and am down another three (3) today. Intellectually, I know I have another three(3) in fluid to flush, and that I am probably just three pounds heavier than I thought, from relocating the scale. That, I can manage. My brain just screamed 12, 12, 12 !!!! Every previous failure was activated and I was afraid "looking at the logic of the facts" mirrored my old pattern of making excuses and rationalizing. I had great difficulty anchoring back to healthy thinking. Fortunately, coming down six pounds in two days of wrapping helps quite a lot.

Here's to continuing to replace old tapes with healthier ones !!

Diane

Not much to report today. Weight up .8 - though honestly my body was being kind with only a .8 gain. I did not have enough water yesterday and one of my students brought me a mini box of chocolate covered macadamia nuts from her Hawaii vacation. I ate them all over the course of an afternoon. Granted only 230 calories, but it's the point.

I've concluded that it would be a set up for failure to start a WL regimen this week. I will leave for the dog show tomorrow and will be gone through Easter Sunday. There will be a lot of food activities and eating at odd times. Instead, I will focus on NOT GAINING. That's the choice and plan I think will work best for me this week. Then Tuesday the 18th will be my day of going no sugar. Once the initial 3 day reset is complete I will focus on a calorie level that will promote weight loss.

I believe my med transition is complete. No more euphoria, but a level balance, feeling of contentedness and calmness remain. I seem to be able to navigate previously upsetting situations much more easily and with kindness. Wish I had made this switch years and years ago. Had I felt this way in my early adulthood I think I may not have gone to self medication route (e.g. food, booze, smoking, etc...). Hindsight is hindsight, right?!?!?!

Greetings Faithful Ones

Rats Rain Returned! But down a half to 134. Glad you got the walk in Carbon. Probably no dog walks today around here unless this clears up. We drive to Sacramento tomorrow and I hope its clear. Traveling with four dogs in the rain and having to stop and walk them is no fun.

Liz so glad you found the POA. Otherwise a conservatorship would have been needed and its a royal pain. I had been wondering about your DH as your comments have indicated a more rapid decline. So I am glad there will be tests. We will be thinking of you. And Paula too of course.

Yeah Devon 4 days of dog shows is probably not a time to go on a program. I stocked up on quest bars and will take cheese sticks. My travel buddy will no doubt want to go to some exotic Asian restaurant which I can live with.

Diane O I can totally understand the freak out over 12 pounds. Glad you are getting resolved with the wraps and sorry you have to deal with that. But you really haven't gained weight. Shel hope your lymphodema is resolving too.

BB you are really rockin' it with the work outs. Good on you. Memo to self - go to gym.

DH is sitting in his chair with goldfish crackers and two dogs on his lap staring at him intensely. Quite a site. Wish he would quit those crackers.

Packing for the dog shows. We are only going for two days but I am having a hard time coming up with two decent outfits. Most of my clothes are of the type that can get clay on them.

Peace and hope my friends.

Diane S

Want good Japanese? Go here! Mikuni Sushi

It's in Arden Fair just across from Cal Expo. Good Cairn friends lived next door to Taro (owner) and introduced me to his restaurants 10+ years ago. Awesome food!

Hello friends. 115 for me today. Stealing from Bonnie, all praise to Sleevie. Quite honestly, I'm so grateful to have this tool to help me every single day. Yes I still have to do my part but things are so much better.

I'm sitting around drinking coffee, but need to get my but in gear to get out and get some groceries and pull something together for dinner.

I met with someone recently who introduced me to the existence of a genetic disorder called Trisomy X. It may explain our daughter's situation because nothing else has. We are pursuing the testing. Not that 'diagnosis' would change much, but it might be able to connect us to some community supports and generally help us plan for her future when we are gone.

Weather is slowly improving and I did get Violet out one afternoon. Boy did that feel great! My motorcycle completes me. lol

have a pretty day!