Monday. March ? 20

I scanned from the last couple days

Momsy-nice to "see" you

Devon-I am sorry about the scale. Although I feel a bit of relief when I finally do get on the scale--it's like I can finally move forward. I'm not "in the red" anymore. Whatever losses you have from here on out you can celebrate. It's a new day.

Diane Ocean-TOTALLY agree with you on fear of hunger and that it's never fatal. Hunger used to be too much for me to handle. And then I had none (or it could be taken care of very easily) post surgery. So then as time goes by and my sleeve is not as restricted as before, and I get hungry, I have begun to panic. To the point where I'd fill my purse and my desk drawer with snacks as though I had a toddler with me. Yes, to some extent not allowing myself to get overhungry is helpful. But it's also very difficult to eat 1000-1200 calories if you're eating 5-6 times per day--even if the food is healthy! I've noticed that my husband doesn't see hunger as I do. It's just a very natural response to the fact that it's almost dinnertime. Whereas I sometimes feel like "oh no, I must eat now." I'm still learning to breathe and be okay with hunger.

Weight: something like 160.4 today. Yay finally going down. If that's true then I've lost about 4lbs. in 4 weeks. I do feel like I've done a lot--and I know I could've skipped the exercise and just cut the cals. But I'm hoping this slow and steady is the way to go. Friday night did not go so well--a few guinness and a couple Jameson later. At least it's not a frequent thing. So I was worried that my loss on Saturday would be due to dehydration. But it's continued to drop/stay on Sunday and today. Saturday was a little rough to make our training session, but I actually felt really good about it and really pushed myself. And of course sweated anything else out.

It's been hot here in OK. DSD is on spring break and so we took step kids to exotic animal park on Saturday (lots of walking and standing). I was literally too tired to eat dinner by the end of the day.

Sunday=cardio day. I burned about 400 calories. We tried out the pool too (a bit of an ick factor with gym pools I think). Wowza is lap swimming a workout. After an hour of cardio I could only do a few laps. Especially since we had worked shoulders the day before--and I think swimming is a good shoulder/arm workout (well, whole body, really). I'm really itching to just get out and walk the dogs since it's been so nice (high of 93 degrees today--what?!). But that would mean not going to the gym and I know we won't get as good of a workout. But I really wanna! Still having to fight myself before going to the gym. But usually I feel better about doing it. I was worried after taking two days off in a row last week. But I think my body needed the rest. 4 weeks in: 20/28 days

203. I feel like my mind is clearing, that I can breathe a little bit and get my footing again after being caught in the breakers. (My strategy is to lie on the bottom of the ocean and let the waves crash over me and come up when the ocean calms. The ocean has not calmed and I have been caught in the breakers where all you can do is flail around trying to survive.)

My daughter was in the hospital again because she drank too much water. Yes, too much water!!! It flushed the electrolytes and sodium from her body causing her excruciating muscle spasms and shooting pains in her bones. Her fluids have been limited since she started dialysis, but she said she feels so much better when she drinks more water, that she drank more water. She is going to do what the doctors say. Moral of the story?I cannot eat all of the foods that I deem healthy, because they are not increasing my health. I have to do as I am told.

My daughter was released from the hospital and is following the rules. She is seeing a new endocrinologist today who will hopefully be able to balance her insulin vs. the glucose used in dialysis.

I have had my grandsons. The older had to do a report on a famous person from the State and dress up for a "wax museum" at school. He got Bruce Springsteen. He included the most obscure things from all the facts and stories I told him, like that he slept on the beach. It is really funny what kids retain. Needless to say, my grandson was the best Bruce in the room (there were 3 others). Photo to follow.

I listen to free books in the public domain on the LibriVox app during my commute. I've listened to most of the classics and stumbled upon some self-improvement books. I am currently listening to "Your Invisible Power" which was first published in 1921. It is a guide to the use of visualization and other mental processes in life enhancement and the achievement of personal goals. I am enjoying it. It was far ahead of its time.

134.2 - down. Got my cleaning done yesterday and pictures mostly edited and DH got his exercise in!

Work today and scouts tonight, so I know there will be no exercise.

A little bit of stomach troubles. I think all of the antibiotics I was taking for my dang ear have disrupted the normal flora in my gut. Staying close to the bathroom today!

Paula

I LOVE this!

Joey, if that young lady behind him is you, you look like his big sister -- not his grandmother!

Just going to say that if he is your GRANDSON, you must have been 12 when you had your daughter!

Thank you guys! What a lift!!

It reminded me of an attorney I worked for 20 years ago who was shocked that my daughter could possibly be so old and jokingly asked if I had her when I was 15. Being a smarta$$, I answered yes. He was mortified, apologized, went into his office while the other secretaries and I laughed. I had to apologize to him and tell him it was OK and that I was joking. I had her when I was 20. He thanked me for teaching him a lesson he would never forget.

(I also worked with a lawyer who asked a woman when her baby was due. Yup, she wasn't pregnant and he learned a valuable lesson.)

Greetings Good Friends

132 today. Haven't seen that in awhile. We had shrimp and asparagus curry last night. Low carb works for me.

Regarding temperpedic matresses, costco makes their own at a factory near San Francisco and they cost about 1/4 as much. We got the split king with the separate controls for up and down because hubby is supposed to sleep with head elevated. I even got Dr. Cirangle to write a prescription for it due to DH acid reflux. But we didn't have enough medical to deduct it. Between the mattress and the down comforter its like sleeping in a cloud. We love it. So do dogs.

Yikes Diane O, water leakage. We had the same thing with an outside faucet at the far end of the yard. Service district called us and told us we should check for some kind of leak.

Carbon, baby shower sounds fun. Always fun to pass around and look at the cute stuff and have a girl party. Good for you for passing on the sweets. Always a challenge at such events.

Dave all your work amazes me. You are one skilled dude.

Driving with new driver around tulip farms! Sounds like a good time and way to learn.

Joey glad you get to breathe a little. And your little "Bruce" looks ultra cool. What a fun school idea.

BB take the dog walk. Good for you and dogs.

There is a zumba class at my new gym this afternoon so I may drop in and see what I can do.

DH has the two younger dogs on his lap. They spend a lot of time there. He is one big piece of dog furniture. In fact, DH's last name is Couch. He is a dog couch. LOL

Well kiln opens today and goodies to be found. A good thing on a rainy day.

Peace and try to stay out of the breakers! Diane S

Weight same as yesterday. Hmmm... was hoping for a drop. Maybe tomorrow.

Sleep was elusive. I slept from about 12:30 until 4:50. Helped pup pup get a little early morning breakfast courtesy of Mama Blue. I didn't really sleep after that, but I did lie with my eyes shut and I dozed in and out. Needless to say I'm a bit sleepy today, but I'll manage. Funny, how the night before I slept so well, and then last night was not so great at all! Wonder if this could also be my body adjusting to the new med. Shel?

My PCP made the referral to the psychiatrist. Hallelujah! By the time I get to see him, I'm sure I will have been on the new med for a good 2 months and we will take it from there.

I am back to tracking today. I need to commit to a full week of tracking, so I'm committing here to post my calories for the next week. Saturday and Sunday are dog show days, so it may be hard to do, but I will try my best to prepare food ahead of time and bring it with me.

Little Piglet (who no longer is a piglet - she's leaning out quite beautifully)is 4 weeks old today and is learning to eat. She is eating off of my finger and not ready to put her nose into the bowl yet. She is eating a delightful mush of goat milk and pulverized 100% beef dog food. I'm hoping that by the end of the week she will be eating on her own. Fingers crossed. She is a little younger than I like for weaning.

Not much else. Be well!