Monday March 13

Good! That's why I wanted to share. I was raised in an education-crazed family. Not going to college wasn't an option. Both my parents are lawyers, one sis engineer, one sis med school, and me lawyer. My husband's side is a little different in that neither of his parents graduated college, but he worked hard to attain his education and tried to instill that in his kids. So when DSS dropped out, DH felt like a failure. We all really tried to pu**** on DH. And it just made us and him more disappointed. It was especially disappointing considering how he's much more naturally smart than the rest of us. Every class has been a breeze.

I kept thinking "once he learns this, or we show him this, he'll change his mind." I'm a bit controlling, but working on that. I am now at peace with the fact that he may never go to school. Maybe he will, maybe he won't. But trying to push that on him only made him more unhappy and us more unhappy. He didn't even want to talk to his dad! It's totally out of character for me to say this, but I'm so much more peaceful now that I'm okay with it. I'm a bit at a loss because it wasn't my path. And we're scared because I think life might be harder for him. But now we are focused on trying to help him find what he can be inspired to do without giving him a false sense of security if that makes sense.

I'll be honest, it makes me sad to hear other parents gloat about their kids graduating from Rice when DSS could've easily done that. But the fact that our relationship with his is better now that we've let go of those hopes makes up for that.

134.8.

At the hospital again today to get chemo port put in.

Chemo and radiation start tomorrow already. Giving DH the buzz cut tonight! Ordered a lift chair and an adjustable bed yesterday. All ready to tackle this cancer!

Happy Monday to you all!

Morning friends. Again no weight to report. Haven't been looking forward to getting on the scale but I must. Food choices are still too loosey goosey for me to feel good about it. And as I mentioned, wine has definitely become a bad habit that I 'miss' when I don't have a glass.

I've got a rare string of days off, whi*****luded a weekend at home with DH. We met with our landlord and have agreed to stay on for now. It's very much on our terms so our good track record with this rental has really paid off. Still no longer term plans in place due to our likely permanent commitment to provide support for our DD but we are looking forward to doing some extended traveling again this summer. I have arranged six weeks off so if we can swing things financially we will hit the road with our RV and motorcycles again.

Regarding daylight savings time, studies show that it makes no ecological sense here in Alberta, but people have grown accustomed to very late evening light that dst provides here. Apparently it was the retail folks who pushed it in the beginning. Big talk of giving up the switch, but also of choosing to give up our real time zone to keep the long evenings. That would mean winter sunrise as late as 9:40 am! Makes no sense ecologically but looks like things could go that way!

Greetings Committed People

Still 133 today which I gratefully accept. My activity yesterday consisted of folding clothes and gluing ceramic dog heads on to wine stoppers for my upcoming show. Productive, useful, but not exactly much in the movement department.

Just got a call from my older brother, a sleever. His wife has been in the hospital with a bowel obstruction and they have not been able to resolve it and are talking surgery. Not a good situation as my brother has a brain tumor and is able to work but not drive. My SIL is in lousy health so this is worrisome. Guess its always something.

Paula your no nonsense can-do attitude amazes me. You certainly are a strong person but lean on whomever you can. Ditto for all of you with family issues.

Liz hope the travel works out with the predicted storms. Glad your kids are doing their part with DH.

Dave glad the dogs are settling in to the Airstream. Its one big den to them. Must be so fun to have a shop to putter in and deer to see. Ya know, seems like the N and Y thing should not be that bad for you.

Shel, the hardest part about painting is getting all the junk out of the way to do it. You think you can work around it but are always running into something. Been there done that!

Well hang in there everyone. Paula, I wish we could make you "Queen for A Day". Anyone old enough to remember that old tv show?

Well onward and upward (guess I should say downward since we are about weight here ) Peace and hope. Diane S

Paula, I love your positive, can-do outlook. It can really make a difference in how you navigate the upcoming treatment when you approach it so matter-of-fact a way!

Life marches on. Yesterday, not a great day. Food was okay, but not fantastic.

The weather really warmed up yesterday - upper 70s. Was wonderful, until it came time to dress for the warmth. I don't think I need to say anything more than that. You have all been there. Anyway, since my shorts from last summer were simply too snug, I had to put on an old pair of shorts that I had long since handed over to Ron. Ron was in the same boat and my misery did enjoy the company- not going to lie about that.

Phone appt. with PCP today. Fingers crossed.

I was just thinking how in the past I would have never, ever related the shorts anecdote. That is a good thing, I think, to be able relate my truth as humbling as it might be.

Looking at 20-26 inches of snow on the way ! It is supposed to be light and fluffy, so I'm golden with the snow blower ! Looking forward to burning calories and then some final cross country skiing for the season. In the range, and intending to stay there.

Bonnie, Paula, Devon, Linda, Diane S., Shel, Joey, Dave... you (and everyone not individually mentioned) continue to amaze and motivate me. Sharing your truth has made such an impact on me.

Diane