Wednesday December 28

The control thing is panic.  Pure and simple.  I have been hovering at 227 lately but even that is regain over past six month.  Skipped weighing a couple of days got on the scales last night and 234.8. (Having a hard time typing this number) I know that is the heaviest part of my day.  And I know it is numbers on a scale.  I see the weight flooding back on.  I am powerless over certain foods.  And even with the panic of the scales my sugar intake today was bad.  Where did my motivation go?  Where did my get back to basics go?  I desire to be back in my medium sized pants.  I desire to be under 200.  The I should is not working for me either and I'm about to find some super glue for my lips.  Not really.  Thanks for musing.  It makes me think.  Maybe even think less panicked.

You know David, your caloric intake is (at least usually) so very low that you should in no way be able to maintain a weight greater than 200, probably less than that - not sure of your height. I think your metabolism is just 100% wacked. I wonder if a conversion to a DS would work for you? Is that even an option to consider for you? Just thinking out loud here.

I don't think I have that option.  My surgeon wouldn't even do it.  I would have to find another doc.  And take a mortgage out on my house.

It is pricy, but probably no more than plastics which you stated you don't need! Think of it as your plastics budget!

Sorry about your old pup.  When you keep dogs the vet bills can pile on. We have an grumpy old boxer.  Has weird gi problems.  Doc thought maybe pancreatic.  Hope all goes well with yours.

I know how you feel Devon. My goal graduation buddy Shel is more than 10 lbs. lighter than me now (sigh). So happy for her but wondering what I am lacking that I am not there too! I do know that my PS took a lot of energy out of me and it is taking me some time to come around to getting back into my regular physically active life. I also know that I just didn't have the motivation to say no to all of the Holiday sweets. My surgeon closed his practice and moved out of state. I have No follow-up. Bad for me for accountability but ultimately it is mine to keep, not his!