Wednesday December 28

Wishful thinking! Not enough exercise for long enough period of time for it to be muscle. I'm blaming my new boobs! Lol!

Good morning

such a busy busy day yesterday but quite wonderful.   Visitors, visitors, visitors.   Finished up the last of the dishes at 7 and plunked into bed.   A family arrive this evening for a week!     They are trying to encourage us to do the polar bear swim.   

Busy busy!  No way I would do a polar swim (unless it was in Florida or Aruba LOL).

Wt up again.  Cal 1152.  Rented a demolition hammer to bust out the rest of the concrete at the shop in the woods.  Much easier than busting it out by sledge hammer.  Extra pain meds but hopping the activity will turn the scales.  It is at this point that I usually say to myself "what is the point of it all?  I'm gaining and abstaining from my beloved N&Y.  Then they promptly get added back but I have to stay the course this time.  My weight graphed line has been increasing slowly over the past year.  I feel way out of control and I NEED control on this.  And my family decided to have a late Christmas dinner today at my mother's house.  

DW plans on plastics later on.  I have been fortunate in that area.  

Seek Peace, Do good.  David

Hang in there - your calories are low, so the scale should eventually reflect that.

I'm finding that I have to get calories Down to 800 before scales move.  I am at my hungriest in the morning but I do better on total calories if I just have coffee for breakfast. Thank for the encouragement!

Greetings Good People

Well the sun is out and therefore my attitude is sunny. Makes such a difference. Especially since I am still at 133. Rats. I truly think its not my eating so much as lack of exercise. Need to get going. Wish I had the energy of this puppy. I swear she is sending messages in Morse Code with her squeaky toy. Probably wants a long walk. We both need it. 

Love hearing about all the plastics and wish everyone the best. Looking at all the news with pictures of Carrie Fisher in that weird bikini costume made me dream of a taut waist. Oh well, not gonna happen.

Dave, glad you rented the jackhammer. Hope it saves you some pain. 

Well the year end is almost here and gotta finish up the last of the financial duties for studio and gallery. I think we are in pretty good shape but gotta crunch those numbers. Hubby gave me a magnifying glass that has lights in it. Really helps go through these reports which print out small. 

How great to have a personal chef. Wish we had one. We do have a personal dishwashing assistant which is Tesla who wants to get into the dishwasher all the time so we can't ever leave it open for minute!

Well better get my day organized and get some steps on the fitbit. Enjoy your guests and family all.  Diane S.

My puppies try to lick the dishes in the dishwasher as well!

I once had a pig of a dog who actually climbed into the open oven looking for drips!  It was cool of course. She also used to steal wooden spoons from the dishwasher.  This new puppy Tesla learned to get into he dishwasher at 9 weeks of age. 

The other piggy dog actually opened the refrigerator once by pulling on a dish towel that was hanging through the handle. She was a cairn terrier so not very tall and only got into the bottom stuff. All she wanted to do was eat. Know the feeling.    Diane S

Hi all, 

Busy, busy morning. Got up and took my old man in for a teeth cleaning and another cancer removed from his anus. The vet texted and said he needs 6 teeth extracted and found a mass in his mouth somewhere. Taking the mass out and having it analyzed. I feel like I'm bleeding money right now with the dogs. Oh well, I signed up for it, right? Then I dropped the car off for a tune up and headlamp replacement. Came home and trimmed my BF's dog, cut his hair and cut Ron's. Stopped mid morning for some yogurt and just finished lunch. 

Down a whole .2 this morning. Whew hoo! LOL! I did not eat a lot yesterday, but I did not eat well. Too little protein and a little too high in carbs - not bad carbs, but still carb calories are so easy to take in. After logging my intake honestly, I found I had eaten 2300+ calories. Good reminder how even when not eating a lot, eating the wrong things can add up very, very quickly. 

Sing! Went and saw it last night. If you have not seen it, see it. A toe tapping, feel good movie. Up lifting and positive. Great animation, fun story (Mickey and Judy let's put on a show type of thing - but 2016) and upbeat music. Seth Macfarland's mouse portrayal was great. Tori Kelly sings impressively. I liked Rogue One.  I LOVED Sing! Must figure out what we will see tonight. Yup, it's movie week!

David's post about regaining control prompted me to think a bit. I wonder for myself sometimes if trying so hard to get control is counter productive to letting the control happen. I know that's a weird way of thinking, but sometimes when we (I) force something, it can not be sustained. Maybe allowing control to happen from true desire rather than from desperation and fear is the way to go. I don't know. I'm musing. But it seems to me that to create real and sustainable change we need to really want to do it and have a clear and obtainable and valuable goal. I know for me the desire to be thin is not strong enough to exert control over my food intake in the long run. I need to have SMART goals that truly mean something to me. "I should" goals just don't work for me anymore. (They probably never did, it's just now I understand that.)

I am having trouble reading our board this week. I'm not sure why, but I read some posts and feelings of sadness swell up. I don't know how to explain it, but it does happen. I think I am comparing myself to those of you who are maintaining well and I am feeling less than. Totally on me - I get that. Just weird and I thought I'd put it out there because doing that sometimes helps me make sense of it, or at least let go of the feeling.  

Happy Hump Day!