Wednesday November 23 - One Day Until Turkey Day!

 For those of you who have not been able to re-lose that 20-30 pounds for a very long time, would it make more sense to focus on a maintenance plan?

This is a question I have asked myself several, if not many, times. It is a sticky wicket for me. I do not know about others. You see, while I can carry some extra weight with ease, there comes a point at which I appear plug like or too round and short and I find that unpleasant. Weight is an emotionally charged issue for many of us. I think so many of us have number angst that we get caught up in the numbers game. Think about it: you like 113, I think Paula and Shel like 123, Liz seems to love 120, Diane O. 134ish (though there was a time she liked 129), Diane S. wants 129s, Lesa likes 140 or lower, and me I reveled at 173-178. 

So, I know I have a number hang up. I have to be under 200 pounds to feel in a normal range. In the 180s is ideal and honestly, being in the 170s is it on a stick because I'm down right thin. 

Yes, I am very hard on myself. I know that. It's something I'm working on regularly. I was doing well for a while and now it's sort of gone to **** again. I am aware which is keeping me from spiraling downward. I'm much more forgiving of myself than I once was. I am stressed on so many fronts that it is hard for me to keep the food in line. I get it. I work on it. I can see where I want to be, but I can't find the path that I can manage to lead me there.

I am truly working on finding that right path. Yesterday the focus was to be protein. The popcorn was planned, so that was fine. BUT how's this for screwed? I ate a boiled egg with 2 oz of turkey breast for breakfast around 9 or 9:30. I was actually physically hungry by 10:30, so when I got home I made a single egg omelet with 2 oz of turkey breast and 1 oz shredded cheese. That did the trick, so maybe I needed the fat. I felt that I had eaten 2 breakfasts. I was satisfied enough that I didn't eat again until after my workout at the gym, but was kind of over the protein thing, didn't have cooked options other than the turkey and Ron's bologna (yuck!) and ended up eating a carb laden 1/2 cup of oatmeal with 1/4 cup blueberries and a TBS of chopped pecans. Oh, and I added a TBS of honey for flavor because it was too bland. So calorie wise, lunch was okay. Macro wise, maybe not so much. 

I'm rambling... I love how you ask questions that encourage me to verbalize (or digitalize) what I have been mulling over for days and weeks. Your point is well taken. Perhaps when I get to that livable weight of under 200 lbs. I will be able to revisit the concept you propose. Until then, it will be a quest, battle, journey, fight, goal, to get the 20 give or take of to be below 200. 

By the way, I wanted to say this to everyone: I do not have a weight problem. I have a food abuse problem. I do not struggle with my weight. My weight is simply a reflection of my emotional struggles for which I use food to cope. (Sometimes honesty sucks!)

You've asked a question I've asked myself a thousand times.  Trying to figure things out.  I'm hoping to maintain through the holiday and then we'll see. I'm tired of losing the same 10#.  Maybe I should just keep it...lol

Greetings Great Maintainers

Love hearing everyone's Thanksgiving plans. Yikes, car wreck in the middle of the night. Scary. 

Love the sand sculpture. Hey Diane O, I have a nephew in Redondo Beach but I think he is moving soon. 

I love my thanksgiving plans best of all - go to friends house and bring a healthy spinach dish. Hang around, help whatever is needed in the kitchen, eat and come home.  Friday is for watching football and NOT shopping. 

Well ya know we all have a body type that no amount of weight loss is going to change. Though I am only 5'4", I have big hands, wear a size 9 shoe, have a big fat head. Big ears too. Nothing will change that and I am finally ok with it. I used to be embarrassed about my big feet in high school. Doesn't mean I don't need to pretty vigilant about weight but gotta learn to ignore those things I cannot change when I look in the mirror. So my point is to focus on what we can do and not worry about other stuff. Wish I had learned this 50 years ago. Being vigilant about weight is really being vigilant about health. 

Hey and I am at 132.5 today. A pound magically disappeared overnight. Maybe I can make a couple more disappear. (Ha like thats going to happen over Thanksgiving).

Well my Christmas show art piece got fired yesterday. It won't come out until tomorrow or friday. A different person was firing so I hope its ok. Its a mother polar bear reading a christmas story to two cubs. 

Have a great holiday all. Focus on the company cuz thats what counts.   Diane S.