Nov 5. Sat

good morning

not the best of days yesterday.  1478 calories but not good choices.    Steps 11778

 the rain is raining, but as I live in a rain forest not quite sure why am surprised!

have a good one.

Good morning!  Carbon, sounds like your steps were good and calories so don't beat yourself up.

122.75 this morning  - must be down because of the missing almonds.  I ate okay during the day, but my choices at the end of the day were not great (out to dinner again), but like Carbon calories were good.

I'm planning on going to the gym this morning - weekends are better for activity than weekdays.  Didn't sleep well last night so hopefully more activity will help tonight.

Have a good Saturday!

Wt 220  Cal 1386

Went to the city yesterday for DW doctor appointment.  Traffic was normal AM rush hour.  She was the first patient so no waiting.  And back home by noon.  Not many steps in the afternoon.  Hope to get some major airstream steps in today.   I think our fall is finally starting.  It has been in the mid 80's  high today is 70.  perfect temp for a week.

Have a great weekend.

Weight hasn't budged, but my head is in a better place. I'm about to go outside and rake, so bring on those endorphins!!  Already grocery shopped, dusted, vacuumed, and did litter boxes.

I was able to find Siggi's 2% pumpkin Greek yogurt, 5.3 oz.  I've been adding a few tablespoons of unsweetened canned pumpkin, along with my Vita-fiber. Very tasty and filling !! If I'm making it a meal, I'll add protein powder.

It seems that I find / reread books when I am ready to hear and integrate their powerful message. I'm currently reading and thoughtfully LOVING "Eating Less: Saying Good-bye to Overeating", by Gillian Riley.  It deals with learning to make peace with food and rewiring the brain (CBTish) to balance enjoying eating with fueling/ strengthening addictive desire. She looks at maintaining  a sense of choice while getting control of food choices. It looks at a costs/benefits scenario for being out of control v. Being in control.  Validates the work I'm focusing on and makes sense regarding the shifts I'm trying to solidify.

...balance enjoying eating with fueling/ strengthening addictive desire.

Love, love, love this goal. It is a difficult one to achieve, but I will tell you I am so much better at being able to balance this in my life now than I was 18 months ago. Even when I do "lose" it and binge on sugar, the binges are much more short lived than they were before. 6 years ago an unknowing, un-underderstood, and uniquely unaware sugar binge might last months. My last one was a whole 36 hours. Vast improvement.

Keep up the good work in the "head department". For some of us that is what will keep us winning in this game.

126.something. Itchy and a bit sore is the name of the game for today. Plan to attend DS#2 play today, then rest. DH leaves tomorrow for job interview in Ft. Myers. Glad my boys are self sufficient and I wont have to do much fot them. Will have my first PS follow up on Tuesday. Anxious to get some of these stitches out. Might need to take a nap before the play! Already feeling sleepy.

Weight same as yesterday.

Engaged in a little off plan sweet eating last night. I'm not sure how much my subconscious was involved. I did not do much damage and when a craving hit, I made some yogurt to ward off the desire to eat more of the wickedly good cakes that arrived at the house last night. In short: Kathryn arrived with a loaf cake in her arms. Ron left the restaurant with a piece of Key Lime Pie. After dinner we stopped so I could pick up some eggs at Safeway. Kathryn ventured into the bakery. She came to the check out with 2 pudding cakes. Ron followed her with a pair of bakery custard eclairs. At about 10:30 Ron, Kathryn, and Kevin tucked into the cakes. (Ron had already had his Key Lime Pie). I sat and watched. I held off. Then when they all went back into the kitchen for another piece of this or that, I decided to have a small slice of the tuxedo cake that Kathryn had brought earlier. I also nibbled the thinnest sliver of blueberry pudding cake. Kathryn's intention was to leave all the cake here. Like HELL! I sent it all off packing, except a bit for Ron (which I put in the freezer so it was out of sight and out of mind for me).  Around midnight I watched as Ron downed one of the eclairs. So, not too much damage done on my end as I said. At least I did not pig out. 

It is hard for me this far out to ask my friends to not engage in eating sweets around me. It is hard for me to deal with still - having everyone else eat cake while I abstain (or try to). I don't like the "feeling left out" part which is why I think I partake, even when I know it will stir up cravings. I do believe I navigated it okay - even though the little sugar fiend won out for a short bit. I did rein it in and refrain from allowing myself a baked goods free for all! So, rack another point up on my side, right? Baby steps. 

Very busy day ahead. I have 4 dogs to trim. Will check in this evening and see how you all are doing. 

Greetings Dear Skinnies

133. Wrong direction. Need to get moving. As has been the case all my life, I have plenty to do but it is mental desk stuff. I did get the puppy for a walk yesterday and will do so today. No football game until 5 pm so don't have that excuse. 

Had a dream last night of eating all kinds of food - roast beef, and all sorts of fancy pastries. Must have been channeling you, Kairk. Anyway, in the dream I knew I shouldn't eat the stuff and wondered why it wasn't making me sick. Woke up with a feeling of relief that it didn't happen.

Kairk, I hear ya about not wanting to ask friends to not eat sweets in front of you. Early on, I decided I was not going to ask my friends to modify what was served or eaten because it was my problem, not theirs. However, early on I was not tempted by all that stuff as I just wasn't hungry.  Things are different now. I am about a week away from 7 years. I find that getting the stuff away asap works about the best. Last night I ate a couple of crackers with some fancy flavored butter that someone left here from Halloween. The rest of it went down the garbage disposal. No need to have that around. 

Paula, sounds like the plastic recovery is going well. Be sure to rest plenty.

Diane O, hang in there. retirement is on the way and we are blessed to live long enough to have one. 

Cheers and Peace.  Diane S

124's today.  Yoga'd yesterday, ok steps.  

We had a 36 hour respite from rain.  We basked and marveled in the sun's glory.  The rain is back today which is ok, too.  

Kairk, you run with a rough crowd.  I think you balanced last night beautifully.  (My yoga instructor this morning commented that we have to find a balance between ease and effort which continues to run thru my mind) 

Paula, make sure you keep up with resting, esp with DH out of town.  You only have once to heal up.  Gotta make sure the girls have their best chance to shape up!

Hope everyone is having a great Saturday!  Linda, miss your daily pop-ins but know you are busy settling into new rhythms.  

Shel