Saturday October 29

127.8. Already got my day in at work and will be headed home soon. Co-workers wedding reception tonight. Won't quite make it to the ceremony. Work again tomorrow.

Paula

Good morning all. It is almost 10:00 am and I'm still in my flannels and a sweatshirt sipping coffee! Lovely. 

Hkinzfnp - congrats on your major NSV today. You look fabulously fit and trim! I am quite impressed by anyone who can run. I do not have the joints for it (bone disease) and admire those who can. I hope you are deliriously proud of your accomplishment. 

Weight was up .5 today. Little salty food at dinner, but also probably due to the muscle soreness and tenderness from Thursday's workout. I did get 2.7 miles in on the elliptical yesterday in the early evening (not quite 5000 strides) and got the heart up to a sustained 140+ bpm. 

Feeling leery about Monday and the candy fest! It's always difficult at school, but I have parents who health conscious this year and two students who are "sugar sensitive" (I call BS on it because they both are allowed sugar at times - weekends and after school-, but the parents are looking at dietary changes to help correct learning disabilities and focusing issues. I understand that quest, though my many years of teaching leads me to believe that about 95% of the time it is a futile path to follow.). Our Halloween party treats will be popcorn, fruit, pudding and either water or milk to drink. That's it. That will be easy for me to navigate. 

I've decided that it will be helpful for me to have some scale goals in mind as we enter the Eating Season on Monday. My goal is to weigh the same on January 4, 2017 as I did on January 4, 2016. With honesty I must admit that means I must lose 10 pounds. I think that is an attainable goal and one that will help me maintain my food composure during this upcoming Eating Season. 

When I was a teen I never understood why my mother insisted that she was soooo hungry when she dieted. I knew there was no possible way she could really be as hungry as she claimed to be. Dealing with my post VSG regain and having gained an awareness of my intense issues with food, I understand now. I have been dealing with some mean head hunger for two days. I know I am not physically hungry, but damn there is a drive to eat. There is an insatiable gnawing in my mind's gut to eat. Yesterday it was sweet driven. Perhaps it is the ongoing exposure to the treats available at school (yesterday it was pizza, brownies, chocolate covered grahams, and chocolates galore!)

I noticed yesterday afternoon that even though I had eaten a hardboiled egg about an hour prior, I got home and wanted to eat and along with that craving I developed what seemed like physical symptoms of emptiness and a rumbling in my tummy. I had not yet had my planned yogurt for the day so I sat down with that topped it with a tsp of chopped pecans (Sorry David!) and tucked into it. It helped and afterwards I was "full". (My yogurt, btw, is my daily flex food. I prepare it, take it with me, and I eat it when I NEED it. It's always planned and logged in before hand. I just pick when to eat it.) What was interesting to me was that even though I could feel the physical fullness and satisfaction, I was not emotionally satisfied. There was still a drive to "eat something good". I have purposely rid the house of those "good" things (LOL), so I just sat with the feeling, concentrating on the feeling in my esophagus that told me I was really full, and got past it. 

Thanks for letting me work through my thoughts and issues here. It is so very helpful for me to have an outlet among those who understand the challenges of life after WLS, meeting goal, regain, still being majorly messed up around food, and my continual quest to improve. Here I sit in the process, and OH has asked me to write an article on long term success! Sort of cracks me up. I think my article could be summed up in three words: NEVER GIVE UP! 

Peace and serenity to you all.

Love your musings Devon! Hugs to you!

Not that I need to say it, but there seem to be so many work environments that are closely tied to excessive food. So grateful I've never worked in one. It must be incredibly difficult to work in one of those environments so props to you my friend for successfully navigating your way through the vast majority of the time. 

Greetings Holiday Heros

132 today. Well the first of the big food orgies is coming up. I have mentioned we have a halloween party where I serve soup and healthy stuff. Grapes and cheese are dessert. Anyone can indulge in all the halloween candy they want and I just try not to. Its harder every year.

Last night about 9 pm I found myself truly hungry. Usually can get myself convinced its head hunger. Had a piece of cheese and a glass of wine which I truly enjoyed but probably caused that half pound upswing. 

Football game is not until late afternoon which leaves me facing the giant pile of papers to keep sorting. 

Paula yay on the plastics. go for it.

Heather, you look like a major track star. Great pic and congrats on being able to do the run. Inspiring.

BTY, Dr. Cirangle told me I should eat olives as a snack food. I guess it would cut the sweet craving and its hard to pig out on them. Something I just remembered.  LOL imagine handing out olives on Halloween!

Well take it easy Devon, you have  had a lot going on. Nice to have a pj/coffee day. I think I will go out and cut some fresh rosemary from the yard to disguise all the doggy smell in our house. 

Well my halloween costume should probably be BatGirl. Wish there were a super hero with lots of droopy skin that performed feats with it. Have to think one up.    Cheers.  Diane S

Have a great party Diane....I would eat olives!