Monday, Oct. 3rd

126.2. Last day in this house but I am working and have scouts tonight, so not much of a day as it turns out. Won't have internet tomorrow so may not log on.

Happy Monday!

wt 219.4  cal  1122

Not much exciting going on in my world.  Have a great Monday!

Morning everyone and Happy Monday.

congratulations renren on reaching goal and welcome!

Great food day but almost moribund yesterday.  All I did it seems, was doze, in spite of swirling chaos around me.     

Have a good one.  

Hello Family !!

     Starting week #3 as substitute principal !!  AHG !!! Lots of challenges and stressors I'd moved away from, working in central office administration.

Lessons Learned:

• Pumpkin spice anything.... even in moderation... is NOT my friend.  Huge TRIGGER !!!!
• Regular high level activity HAS to take priority in my schedule.
• Two consecutive weekends visiting my sisters, and lots of showers and eating out / others' home cooked meals is a major challenge to my routine.
• Keep drinking water !  Then, drink more water !!

Detoxing from sugar today.  I'm still dealing with swelling, but have the final fitting for my Rx compression stockings tomorrow !  Yeah !!  Currently fluctuating in 134-139 range.  It feels good, clothes still fit exactly the same (except for right pant's leg)... suspect much if it is "hollow leg", and that I'm still 129-134 without the excess fluid.

Have a great week !

Good morning everyone!!

140.8- big jump down today after a run and some time in the old restroom.

I ran 5 1/2 miles this morning!!  I'm so excited as its my longest distance so far at one of my fastest times.  It's nice to still have goals even though I'm keeping the scale in the same 5 pound range.

Im off today so planning some chill time and then 15 year old has a soccer game later.  Also planning to make up a couple meals for the next few days at work.

Hope you all have a great day!!

Heather :)

125 today, home yoga'd yesterday and lots of steps including walking to the grocery store.  Walking to the grocery store made me feel nostalgic for my years as a student, then Peace Corps volunteer and as a young working adult who didn't need no stinkin' car.  As I lugged the groceries home, I felt less nostalgic for my youth and more nostalgic for my SUV sitting in my driveway. 

My LBL was almost 3 months ago.  I have little visible swelling anymore and any boost of metabolism has likely washed out.  I think I need to trim down calories a bit at this point.   My weight seems to be trending up and I don't want that.  Because of the LBL, I don't feel it in my clothes, of course, which can be quite deceiving.  

Also (always) on my mind is my target range, esp in light that the MD took off 2.5 lbs of skin.  However with the 2.5 lbs removed, I don't think I will lower my target weight.  

Until a few days ago, I had been averaging a couple of pounds lower in my range than prior to LBL and that's ok.  But, I feel lean "enough" that I don't feel the need to go lower.  Even if I gain 2.5lbs in fat, I'm ok with that because of my past dexa scans.

Part of decision making process is conversations with PS.  When I asked "exactly" how much she had removed, she knew why I was asking and said at that appointment and each subsequent appointment that she had "seen inside" and I didn't have extra fat to lose.  She also pointed out that in her business she is very much into aesthetics and most people do need to lose and she is candid with people about that. But, she didn't think there was any benefit in that for me and there was real risk of decreasing overall health with being too lean.

I'm ok with all that in general.  At this point, fitness is my main objective tho of course that certainly includes weight control.  And clearly I am not totally ok with this decision given my super long post explaining my thought process as if I need to justify it to the world.   And my brain (silly brain) still has the usual response to increase in scale weight.

So, that is that. 

Go be strong today. 

Shel

Getting ready for my trip. Feeling sort of stressed (as I always do) prior to leaving. Traveling with Ron amplifies the stress. He is a procrastinator and leaves many things to the last minute. I expect that he will be up all night before leaving on Wednesday morning. While it's his issue, it still stresses me. 

I do not want to go to see the shrink today. Probably a good indicator I should go. Feeling the time crunch of getting things ready. I also don't want to discuss the food abyss that I seem to be precariously perched on since Lucy died. Had a bit of a break down of Saturday about her. Feel a little better since. 

Scale issue is beginning to take it's toll. I sent pics to the company, but have yet to hear back. I think for my own sanity and well being I will have to break down and buy a new one. Irritating - especially since Taylor has such a good reputation. 

At least I know I am strong, fit, and far from being the obese person I once was. I am hanging on to that today. 

I have been caught in the breakers recently.  I grew up at the beach, and when things get really bad for me, it reminds me of being a little kid caught in the breaking waves that just keep knocking you down so you cannot get back up without help.  You get whirled around inside the waves, disoriented and feel like you're going to drown.  When a grownup was with you so you knew it was safe, it was fun.  Now I'm the grownup.  My daughter needs help, not me, but as any parent knows it is me, too.  She asked for help and is getting lots of it so things should start to get better.  My mentally ill son has started to show signs of the strain and lashed out yesterday while I had my grandsons, which was the worst possible time.  I sought solace in ice cream.  Luckily, I realized it immediately, put it down and let it melt.  I would not even touch it to throw it away until this morning when all danger was past.  I have been making some bad food decisions, but I feel like I am still in control of myself if not the situation around me.     

115 after a salty junk food dinner.  Day off today, which is definitely needed after three incredibly busy days at work. It's mentally and physically taxing, but I'm hoping things will improve on both fronts after I get more used to things. 

Totally unprepared for DD to move in with us in a couple of weeks, so DH and I both need to get our butts in gear. There's a lot to do and it must be done prior to DH surgery on the 20th. Not sure where I'm at mentally with the move in. Work has served as a distraction. 

Off to get a few groceries, but probably not doing much else. A rest day!  

131.5, Sounds like we are all having a few issues today. Mine was having to "reboot" the toilet after a big deposit. Oh well. Didn't even lose any weight. But these stresses will pass. Its a sprinkling gloomy day so the painter can't come finish the trim as planned. So be it. Its not a race.

Gotta do the art gallery checks tonight. Always tense as I never know if the computer will cooperate. Power outage on the 30th at the gallery didn't help. 

Made tacos with ground chicken and veggies last night. I had one small tortilla. Frisco is right that ground chicken is better than ground turkey. I seem to be craving Mexican foods lately. But gotta beware of chips. 

Kiln opens today. Gotta hurry and go check it out. 

Think peaceful thoughts everyone.  Diane S.