Friday Oct 23

To do it well, I'd have to buy a few things and I'm digging in my heels about spending money on clothes when I have plenty that are just a bit too snug. When the puppy weight is gone I'll get stylin' again. Though, I do have to admit, I'm already planning on buying a new something for the banquet in PA. Got to make a bit of a splash, right?

183 so up a bit, but I deserve it.  Too many carbs and not enough protein.  Probably light on the water also.

I am being more consistent with exercise, so that's a plus.  I'm running a few days per week again and incorporating yoga because my flexibility is crap.

TGIF!  Enjoy the weekend.

Wt 221  Calories 1264

I have been away taking my mother to visit with her much younger sister with terminal cancer.  Sadly, I expect to make another trip soon for the funeral.  This has been so unexpected.  Then traveled again yesterday to buy floor covering for the airstream.  Managed to get a 5 mile bike ride in too.  My eating is  just too many calories and the scales are creeping up. It is not logical to me.  But it must be like Kairk said in Regain 101 Bottom line is I am eating more than I'm burning.

Kairk, Good 101 post by the way. 

Carbon,  Glad you got a diagnosis and a plan.  Hope the wait is not as long as expected.

Paula, Hope the scrapbooking retreat goes great.

Diane O,  Don't forget to take care of yourself while helping others get all of the. 

Shel, Hope the paperworks zips by. 

Linda, Your new job sounds exciting for you.  Sorry but you would go broke selling jeans to me.  I like 4 way stretch pants, favorite fabric is schroeller dryskin.  The stuff wears forever.

Heather, So glad you are enjoying your conference.  Good that they started with a tote first now you can fill it with the rest of the goodies they pass out at those things.

Diane S,  Puppyhood is a trying time for me.  We have a havanese that will still occasionally find some treasure to chew up. He makes me so mad when he does that.  Good luck with the firing. 

They make four way stretch jeans now David, so I'm not giving up on you quite yet lol

Thanks, sir! You know another way to look at your eating is to switch it up. While some people do not recommend getting to full, for some of us, I believe it is the answer. If I am having a spell of wanting to eat all the damn time I will change modes and eat enough protein so that I can not physically eat anything more. When I do this, it is IMPOSSIBLE for me to eat for hours and hours. It acts as a reset of sorts and gets me through to the next day with little damage. It takes mindfulness to catch yourself and stop, but it may work for you. I get the idea that, like me, you nibble. 

I catch myself eating just as I walk by the kitchen.  I do find that 4 oz dense protein fills me full and lasts longer.  I still have to be very mindful of nibbling.  I am not hungry.  Old habits die hard.  I try to eat at assigned times so not to graze.  If I can get caught up in a project I do ok.  Seems like I have been doing a lot of traveling lately and I really have to think ahead or I will nibble.  When I drive I also back off on the water because of frequent bathroom stops.  

No scale. No weight.

Late checking in today. Very busy morning at school. I am going to the Nationals in Pennsylvania (Airedale dog show hosted by the National Club) on October 5 until the 10th. So that I can be unstressed before hand I have been busy planning for weeks ahead of time. I have my language arts and math planned out, along with social studies and science through October 14^th. I feel accomplished.

FANTASTIC workout with trainer last night. He tried to kick my butt with a new workout, but he did not succeed! His focus was to exhaust my legs. No doing! Heehee! However, I did injure my shoulder doing a shoulder press with a dumb bell. The move is one I have always had a bit of difficulty with: squats up to a fully extended shoulder press then back down to a squat. Last night I used 20 lb dumb bells, which doesn't seem like it's a lot, but shoulders are not terribly strong muscles for hefting repetitively. I'm sure the shoulder will recover within a few days to a week. No biggie.

Food is on point. I'm in a rhythm. I am doing better, little by little, with the after dinner, before bed grazing/stuffing habit.

Without my scale I am absolutely certain I am gaining weight - even though my food is on point. I think it's because I am hyper aware of my body because I don't have access to a scale. My body feels big to me. My jeans were tight yesterday. I have been feeling/been hyper aware of my back fat (which is my most hated part of my overweight body). I didn't realize just how dependent upon the scale I am for my daily reality check. Without the daily check I am having a real underlying level of anxiety. I am normally not an anxious person, so this on going feeling day after day of uncertainty with that underlying feeling of anxiety is quite foreign to me. I think this is probably very good for me.

YAY, it's Friday!!!!!! Cardio, then chiropractor, and dinner out with Ron and BFF. Relaxed morning tomorrow, with a client at 10 o'clock, hair cut at 2:30 and a puppy for ear setting at 4:30. Sunday will be a bit more of the same - except I'm going to evaluate a litter for a friend. Puppy fun!

Greetings Grand People

130.5. Seems to be my scale's favorite number. 

Worked at the gallery this morning. Not much going on. Came home to see the north side of the house in fabulous lavender-grey. Its gonna look great. Grey trim.  Job going well.  

Well glad to hear some people are fashionable. Not me .  I am a jeans and sweatshirt person and no boots. 

Kairk have fun at the nationals. I have been to the border terrier nationals. Chip won the 9-12 month puppy class years ago in Portland area. And yeah ya gotta dress up. Its all about the show. Do you ever go to the Woodstock shows in Vallejo? Fun.

Last night I got some totally fake bacon make from tofu and other crud. And I mean crud. It was terrible. Hubby would not eat it. I owe him a better dinner tonight. 

crazy family friend is making trouble again.  I think I am just going to back away and hide.   Diane S.