Sunday, July 24th

Good Sunny Sunday Morning !!!

     132 today.  Down a bit over 16 from my post hospitalization 148+. Being patient for two weeks is very close to my threshold. I can't assure you my head would be in the same place if my progress had been more drawn out and irregular.

     Shel, I'm sure I will ultimately be grateful for the reality check... we are always totally honest with each other. In my perfect world, which I often protect too vigorously, the lymphatic massage was going to be a magical, soothing, pleasurable sensation that eliminated any residual pain and pressure. I kind of minimized the wrap part in my memory banks. Your brief description activated the reality of the follow up wrap... seeking that fine line between too much pressure and sufficient pressure to keep all of those massaged up fluids from pooling again. The treatment will move me forward. This more realistic recollection is prompting me to ask to be written out of work Tuesday, and half days the remainder of the week. I agree... my leg is about all I'll be able to focus on.

     Does anyone else find themselves overcompensating by glossing over the negative and emphasizing the positive ? Have to give some thoughts to the pros and cons. I believe it mostly works for me, but it does make dealing with tough stuff a bit more challenging ?

I tend to look more toward the negative side of things and have to really search for the positives. I try to be the person to say the glass is full but it is really more than half full of air.  I have had depression since childhood and that colors my world a shade darker than most. Emphasizing the positive is a gift. 

Wt 218 down 2  Cal  1256?   I ate part of an egg roll appetizer for lunch and guessed at the cal. 

Thanks to all for making me feel welcome to this forum. 

Linda,  You are welcome to my airstream reno anytime as I have been tagging along your RVing, bike riding and fields of blooming canola. (Great picture) I wanted to be Canadian after driving the Al-Can in Feb 2003.  Such a beautiful country.  

Visited with family a good part of the day at my mother's apartment. Her home but she could hardly get a word in.  My brother and SIL are not in good health.  Between jobs.  They have a lot of stress right now.  I worry for them.  

I ate the nut mix that I normally put in the yogurt.  Without the yogurt it does not cause cravings but it does push my calorie count up. I don't know if I ate them because of stress or because lunch was so awful and by the time I got home I was empty.    

Ocean Diane, I think it is great that you are always so positive! I think all too often I focus I what I am not doing right (too many calories/carbs sweets) and what I don't have (a perfect body)!

127.2 - up a little, which is what I expected. Too many calories/carbs/sweets yesterday.

Had a great time kayaking with the family yesterday. Thinking about buying one (or two). We live just across the street from a channel that leads to a big lake and have a little neighborhood park that has a dock I could launch from - or I'm sure my neighbors would be fine with me launching from their docks/land as well! Also thinking of getting a new bike.

I'm feeling very thankful for the active life this sleeve has afforded me. Check out my post on the main VSG board!

Plan for today is some kind of exercise - not sure what yet, house cleaning and bible study tonight!

Have a Super Sunday my Sweet Sisters and Spectacular Studs!

Looks like a fun day!  Great looking crew!  I hope so do some of that too... someday.  My oldest has all the stuff.  I just have to leave the house.

Woo hoo, my first daily post on this board!  So yesterday I made it to 148.4 and called goal, so of course my scale went back up to 149 today just to keep me humble.  We went to a family reunion yesterday so a little more snacky and carby than usual so no surprise there.  Back on track today as I'd like to get several pounds below goal.  This morning I couldn't finish my usual breakfast so I'm hoping that was my sleeve saying "Hey, we still got restriction.  It's all good!"

Today is all about packing and getting my daughter up to Girl Scout camp for the week.  Lunch will be on the road so we'll see how it goes.  Had a nice high protein breakfast to at least get a good start.  Will exercise if I get home in time.

Hope you all have a wonderful Sunday!!! 

My weight was at 163.3 today.  This is in the "Normal" range for me.  But I want to talk about food addiction and in particular, chocolate cup cakes with mounds of vanilla frosting. 

A few days ago, I invited friends over for dinner, and we did take-out Indian food.  I did well - filling up on tandoori chicken, with a taste of chicken saag, and a few bits of the appetizers and breads.  But the problem started with desert. My friend brought wonderful chocolate cup cakes, and I ate one.  It was so good.  I can't tell you how good it tasted and how much I wanted another.  I was obsessed with it, knowing I wouldn't have another sweet treat in some while, and wanting it sooo much.  Over the course of the evening I sneaked into the kitchen and had two more cupcakes - alone in the dark,.. And truth be told, I would have eaten more if there were more.  6, 8, 10, 12.  I don't know how many would have satisfied me. 

I'm still near my goal weight.  But the addictive nature of my cravings really scare me.  That evening I was out of control. 

The following day, I was humbled by my very-human reaction. I got back on plan, and I am doing it right, but I recognize how important it is to keep up the effort.  This really is an addiction.

Carol

Thank you for the honest accounting, I recognize those behaviors as my own. Good for you for getting back on track the next day. 

Shel

I hear ya girl. Same thing happens to me sometimes! Good for you for getting right back on plan!

Carol,

First of all- hugs to you!!  You have been one of my big "weight loss heroes" through my process, always there to lend support and advice to others.  Your story mirrors behaviors I am trying to recover from and still struggle with.  Obesity is our disease and we will never be cured.  But we have the tools now, both mentally and physically, to continue to fight the battle.  Thank you so much for sharing both the positive and negative, it helps us all to be better!!!