Sunday. July 10

Happy Sunday!!  It's Hot today but beautiful!  Yesterday, we had a small break in the heat and it was actually really nice.  I'm glad we ran errands yesterday. 

Read an interesting blog.  Sharing with you because the book my be worth reading.

http://twosleevers.com/2016/07/review-of-the-obesity-code/

157.4# same as yesterday.  

Hi All!  I got away from posting, not on purpose, but then it got harder and harder to know where to begin, and easier each day not to post.  Work is super busy, due to being down two case managers, so there is no time during the day to post.  I'm having to work some at home too, to keep up.  That part is all temporary, and goes with the territory.  However, the stress eating is out in full force, and I need to stop, as it is only making matters worse, so here I am, once again, realizing that I need to be here and I need to take care of myself, one step at a time.  I need to put the food down and detox from carbs.  I have also come to realize, that I have to take care of me in other ways.  I've made a decision that, once things are stable with my program at work, I'm going to try to find a new job, even if it means a pay cut - we'll manage somehow, as my health and sanity are more important.  This round of being down staff, this time with former co-workers who now are owners, I've been getting no support, only being griped at, micromanaged by them and my direct supervisor, following their directions, then being called out on doing so when they later don't agree with their own directions, told that other programs in the agency are keeping my a** out of the fire, etc,  I know that I can't stay there and be okay.  I'm not sleeping well, which only adds to the eating.  The good news is that I'm not believing their crap.  I know I run a quality program, and I know I do a good job, and I refuse to think I am less than, as I would have in times past.  So there it is, in all its glory - the life of me right now.  Sorry for the rambling, and tomorrow, I will be able to read and process what all of you wonderful fellow journey takers have written, and the wisdom you impart.  Today, I just had to take the plunge and post.  I love you all!

Hugs,  Mary

So happy to see your post today, Mary! I'm glad you took the plunge and decided to check back in. 

All, and I mean ALL of us have to deal with life. For some, like me, it's easy to revert to lifelong coping behaviors. For me that means EATING!  While it's not what I would like, it's the way I've dealt with it for years and as much as I wi**** were so, it didn't change when I had VSG . From each episode I learn more and that in turn makes the next episode shorter lived and easier to break away from. (Yup, ending with a preposition! It works here. LOL) 

I'm glad you're plugging away and making your inner self and your health a priority! 

Devon

Yay, Mary's back. So sorry work has been the pits but glad you came back to the party here. We missed you! 

It's good to have you back Mary!  Your truth is your truth. That's what the long haul - maintenance - is all about. 

Good to see you! So happy to see you believe in yourself and making a decision to put yourself first!

I'm so glad you posted.  You've been missed.  Hang in there!!!  Comforting with food has been a way of life.  Hard to get away from something that is near and dear to our hearts. We just have to keep trying!!!

Good to hear from you Mary. By all means, look for a new job.  Yours sounds toxic and you just don't need it. Every time I made a big job change in my real world jobs it was for the best.  Taking action helps.   Diane S