Thursday June 30th

Hello beautiful fam. A quick check in because I'm not sure I have adequate internet service here to post. I'm down to 110 which is my lower red zone and I actually believe the scale. Very trying day on the road yesterday and more things happening today so we are both completely overwhelmed right now.  Wish I had a better report - will try to report in later 

Here is to a better day! 

Hang in there, Lovely...have a glass of wine or two.

Scale down a few tenths. I got up to pee 3 times last night so I was thinking this morning would show a drop, but no such luck.

Food was very much better yesterday. Not perfect, but sugar free until 10:30 pm. The sugar was planned. I'm trying a few little experiments to better understand exactly where I am on the sugar spectrum. So last night was eat the treat and see what happens and go with it. Tonight is going to be eat the treat and be done and limit intake and see what happens. I want to see how strong the cravings are and if they really are within my ability to control at this point. 

I am a little sad this morning because I realized that I had grand visions of being back at my goal by now. Instead, I actually gained back weight that I had lost on my road back from regain. Somehow I feel that I need to acknowledge the sad feelings, but I'm also not discouraged. I can't go "on a diet" either because I need to focus on "fixing" this sugar thing, not just simply mask it with a "diet". So today, I'm going to feel the disappointment, the sadness, the struggle. But I am also going to remind myself of the journey and of the hope and the fact that I know I can do reach my weight goals in time. 

Ewww.... too effing deep on a Thursday morning. 

I started the day with 16 oz of water. Good start. Am leisurely having some Joe and have two clients today. (Booooo....) I will go to the gym today after client #2. Perhaps a movie this evening. I'd like that. 

Summer list: clean out closet - done! Next up is to go through the dresser and see what can be purged. Should take no more than 30 minutes for that. Then on to the office! Not as easy. 

I have to admit I was sad when I cleaned out my closet and bought new shorts that fit.  I finally decided I deserved clothes that fit!  I wonder if I will ever get back in them...oh, well... I look at my pictures and am sad, too...BUT I am thankful to be where I am and NOT 272#.  I look healthy.  You look healthy and strong!!!  

We've lost a **** load of weight and need to proud of where we came from!   I know you'll work through it.  I just wanted to encourage you.  You're really managing well and doing the work!

Thanks, Lesa. I am proud of what I've done and, in a sense, even more proud of myself for never giving up especially when giving up and giving in seems like the simplest and most logical option. Staving off obesity is really hard work. I am not giving up, so no worries there. I am simply finding the path that I can live with for right now. I sadly see a period of abstinence in my near future. Probably for the best, but I'm just not quite ready to commit. 

On another note: I'm glad you and Andy were able to have a discussion about food and food choices. It is a hard conversation to with one's spouse. You are right: You can lead them to water, but that's about it. I send links to Ron about nutrition, but I never mention them and he doesn't often volunteer that he has or has not read the articles I send. Like you, I can't be the food police. Cracks me up though, that he will say to me, "I thought you were not buying this or that anymore. It's not good for you." while he is eating fried chicken or Kirkland hot dogs or a Peet's Mocha. What are you gonna do, right?

I had al long post and then tried to upload pic and then lost the whole thing. You will have to check me out on FB for pics, Much easier to deal with there. 

Long day touring the coast yesterday. Several stops by also a lot of riding in tour bus. Logged just over 9,000 steps. 

No set plans for today. Perhaps a hike later on this afternoon, perhaps sunning poolside. Grilled shrimp planned for dinner. 

I had al long post and then tried to upload pic and then lost the whole thing. You will have to check me out on FB for pics, Much easier to deal with there. 

Long day touring the coast yesterday. Several stops by also a lot of riding in tour bus. Logged just over 9,000 steps. 

No set plans for today. Perhaps a hike later on this afternoon, perhaps sunning poolside. Grilled shrimp planned for dinner. 

134.4   Same

All central office administrators and supervisors share the same large space.  The superintendent, assistants and I have offices around the perimeter of our "clerical pool" and the business personnel have cubicles in the back section.  We share a common large kitchen / eating area.  The food service supervisor has bids out for pizza vendors for the 16-17 "pizza every Friday" for 2,500+ contract.  Vendors have been dropping off pizzas right and left, as they submit their bids.  REALLY ?

Took the day tomorrow for a great workout, massage, then cut and color.  Family 4th of July gathering Saturday. Journey and Doobie Brothers concert in Saratoga Tuesday.  I'll fit in another great "wrestle and secure" session with my squash vines, too !

Journey and the Doobie Brothers!!!!  I'm wish I was going with you!!!