Thursday. June 2

196.  Hi, my name is JoeyJo and I have been on the wagon for 2 days with no major slip ups.  I have logged all of my food, even the minor slip ups.  I have concentrated on getting enough water and sleep.  When lured by the demons, I consider whether my thought process is bullsh*t or not.  I have a lot of BS in my head.  Normally I talk it out in therapy which has helped significantly.  My son and I go together and he has been having much more serious problems than mine.  If it continues, I will have to schedule a solo appointment or two... or more.  Gotta protect my weight loss.

Greetings Time Travelers

Well my yesterday went from bad to worse.(except weight which is 130.5)

Our a$$ho brother in law had called the night before and was to leave on a plane trip yesterday but his wife (hubby's sister) wasn't feeling well so he wanted to know if we could check in on her while he was gone.  Then yesterday he wanted to come by and leave her here and have us take him to the airport and then take her home because he didn't want her to drive  (5 miles).  So they come over here and she is obviously very sick and in pain . Had a fall a few days ago and new heart medicine making her dizzy. It is very obvious she needs to go to hospital.  She tells her hubby to go ahead and go on trip. So he does. Just leaves her with us. We had to argue to convince her to go to hospital.  I told her we were not trained in nursing care and while she was welcome in our home we could only do do much. She wanted an egg. then 20 minutes later another egg. I canceled my dr apt made 3 month ago because she couldn't be left alone.  I finally had to go work at gallery.  Hubby finally convinced her to go to hospital. So far she has afib , extreme hypotension  - like 80/40 and pneumonia.  More tests today.  I think she will be there awhile.  Brother in law has been informed. Not sure what he is going to do. Probably nothing.  His trip was to visit his grown kids and could have been rescheduled for any time. 

What a complete jerk. Can you believe it? 

Then we had a difficult board meeting at the gallery. And now I have to arrange to move my mom. Being an orphan is beginning to sound appealing. 

Puppy is the light of our lives.  At least I am not diving into food, but hitting the wine a little.  Diane S

:(   Sorry for what you're going through, Diane.  Sending big hugs to you!

Aww Diane - that sucks. What else can be said?  Hugs

Diane S., so sorry for all you are dealing with. Glad you have Tesla as a bright spot in all of this!

My new Homedics scale by Taylor is very nice. It is simple and basic. All it does is measure my weight! (I like that about it.) It also turns on all by itself when I stand on it. No tap, tap, tapping to get it going! I tested it for accuracy last night and HOT DAMN! it went back to the same weight after every test. My WW scale by Conair was never that accurate. So, I'm very happy with my new scale. Thanks for the recommendations!

Back to pre long weekend Sugar Fest weight. 203.

No exercise since Friday. Not so good. Sleep is better, but I did go to bed a little too late yesterday - still before midnight, but I really want to get 7 hours per night and I'm still shy of that. Last night was 6 hours with a couple of wake ups during the night.

I am feeling a bit like a broken record and wish I could pick up the needle and stop the skipping/repeating. Feeling a bit like a whiner and who likes a whiner, you know? Sigh...have even thought of going the "take a break from posting" route so you all aren't subjected to my current mood, but I think that's just an excuse to not deal, so I continue. Besides, I would miss our daily "chats".

Linda, you have some major decision making to do in a very short time. I'm sure it's very stressful for you and I am impressed by how well you are handling it. I do not think I could leave and not have a "home" to come back to when I was ready. It will be a true adventure to put everything in storage and simply pick up and leave. I am impressed by your lack of reliance on food to help you through this process!

There is a saying we teach the kids in Soul Shoppe: "I deserve a happy and fun life." For kids this is a simple concept. For an adult it's more complex. There are several other phrases we use to help build inner confidence, too. Each year we ask the students to choose one of the phrases they don't believe they have or that is missing in their lives. I am missing the happy and fun. I work 7 days a week and it leaves little time for fun. Need to think about how this is might be affecting me, my mood, and my weight loss efforts.

Throw Back Thursday: June of 1982 - first crash diet! Cambridge Diet. Three shakes per day and lots of water. 330 calories per day. Lost 30 pounds in 30 days. Went from 185 to 155. YIKES.

As far as weight accuracy goes, those Homedics scales are freakin' amazing. So impressive when you step on half a dozen times and get the same reading.  I've had scales at all price points and found nothing to be as reliable as the Homedics. 

Glad to hear you've decided to continue to check in.  More important than ever when we are struggling, even if we can't 'fix' things. 

Reflecting on June 1982. I was on the Twizzlers Diet haha. I was pregnant and had morning, afternoon, evening and night sickness the ENTIRE pregnancy!  I lived on Twizzlers.  Good thing I was already fat to provide nutrition to my babe.