Thursday, May 5th

I posted my post(s) for the benefit of others on here who have suggested an interest in my goal progress, and the other for those who were interested in the article.  

I think we have reached an impasse as far as your opinion of me.  We may disagree, but despite your intentions, I find this back and forth counter-productive.  Perhaps you are but I doubt that you can know enough about my medical and food-related-social history to make a helpful evaluation.  But since we are playing doctor, I cannot help but think your persistence on the issue is a projection of your own weight-related problems.  

Yes, you're probably right about some projection going on and I certainly don't profess to know you. I only know that I'm part of the collective 'we' who see ourselves as more similar than different. I relate quite deeply to the principles of addiction, which universally supports intervention on multiple fronts. 

My goodness is it Thursday already?  I'm at 114 again. Better food day yesterday, likely a gift from being super busy the entire day and evening.

Rob and I have almost completed the work on the truck and the interior is finally back together.  So far it seems everything works except the speakers and with the cleaning complete the odor is 90% reduced. We've ordered some fogging supplies to deal with the rest of it and hopefully we will get the speakers sorted out too. It's been a labor or love that's for sure, but we've laughed through most of the escapades and we have an excellent  vehicle to tow our RV with. 

Our Province is experiencing wildfires right now and a city of 90,000 people in the northern part have been evacuated.  More than 1600 homes and businesses destroyed and high winds have continued. We are getting a little rain here in the south so I hope the trend carries up to that area.  

Glad to hear our Sadie is on the mend. Poor baby 

Prayers for the people/areas affected by the wildfires! Yikes!

Good to hear the mouse mobile is almost back to tip top shape - too funny! The memories and stories you will have with that one!

I read about the fire and then heard yesterday on NPR that the city (can't remember the name, as it was an unknown city to me) was being evacuated. From what I understood this is the largest city evacuation in Canada's history. Hope the rain does make it up farther north! 

I've been wondering how close those fires are to you !!   Stay safe !!

We're very far away :). 

You were my first thought when I heard this this morning.  Glad you're safe.

webcam of one person's escape from fire

Down .6 to 199.9 this morning.

I did choose to have a cupcake after dinner, well into the late evening. Oh, Jiminey Cricket, was it worth every calorie! Who knew a cupcake could be so good?!?!?!? (I am not a big cupcake fan.) Ron, of course, had two! LOL!

I'm in an interesting place in my resolve and toleration of my weight. I realize that choosing Teacher Appreciation Week to embark on my no sugar reset was an ambitious undertaking. However, I did rationalize that like getting pregnant, there is never a good time to "diet". We can always find an excuse to wait. There is always an event or celebration or holiday or vacation upcoming. The glut of food with which I was faced yesterday really gave me pause for thought. I had to consciously decide how to deal with my feelings of food desire and my resolve to be on my sugar reset. I spent a majority of the day contemplating what and how deal with my inner conflict.

In the end, I was satisfied by my choice. I was able to be flexible. I weighed the pros and cons of eating the sweet. I knew that eating the cupcake in the middle of the day would lead to possible cravings and grazing. I chose to eat it quite late to avoid that issue. I also made sure that I was in a relaxed and focused state so that I could eat it mindfully. I savored the bites. I could feel the difference in the textures - the cake, the chocolate chunks, the melted marshmallow underneath the frosting, and the creaminess of the cream cheese frosting. I could taste the sweetness differences of the cake, chocolate and frosting.

I broke my commitment to be sugar free for four weeks only 3 days into it. In the past, I would have considered this a failure. Today I consider it a win. I made a choice. It was not a "throw in the towel and eat whatever the F I want" choice. It was a rational and reasonable choice that honored the part of me that just couldn't deal with not eating the "It was made especially for you because we love you" treat. I also think that because it was a well thought through choice my emotional reaction did not back up the physical reaction, which I sure enough had. Without the emotional piece I was able to ward off the urge to go for more sugar. The scale continued its downward trend, which in some weird way validated my choice and behavior. My behavior seemed rational and balanced.

NSV - the hike! Like last year, I booked my butt up that hill in front of the outdoor ed teacher who is an avid hiker. Did it again yesterday! It's a very steep hill and because of that I made every excuse I could manage to get out of the hike when I was obese. The last time I went as an obese man I literally thought I was going to have a coronary event on the way up. I had to stop several times to calm my breathing and my heart to make it to the top. Yesterday, full steam all the way up with no stopping EXCEPT TO WAIT FOR THE KIDS TO CATCH UP TO ME!