Wednesday, April 27th, 2015

And if I understand what you're saying, I think you know in your heart that there's a lack of congruence/logic in your thought processes. And for what it's worth, I'm taking a deep breath before saying this, but I really think you could benefit from cognitive behavioral work with a counsellor.  I think you may find it beneficial in overcoming the ambivalence. If you can overcome that, things may get easier.  

I appreciate your concern, but I absolutely do not believe in counseling, personally.  I won't say any more on the subject because I think it's personal to everyone and maybe an unpopular opinion to have on here.  I don't have food issues.  I have metabolism issues.  A trainer or an endocrinologist would be more appropriate.  

I think the way I think through things and the fact that I can recognize and verbalize is actually an advantage, and very valuable, and not indicative of a problem--but to the contrary.  I think the fact that I have been able to lose so much weight, maintain it for 5 years, only gain 10lbs. before recognizing a slip up and mobilizing myself to lose the regain is the definition of success.  Maybe it's because this is just a snapshot in time and I am very hangry at the moment.  But if this is not normal, natural, and successful, I don't know what is.  

I think it is probably a universal feeling to not like diets and because it is not fun choosing salad over french fries.  I think it is also probably a quite common feeling during a diet to begin to wonder how much give and take.

Perhaps this level of focus on weight (and indeed, more focus in something like OA) is unhealthy for me and counterproductive.  The whole power of suggestion and "don't think of a pink elephant" kind of thing.  

     I have to put this out there:

" I don't have food issues.  I have metabolism issues."

    Until you address this, you're going to be fighting an uphill battle. See an endocrinologist and get a clinical analysis of your metabolism, to point you, for once and for all, in the direction your energies need to be focused.

Diane

Pushing your body might help your (possible) body dysmorphia.  I find that exercise gives me another mental measure for my body beyond the scale and clothes size.

Also this time is the first time I have exercised in front of a mirror.  Looking at my body for form and alignment has allowed me (for the first time) to see it without judgement.  I am more curious than anything else.  

Anyway, getting fit may end up having benefits other than simply getting fit.  

Morning!!!

no worries about the abruptness, a good reminder to return the chocolate chips to the freezer in the basement.  Ad thank you everyone for the suggestions.   Slept for 11-6am   A first for many a moon.  Perhaps because had a boiled egg right before sleep.   Sleep.  Such a gift!!

Shel, all the best.

Brown I can relate.

Diane, all the best with Mom

Kairk, has the headache gone?

Lorna, you ok?  Silly question really but you are missed.

everyone!!! Have a wonderful Wednesday.  A whole day to embrace maintenance and for those of us who have gained another day to make wise choices.

Carbon, so glad you got some sleep!  Since I started using the essential oils at night, my sleep has improved immensely.  Now, if I could resist staying up later every night to watch the Red Sox games, it would be even better!  Probably not going to happen, though.  :)

Thanks for asking. Yesterday was a completely headache free day! YAY! So far so good today, too. Perhaps I'm over the hump. Keeping my fingers crossed. The daily allergy pill must be helping after all! 

Morning all!  Day three of detoxing from carbs.  The biggest problem has been texture - I am craving crunchy and chewy.  I get more of that at dinner, but during the day, not so much.  So, today I brought some celery to have with my lf cheese sticks and yogurt.  I also did add a few bran buds to food yesterday, which helped get the crunch, without much in the way of carbs.  I drive by Rite Aid and want so much to buy Powercrunch protein bars, as they are very crunchy.  I've resisted so far, as, if I start with those, it leads to other things.  I thnk adding some crunch without carbs will help.

I finally gave in and took ibuprphen yesterday, which took care of the headache.  Without the headache, dance class was so much fun.  We're doing our routine over and over now, so I'm getting a good workout.  I made some major flubs during one of the times we did the routine, but exonerated myself the next time!  :)

Happy hump day all!

Hugs, Mary

Good morning all. I'm at 113 today. I've been sleeping better this week too so maybe we're on a roll here. A better food day yesterday, with no more chocolate to eat and having said no to my husband's current pie collection.

Like Diane O. I've regained 100 lbs three times (maybe four?) so I'm well aware of what going off - and staying off - the rails looks like.  When I was overeating that chocolate a couple of days ago I had a moment of fear.  The good news is I have more tools and experience to draw from now, so that gives me hope that I could turn things around a lot sooner if needed.  

Realistically, I believe that 'practice makes perfect' (okay definitely not perfect but better).  For me, a big part of being successful is being habitual in my day to day food life. The more I practice those habits, the less thought it takes to get me through successfully. It's no fun constantly agonizing over choices, so habits help keep that painful state of mind at bay.