Sunday April 24

morning.

Paula, safe trip home.

fitbit has arrived.  Feels like part of me was missing.

happy Sunday all.

Woohoo for Fitbit!

Scale at 159.8 today :(  Up .2.  Well I guess it can't go down drastically every day!  Also yesterday was probably my highest calories in the past 5 days.

Tracked was 831 calories, 89 carbs, and only 43 protein.  That was as of dinner.

But as you can imagine, that 43g protein did not hold me over.  We went to Buffalo Wild Wings to watch the game and I noticed that my restriction is way tighter.  I had 2 onion rings, 1 mozzarella stick, and 2 boneless wings and was STUFFED.  Like that in my esophogus full feeling--which is crazy because that has rarely happened recently.  Trouble is, I had loaded up on not very protein-dense foods, so a couple hours later I was hungry again.  I didn't track the 2 bites of ice cream, couple cheese cubes, and about 6 crackers plus 2 shots I had later.  Still, I think that probably wasn't over 500 calories, so still pretty low for the day.

Yesterday I picked up a friend who is a world traveler.  She spends a year in a different place teaching, comes back, and leaves again.  We are so different in that way--I wouldn't mind living and dying in the house I live in!  And sometimes the fact that we are so different challenges me--like why am I content to do what I do--should I not be?  She has such an exciting exotic life.  But to each his own.  She's a very dear friend and it's amazing how even when you only see each other once a year and your lives are on such different trajectories, your good friends can still pick right back up.  Not sure what we'll do today.  It's beautiful weather so we might go peruse the Arts Festival (must steer clear of food trucks!!) and/or we might garden.  And then my husband was aghast that I had never seen Top Gun so I think a special viewing is in order for me tonight.

Hi all

back to 131 today. Not doing a very good job of losing my two pounds and my month is almost up. Oh well, will keep trying. 

Carbon glad you have a new fitbit. amazing how addictive that little gadget it. its my watch too.  

Going to see a musical this afternoon - Batboy - the Musical. I know some of the singers who are great and its gotten good reviews. Its in the victorian village of Ferndale so we will look at the quaint shops too. 

Still struggling with my mom's care situation and her crazy roommate. Wish we could reach some conclusion.   diane s

Hello you Gorgeous Humans!

122.3 today, stable.  

My hatha yoga practice this morning was epic: it worked out everything perfectly.    I had hope to walk/jog today but it is super wet out and my VSG-DNA doesn't like to be cold so we will see.   By the way, I saw "walk/jog" described as "woggle" which is a bit too close of a description of my gait for me for me to adopt, even in jest. 

I have been mulling over the quotes from a couple of days ago. I don't have the exact quotes in front of me but one was if you tolerate something, you won't make a change.   The second was along the lines of 100% dissatisfaction leads to 100% change.  

What am I tolerating that I would really like to change?  What makes me dissatisfied? My old stand-by answer  "I am too fat" no longer applies but obviously I want my actions to pro-actively support my maintenance weight.  

My chosen dissatisfaction centers around feeling triggered if my stomach feels full. This feeling of fullness (long before the point of discomfort) makes me want more.   I find this triggering quite distressing even if I don't give into it.  At the risk of grazing, I'm going to eat smaller amounts of "enough" a little more often.  

What I have come to tolerate (even if I complain about it) is unplanned after dinner eating while "cleaning the kitchen."  (I have many rationalizations for hanging out in the most dangerous room of the house.)  Just recognizing this as something I have come to tolerate is helpful.  I have lots of practice of avoiding this from the WL phase, so now to implement. 

I hope you are all having a terrific day!  Shel

Hello All-

     Happily finding my "new normal" in my sweet spot. I am really not dissatisfied with anything at the moment. Really active outside today, and hitting my macros. Kids and teachers on Spring Break this week, so I'll be able to get caught up at work, if there is such a thing.     Will see my mother and siblings for Mother's Day, for a dinner at my Mom's assisted living place. They are already convinced I am borderline anorexic, and I'm kind of bracing for an "intervention". My Bod Pod and one year check up with the surgeon are the following week, so I won't have my data lined up. My healthy  BMI is a stark contrast to their obese and morbidly obese statuses. They are just going to have to deal with it.

     Here's to a fabulous week !!

No weight as there was no scale at the retreat. Did step on my home scale fully clothed and mid day to just get a sense of any "damage" and I was 126 something.....so can't be too bad. Official naked morning weight to follow tomorrow.

The weekend went well. I did well food wise. I was the skinniest one there and probably the most active one (took a walk both Friday and Saturday). Saturday's walk was with a friend and it was at a much easier pace then the one I did on Friday solo. She had a tough time keeping up to my scaled back workout. I remember last time I was there, her having to slow down for me!  I am in such a better place physically then I was last time I got together with these ladies! Got lots of compliments from people and some that wanted to know a little more about the surgery. Hope I can motivate others to make a change for good health if that is what they desire!

We have a theme for the retreat each time we meet. The theme this time was "Survivor" and of course there was an eating challenge. I partook in that one and we had to sample jelly belly jelly beans, only we wouldn't know if we got the good flavor or the beanboozled  flavor - here is the link for the game http://www.jellybelly.com/beanboozled-challenge The yucky flavors I got were canned dog food, barf, moldy cheese, booger and skunk spray. And yes, I did enter the 10 jelly beans I ate in MFP! You got 2 points if you swallowed the yucky flavor, 1 point if you spit it out and 0 points if you got the good flavor. It was a fun game and we have video but I think it is set to private so I can't share. I did a cute little dance when I got tutti fruity!

Going to hit the hay early tonight, went to bed at 3:30 am, still awake at 5:00 am and out of bed by 7:45 am. Had to get in as much as I could today before it was time to leave!

Carbon, so glad your Fitbit arrived. My new one has a chip out of the plastic on the face of it. I think I will e-mail Fitbit and see what they can do.

Diane - glad you are feeling good where you are at...don't feel like you have to justify where you are at to anyone!

Shel - always chuckle when I read your posts. I just love your sense of humor  - and I can soooooo relate to almost everything you say!