Saturday, March 19th

This is exactly what I'm learning about how harmful deprivation can be. You planned some waffle into your day. Not as good as what you had in your head. Took the power right out of that craving's sails. Good for you for processing that full cycle !

About hiking... I have been shopping for hiking boots/pants/tops/mosquito repellent clothes. Yes, i have none of these things in my current size.  But still, I am getting a bit of thrill in the shopping process.  Shopping was so negative previously (even my feet were wide) that maybe it is understandable that shopping is fun. 

Linda, I LOVE my new title! Badass Bro! AWESOME! 

197.0 today. Was sort of disappointed because I was up 3 times to pee last night. I was sure I was releasing some of tha****er. Still might beholding on due to work out. 

Have to run off to Palo Alto to meet a friend for Blue's last foray out into the world before she becomes cloistered due to her impending whelping! 

You all gave me lots to think about and actually respond to - I suffered the transfer addiction to clothes shopping. Not pretty. Also need to talk about my evening cravings that are relentless again. Damn.

Will check back later today. 

EDIT - Later additions:

I had boredom eating going on last night. The evening eating desire has been intensifying over the past week. Have not had that in some time. I'm not sure what the trigger is either, unless it is being tired. I had my evening yogurt last night and that is usually very satisfying, but last night I was a seeming bottomless pit. I noticed we still had some of the homemade cinnamon apple steel cut oatmeal I made last Sunday, so I had 1/2 cup of that with whipped cream. It hit the spot, but I still WANTED something else before bed. It made no sense because it was appetite not hunger. My carbs were super low yesterday, almost 96 oz of water, plus some coffee and protein shakes, good protein intake. Other than a super heavy workout and being really tired I can't come up with any triggers. I am bothered because it's a behavior I dislike intensely and it reared its head last night after a very long silence. UGH.... Another lesson in how we are never cured and must always be on guard. 

Transfer addiction: been there, done that! In my opinion there is a normal level of shopping after weight loss and then there comes a point when it goes too far. Example of going too far: I had purchased about 2K on dress suits, shirts, ties, etc... for showing. These were things I did indeed need. However, when I spent another 2K on clothes I did not need and started to buy Ron a few things because I felt guilty I was buying so much, I knew it was time to stop. So, now I have more suits than I can wear, not to mention sports coats, slacks, so many ties I forget I have some. I'm happy to have a wide variety of clothing to choose from, but I bought more than I could afford. I even have one suit I have not even worn! I started gaining weight and couldn't fit in ANYTHING and that only added to the panic (a different story though). 

In hindsight, I get it. I think you ladies are much farther along in the emotional process than I was when I hit goal. You know, we boys are a little slower on the uptake at times... AS long as you are aware of what you are doing, can afford your purchases (meaning paying the bill with a debit card, or paying off the charge at the end of the month), and you are selective in your purchases, I see nothing wrong with shopping for your new bodies - especially workout clothes. It is wonderful to have clothes that fit and flatter our bodies. Clothes are an important part of how we begin to see ourselves in our new lives. It's only when the shopping becomes a problem that it's a problem. 

My advice: Enjoy shopping and your new clothes and image and simply keep tabs on your feelings and spending. 

just keep up the good work.  :)