Wednesday, March 9th

More about this prebiotic fiber, please!!! Where, what, how? This may need to be an item in my cupboard! I just bought some hemp seeds and like them, but they are a little pricy for what they are. I'd rather get some fiber to be honest. 

Made yogurt again last night. I tried a quick cool of the milk to see if that might change consistency or flavor. Consistency seemed the same. Will know about the flavor tonight. Might be SUPER thick, too, since I'm straining it all while I'm at work. At least it will be filling. 

Short answer: IMO soluable fiber - lots written online about it. Most common brand name is VitaFiber, which is made right here in Alberta. Not widely available for personal consumers yet but it's coming. I think this is going to be big.  

You should be able to buy it on Amazon. Available in dry powder and syrup. I got syrup. It's a prebiotic and a low glycemic sweetener - about half the sweetness of sugar. Check out the stats on mfp - as in the Quest Bars, there are carbs but virtually all are fiber. Great for most maintenance folks. I put 2 tablespoons in my yogurt - delicious!  21 grams fiber, 54 cals. 

I'm planning to try making homemade bars, which I'll write more about later. Syrup required for bars, dry powder for baking. 

More to come - promise!

Wishing you well for today's procedure Diane O!

Whoop de doo! 194.9 today.

Great workout yesterday followed by 35 minutes of cardio. Food was on point. Woke up to an email telling me OH posted my article and requesting a follow up about the regain. Have to get on that. 

Am planning another day at the gym this afternoon which will make 6 days in a row - something I have not been able to accomplish since my regain really skyrocketed in the late winter and spring of 2014. I'm feeling very grateful that I have prioritized my exercise, weight loss, and putting myself first. I have been declining spur of the moment requests by friends to do things they want that are counter productive to my goals. It's ******g off one friend in particular, but I'm standing firm in my resolve.

LOVE su****oo! However, I have found that I can have two pieces with comfort. That's it. Because it's not enough nutrition, I generally order sashimi, shrimp, miso soup, and then will have a piece of Ron's roll. Or else, I just eat it when I don't need the protein and I'm okay with a few extra carbs. It is a treat in my book and one I quite enjoy!

Am going to meet a student and his mom at the Yogurt Shack after my gym session today. I will stop at Peet's first, pick up a coffee, and not be swayed by the yogurt. I have to remember, I don't really like fro yo that much anymore. I'd rather waste the carbs and calories on my new favorite place, Smitten - high fat organic cream ice cream. DELI****hank God, it's 25 minutes away! LOL! I am considering this my firm commitment to NOT indulge in the fro yo. You are my witnesses!

Spring rain today, which we need, but after the warm weather a few weeks ago, my hands are like ice again. The one nice thing about the regain was that I wasn't cold all the damn time. Guess what? Once I got under 200, I'm cold all the damn time again! Well, my hands are anyway.

Happy Hump Day!  

PS - Good luck with the laser procedure, Diane O! 

Hi Skinny Soulmates:

Well at least some of us are skinny. I am up to 130.5 today and feeling fat. And wouldn't ya know, Dr. Cirangle is coming to our area on Saturday so of course I am at my fattest when he shows up. Hubby has gained some weight and didn't want to go but I am twisting his arm. My eating is not terrible but I am not getting enough protein and I've gotten a little too fond of red wine.  Gotta clean up my act. Dr. C has a way of getting us all whipped into shape. 

Long dull day at the gallery yesterday but at least I got some work done and sold some stuff and walked in circles. Its gonna be rainy all week here so I guess the dogs and I will just have to get wet.   

GL Ocean Diane with the cataract surgery.  I am growing those and will need surgery sometime. Seems like everybody I know has them. 

Kairk, LOVED your article.  It will help lots of people. Sure made sense to me. 

Fish for dinner sounds good. Think I will make grilled tilapia.     diane s

I think it is nice the way Dr. C seems to take a personal interest in his peeps, even years out.  And, I generally like his high standards as far as weight goals, go.  I'm glad that his peeps continue to post on OH so others get that perspective, too. 

I've always considered myself to be a 'virtual patient' of Dr. C because I learned everything from his patients lol. I really hope to meet him some day because he has been very influential in my success!

Dr, Cirangle is very interested in the long term success of his patients.  He requires his patients to pay an  up front   fee for five years of follow up because he believes that patients do better if they have quality follow up. But the fee entitles you to as many consults as you need and you get his private email and he will call you when needed.  I do think he is committed to getting the best results for his patients. Its amazing how he maintains his enthusiasm for his patient's success even though he has heard the same excuses a thousand times.  A lot  of blubber has disappeared from this earth due to Dr. C.   After 6 years he is still on my side.    diane s

Diane-I know the feeling.  Same here

Kairk--I truly count my blessings that I'm lactose intolerant and pretty much cannot do frozen concoctions.  For some reason the WW little ice cream desserts work ok.  Wish I didn't know that!

I really didn't want to post today.  I'm going to do it quick:  163.4.  I feel like my weight is a runaway train.  I honestly don't think I've been eating that much.  Okay, so I've made some bad decisions.  But I've also been trying to come back from them, make better choices, and eat smaller quantities.  Sometimes it feels like I will only maintain (not even lose) if I'm 100% perfect.  Forget about that!.  Wahhh.  How can I be back to the 160s.  In very dangerous territory?  And with the weekend coming up and my DH and me planning a big St. Patrick's day party.  I really just feel like making excuses, although I know that won't help anything.  It's just a truly don't understand it.  I guess it's par for the course considering how terrible my battle with weight has always been (didn't feel like I "deserved" to be 277, either).  

I cut my portions in half!  I went to Zoe's kitchen yesterday so I could eat half of a healthy meal of grilled chicken kebabs, salad, and grilled veggies.  I worked out on Saturday and am still feeling very sore.  Wahh

There are moments like this one where I want to wave the white flag, wish I still had my plus-sized closet, and just wait for the weight gain to wash over me.

But it's not going to happen today.  I'm going to keep trudging along.  It's not pretty.  I'm not losing weight.  I'm gaining.  But think how bad it would be if I didn't eat half, eat healthy, etc.  I accept that some days I'm going to feel like this game has beat me.  But hopefully I'll keep powering forward.

Luckily my coworkers just so happened to recommend another very healthy place for lunch.  It was a much-needed message of just take it one meal at a time and do your best.  And eating someplace healthy and "clean" made that much easier to do.

My sister and I are taking our niece to dinner tonight.  Thankfully my sister (who also had surgery the same dad I did) will be there and so we can split everything.  Things worked out so well after surgery when we just split.  Now with me married and her in medical school, we don't often eat together.

I get to feeling very guilty about the food I waste.  I do try to split my servings in half, but occasionally I do the very worst thing and eat the other half as a snack!  Or sometimes even a half of a meal is too much.  Or sometimes I just let the food go to the garbage.  But it haunts me.  When I split with my sister I never had that problem.  And it's really a pretty silly problem to have.  That food is going to waste one way or the other.  It's going to cost as much whether I eat half or whole.  I was able to afford to eat whole all those years I ate whole.  If anything, I'm saving myself the cost of my health and being obese.  Does this bother anyone else?

The weather sounds nice in NY. Hope all is well since your eye surgery! :) When I had laser surgery after my cataract surgery, I would say,,, "well, it's time to get my windshield cleaned off". LOL Hope all is well with you now. :)