Tuesday, February 23rd

Just want to echo what Lorna commented above.  On the drive in, I was thinking how glad I am that Paula's kiddo (even at almost 18) knew that he could turn to his mom in his most vulnerable sate.  That kid has had a life of good parenting.

124.3 today, with arm wrap. I'm pretty sure the wrap doesn't weigh much, but, impossible for me to not add the qualifier!

I have been mulling over food choices of late: what satisfies and is most likely to reverse the triggered feeling, what makes me just want more even if it happens to be a "healthy" food choice.  Also, Linda and Lornas' comments about 6 week plans for losing 6 lbs and how that works into their maintenance life.  

Thanks to all of you for sharing your musings and learning!  Besides being great contributors, you are good peeps!

Take care all,

Shel

Oh boy Paula that's tough stuff.  Sending you and your family all the love and strength you need to get through this. 

Morning all. Like everyone else here today, I'm holding Paula extra close, sending prayers as she and her family make their way through this. 

I'm at 114 this morning after a salty dinner. Still low on fluids too but bathroom trips have been incredibly productive since I combined the Quest Bar with the daily dose of Miralax.  

Reflecting and remembering how weird it was to switch from diet mode to maintenance.  Also thinking about the word diet again after Devon's post. I think where it's been skewed is the use of the word as a verb. Whereas a diet (noun) is merely what we eat, the act of dieting is associated with restricting how much and what we eat. Personally, I restrict how much and what I eat every day, but I'm not always dieting, so to speak, so the differences are definitely nuanced. 

Diet as a verb vs diet as a noun....exactly right! 

Yep! I prefer to think of it as a noun!

Paula, sorry you and your family are going through this.  As Diane said, it's great that your son feels safe enough with you to share how he's feeling.  Hopefully, his stay at the unit will be brief and productive. 

Kudos to you for not giving into the cravings!  It is so hard to find new ways to cope, and each time you go through a difficult situation without using food is a major victory!  If you can, once things are settled, try to find some way to pamper yourself that doesn't involve food.  You'll be in my thoughts and prayers!

Hugs,  Mary

Good morning!  Scale was down another 1.2 lbs this morning.  Trying to keep things in perspective, as I know it will slow down, but glad things are going in the right direction.  "One day at a time" HAS to be my mantra, or I'll start projecting, which is toxic for me.

Tonight is my dance class, which I always look forward to!  Recital is 12 weeks from this weekend - can't wait!

Have a great Tuesday!

Hugs, Mary

Always err on the side of caution, Paula.  My son was diagnosed at age 15 and is now 24.  I never hesitate taking him to the hospital, because I know he hates to go and if he asks, it's serious.  It is usually the middle of the night, just to make it more difficult.

He went back in to the hospital for a tune-up after my dad died in April.  He handled my mother's death in January much better or so I thought, but we didn't really have time to grieve.  He went back in last week for another tune-up.  His medications were adjusted, he got a new psychiatrist to replace the one that lost his mind, and he had lots of therapy.  It is very scary when he goes in and I used to turn to food.  It is hard to fight those demons but I am learning. 

Every month, I fluctuate 5 pounds and I hit my lowest weight of 182.0 on February 18th.  I was up to 187.2 this morning but I am following my plan. 

I have not yet purchased my Instant Pot.  It is at the top of my list for pay day.

Thank you for sharing about your son. I agree, you can never be too cautious when it comes to mental instability!

Paula, my thoughts and prayers will be with your throughout today. I hope you understand how deeply profound it is that your son trusts you with his illness when it affects his mental state with such intensity. You are very lucky, indeed. He is equally, if not more so, to have a mother whom he is able to trust with his innermost feelings. Bless you for the years of good parenting that have come before today.