Wednesday 10 February 2016

Oh yeah - the big flush is a right of passage in the club

Morning all. I'm at 113 again but 112 winked at me. My food choices have been steady. Was able to enjoy the two bite brownie without repercussions. Looks like there are still some in the fridge but DH made a good dent in them. Hopefully gone without my help before the end of the evening.

Looking forward to Devon's report and glad Lorna is well on her way to dealing with the small holiday gain. You got on it right away, which is what makes all the difference between the number being 3 or 30 pounds. 

Peace out

Your scale is a flirt!

It's Valentine's Day here at school. I have already been gifted a box of hard candies, Ghirardelli Chocolates, a plush puppy and coffee cup by one little girl. So sweet, but.... this is after I sent home a note saying please don't send me any gifts for V. Day. Sigh.... Kiddos will be handing out Valentine's Day cards and treats to one another later today and then will get to decorate homemade heart shaped sugar cookies (sans the sugar sprinkles). It's a fun day for the kids. 

Had a day of absolute on point eating, a great cardio session, but a "no flush" day (Shel, you inspired my use of "flush"! ) so the scale has rewarded me by going up .2. I'm at 200.8 this morning. I am okay with this. In the past, I would have been upset or frustrated by the scale staying the same after such a tight eating day. Happily, my viewpoint has changed. I know that when I continue to string the days of thoughtful eating together the weight will come off. I'm learning how to let my body do its thing in its own time. It is a lesson in releasing control. 

Update: I started my post about an hour ago - I sneak a few lines while the kids are doing independent work. I now have a See's sampler, a pound of Russell Stover chocolates, a Whitman's chocolate bar, and a giant Hershey's kiss. The teacher's room is going to be a great dumping ground for all of this! LOL! 

The steak house at which I love to celebrate my b'day will be closed on Monday. Poop! Must rethink and select a different protein forward restaurant. 

NSV - Today I am wearing my polo shirt tucked into my jeans. (Big deal for me)

Happy hump day, all! 

I know what you mean.  I'd rather a nice card, a cup of coffee or no gift at all. 

An attorney I work with gave me an extra large (think Costco large) bag of assorted Lindor chocolate truffles.  I said thank you but now that it is staring at me, I am a little irritated.  Everyone I work with knows about my surgery, he and I have spoken about it.  He knows I do not partake in any of the office foodfests, except for the healthy foods that I bring in.  They joke about it. 

Nice gesture, I suppose, BUT it seems so thoughtless and even a little bit mean.  It always irritates me when anyone who knows my daughter (who was diagnosed with Type I diabetes almost 20 years ago) still gives her candy as a gift.  Why would they do that? 

I will not give it to my son, daughter or grandsons.  I may give it to my very active and healthy niece and nephew.  Their mother will dole it out to them slowly so they would enjoy it for a very long time.  

Stress is getting to me.  If you would have told me a couple years ago that I would feel bad about "pigging out" on rice cakes, I would think you were crazy.  Last night, I ate 5 caramel rice cakes while watching a movie with my son.  First mistake, buying them.  Second mistake, leaving the package in the room during the movie instead of taking just one to satisfy the craving.  Third and biggest mistake, mindless eating. 

It is done.  I know it was stress.  Deaths, more deaths, worrying about my kids, getting overwhelmed with work at the office, too much to do at home and not enough time... 

The scale was up this morning.  I think I will start weighing myself once a week, maybe Mondays.  I don't know that I am strong enough to stay off of it, but I may try.

No worries about the rice cakes.  Perhaps you were mindless in the moment but you didn't stay mindless.  Isn't that a victory?  And, you have a plan for next time.  Thank you for posting....I am "trying to get things done" here at home which in my brain means "eat something, anything, anything at all."  I will have coffee instead.  

Have you been weighing daily and you are thinking of cutting back?  I would never presume to know what works best for you.  For myself, I am sure that staying off the scale was one of the early signs of regain.   This time I must weigh daily and learn to find some zen around the number.  I don't control the number, I only control my actions.  And that number is frequently unexplainable anyway. 

Now I KNOW you aren't saying that you are stopping weighing altogether....just going to once weekly.  I'm just chit-chatting.  I do like hearing what other peeps try.  

I am sorry that you are going thru a rough patch.  I know you are working to keep the path. 

Perspective. It is my word for the day. 

5 Quaker Caramel Rice Cakes - 250 calories, 55 carbs, 5 protein, 0 fat

1 pint of Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie- 1060 calories, 120 carbs (112 from sugar), 52 grams of fat, 20 grams protein. 

Hmmm... rice cakes are looking pretty damn healthy in comparison. 

So, you see in my world the 5 rice cakes are a win. You made a far better choice than eating what I would have chosen 5 years ago (the ice cream). Heck, last year at this time I would have chosen the ice cream.

So sure, you may be disappointed in the behavior, but within that behavior you made pretty good choices. Nights like you had last night happen to every single one of us on this board. The cool thing is that we are all learning to consider and evaluate our minor transgressions, perhaps understanding that on some level they may have been necessary, learn and move on from them. 

We have a lifetime to get this "right". 

Hi Friends

Sounds like we are all having pretty normal lives. A little pain, a moderate amount of aggravation, some stress but some good times with family, friends and co workers.  Guess what, we are normal people. Weight is our struggle but other normal people have their own struggles. And we are normal weight. 

Well you guys are normal weight. I am still at 130 and HATE it.  Did a reasonable amount of walking yesterday in spite of gallery duty. today I have to glaze a lot of stuff for the big kiln firing friday.  Gotta get on it. Eat less. Walk more.  Gotta go look for the night herons again even though they were hiding monday.   Saw splashing ducks though.   diane s

Hello Friends-

     One of our teachers and her youngest son were killed last night in a murder suicide. Rough day today, which will continue the rest of the week. Please send positive thoughts to our traumatized district.

Diane