Happy Friday Feb 5

Good morning on this final day of the week.  Thank goodness is all I can say!!!!

calories yesterday 967, steps 11698.

is it just me or is time running faster.  was not  Christmas just yesterday?  And already the Easter wares are in the shops.  

Hopefully those of us who are under the weather are feeling better.

enjoy this Friday!

Good morning all. Hope everyone is having a positive day. Thinking of you Paula.  Speedy recovery. 

 Nothing new with me, just keeping on keeping on trying to make the healthiest choices available to me. Luckily I brought protein powder with me so I am getting protein, not as much as I would like but I need to make it last until Sunday night. 

I did try steak here last night and it promptly came right back up on me. Oh well. Maybe notCuba again ð??'  The beaches are fabulous though. In hindsight one week would have been best. 

Happy day all. Hugs Lorna

Hang in there Lorna. A few more days and you'll be back to your own kitchen and routines :-). Enjoy the sunshine and the water!

TGIF !!!!!   Eager to hear how Paula makes out !!

139.6... up a pound since yesterday.  I just don't get it. Being sick, 500 calories Wednesday and 700 yesterday, and all on plan, macro balanced...  even walked 1.8 miles yesterday.  I guess I have to get used to what "normal fluctuations" will be.  In the past, after I reached my goal (usually 170ish) , I didn't weigh/measure/track food or myself.  I have no healthy point of reference.  I don't know why I'm so concerned... I'm .6 of a pound from my lower red line, but I was expecting a "bonus loss" from being sick.

Going out for Japanese tonight for SO's birthday. Hibachi salmon on the plan.  No fried rice or fried ice cream for me !! (Choice not restriction).

Have a great day, all !

I understand your thinking and confusion about losing weight when being ill. My body seems to react like yours - I rarely lose any weight when ill, even when it's a gastro illness with many trips to the loo. I'm guessing some of us just hold on to the water during times of inflammation. Makes sense when I think about it. 

Devon... thanks for hearing the desperation and reaching out. Made a big difference in where my head will be going out tonight !!

D.

Glad you're feeling better Diane O. and that little scale fluctuation is definitely due to illness.  Our scales 'know' much more than we do about what's going on in our bodies.  

Find your scale zen!  (much easier said than done, I know) 

Enjoy your night off. 

Again with the accountability.  I guess it's better to post after the bad than not at all.  Speaking of--does it bother anyone that I've posted my meal plans?  

I had a meltdown yesterday at about 4pm.  I ate lunch late which probably started the cycle off poorly.  I was still hungry despite a pretty bulky lunch of shredded lettuce topped with shredded pork.  And then I had carbs.  Doh.  Which made me want more carbs.  And then I had a meltdown "will I never be full again?!?  Will I never lose weight?!"  And then, miraculously, I was satisfied.  I ended up picking up meatballs in marinara for Bunco thinking that at least it would be some protein.  And, sure enough, that was the only protein, save for the numerous cheese dips.  I also took my ice water and gulped it down.  I had single bites of everything, plus 4 meatballs, and at the end of the night I had a glass of wine (one!) and a chocolate chip cookie.  Maybe I was liberal in calculating my calories, but I added up 1022 calories for just dinner!  I was so upset with myself last night.  And again felt helpless.  "If I want to stay trim, I guess I cannot ever be social!" I cried to my husband as I pooched out my stomach as if to lend credibility to my argument.  Last night was a low.  A real low.  I felt about as bad about my image as I have since surgery.  Isn't it interesting that while losing weight 220, 200, 180 felt so skinny?!  And now, at 163.2 (that was my weight on the scale this morning :( ), I feel HUGE.  I won't say that I made the best decisions last night.  But I don't feel like they were terrible either.  I just don't know how to do it.  I don't know how to be around people eating and do any better than I did last night.  There, I said it.  I know I need to, but I just feel so lacking in discipline recently.  

And now my husband and I are going with friends ot New Orleans for Mardi Gras and I know I won't be able to be entirely good there.  I'm hoping to get a lot of walking in.  And luckily I don't care much for the super-sugary drinks.  But I know there will be food, and there will be alcohol.  I really want to believe that healthy eating and fun times can coexist!  Well I'm not going to be a funny duddy this weekend and I think I need a mental break so I'm just going to try to listen to my fullness factor and see what the scale says on Monday.  The one thing I'm definitely committed to doing is tracking my calories so at least I have a reference point for what I'm doing and how the scale is reflecting that.

Sorry for being a bummer guys.  I really am trying to come back around to losing weight again.  It just feels like pulling teeth.

Today:

B:  leftover half of "power wrap" (tortilla, egg whites, mushrooms, spinach, and cheese)

L:  Another burrito "bowl" with shredded lettuce, salsa verde chicken, this time with habanero cheese crumbles

S:  "foodles" snack of carrots w/ ff ranch, a few pretzels, and cheese cubes

D:  ??  In New Orleans

We've all been where you're at.  And we all got past it, so please try to remember that!