Thursday, January 14th

Boredom is a nemesis of mine, too! 

I notice that everyone seems to have a back up food supply available, which I have never had. I have only ever packed what I COULD/ALLOWED MYSELF TO eat. On those occasions when I'm actually really hungry, or heaven forbid, I've forgotten my lunch or to pack a snack (which has happened a few times) I have not had back ups. Silly, but I have to admit, not having "MY FOOD" has brought on a sense of anxiety and stress. Perhaps from the 40+ years of on again off again dieting I've developed some type of deprivation issue! 

I will admit, too, that I felt like I had achieved some sort of normalcy when I had left over food yesterday when I got home. It's becoming a regular thing and I do like it. Color me odd.... sigh....

Hi All

Rain again today and I am back at 129. BMI calculator says that is 4 pounds too much. Seems like this up tick has been over the last year and a hal*****ta get on it now.    

Gallery duty today which will be slow and dull due to rain. Gotta pack my food so its a good discussion topic. When I work at the art studio I often forget to eat because I am involved with the clay etc. Gallery duty is different as there is sometimes little to do. I take iPad and sketchbook and such but I tend to eat whatever I bring.  cheese sticks, almonds, a quest bar.  probably should look for more options. sometimes i walk laps around the gallery when no one is there. probably I look like an idiot through the window. 

Sounds like everyone is doing well.  Boo-yah.  diane s. 

Hi All!  It's good to hear how each of you is doing!

I generally don't pack a lunch, per se.  I have a mini fridge and storage drawers in my office.  I try to keep stocked on foods I eat for breakfast, lunch and snacks.  I keep Triple Zero yogurts, low fat cheese sticks, low carb wraps, condiments, All Bran Buds (I add a tablespoon or so to my yogurt for fiber and crunch), and other staples.  I usually shop on the weekend for the house, and pack stuff for work in a bag that I grab Monday morning.

Still trying to find my place with food.  Today the carbs have been low, but the calories have been too high.  I was mindful of what I put in my mouth, but more in a defiant, "I'm going to do this, I don't care" way than looking at the food thoughtfully.

Watched "My 600 lb. Life" and "Skin Tight" last night.  Today I did a meet and greet with a potential consumer, a woman with intellectual disabilities who must weigh close to 400 lbs., and found out she'd had gastic bypass years ago.  From these experiences, so many conflicting feelings have been churning around -gratitude, fear, panic, relief, etc..  Instead of dealing with the feelings, and trying to root out why the struggle, I choose to eat too much today and ignore it all.  Sometimes it feels like one step forward, two steps back!  Writing this and admitting what's going on is helping.  So glad you're all here!

On a more positive note, I graduated from PT today, and saw the orthopedic surgeon for follow up and he's pleased at where I'm at!

Have a great rest of the day everyone! 

Hugs, Mary

Hello again,

I too shop and cook on the weekends.  I usually have a good stock in my freezer of good quality proteins that I have cooked and then vaccum packed. Lean roast beef, chicken, pork, homemade jerky etc. I then will bring a bag full on Monday and stock up the fridge at work so that I have good stuff every day on hand. I must admit some days I don't choose to eat the good stuff, but I try to always make sure it is there so that I can't use that as an excuse.

Today was 2 oz of grilled chicken breast and 1 light mini baby bell cheese. I have three more oz of chicken breast in the fridge for tomorrow and if I need to eat inbetween I can take one oz of the chicken for snack.

Planning helps me, but does not keep me perfect :-). You know what they say about best laid plans!!!!

Back to boot camp tomorrow, my ankle finally feels up to.

Have a great one everyone!

Well I'm back. Its absolutely pouring rain and I have no desire to leave the house in it. So its a second cup of coffee and more computer time. Dogs will not get a walk today.  more laps around the gallery.  

Yeah, meeting a morbidly obese person triggers all kinds of thoughts and feelings. You wish you could just tell them what they need to do and what can happen. I have intended to write an article for our local paper about my journey and how it changed my life in the hope that it would help others. Gotta add it to the "to do" list. 

One other lunch item i like are those little packages of sliced apples. I often can't eat them all - very filling - but sort of a sweet treat.  diane s