Monday, January 11th

Down a few tenths of a pound today. I can not complain one bit. I'm doing my part and the body is following. 

Having a little domestic stress which always puts me at risk for food soothing. I'm instead trying to be very present for my feelings and working through them. Seems to be working so far. 

Being in a reflective mood myself today, I'm going to jump on the bandwagon! I believe that I am transitioning back to who I was before the disordered eating took hold. I remember my mother telling me that when I was young she was so relieved to know that I wouldn't have a weight problem because I only ate when I was hungry. I would refuse desserts and treats because I wasn't hungry. It wasn't until I began elementary school that food took on a role of comfort and emotional soother. The older I became and the more stressful my weight gain became and the more uncomfortable I felt in who I was I turned to things outside of myself for comfort. First it was food, later it was partying, and then a return to food. 

Understanding now where a lot of my disordered eating has come from, I'm able to deal with things less and less without food. Not easy, but I'm doing it. In one sense I feel like I was injured and am now in the rehab process. Physical rehabilitation has spurts of growth, some set backs, but as as progress is being made getting back to the "pre injury" state seems easier and easier. I'm applying the same principal to my weight and disordered eating. May not make sense to others, but it works for me! 

Paula, please keep us in the loop on your Bod Pod testing. I'm curious what it shows and how it's done. 

Happy Monday all! 

hi all, 128.5 today.  Not thrilled  but could be worse.  

If you read the book "The End of Overeating" you will realize the carb monster is real and there is an addictive quality to sugar/fat/salt/carb food and thats why junk food can take over your life if you let it.  I now think of those food companies like big tobacco - bad creatures. 

Well I have spent hours figuring out why I overate and there are a whole set of reasons that I understand pretty well. The main thing I have tried to do is to let go of food as comfort and entertainment. I started this as a mental attitude some months before my surgery. I was 58 years old and not sure I could have done it younger. 

Off to a doctor apt today. I had showing low blood platelet levels so today is a follow up on that.  Pretty sure its stress related.  I don't feel sick at all. 

Tonight we watch the college football championship.  We are calling it the "Cracker Bowl" since both teams are from the south.  Sorry if that offends anyone.  We don't really care who wins .  We Just like college football and this is the end of it.   

Have fun with the Bod Pod.  I gotta do that one of these days.    Diane S.  

Yep, Author is David Kessler M.D.  A former surgeon general.  the book was written about 7 years ago i think - before I got my surgery and suggested by a surgeon.  Diane S

Am the late one today.

yesterday was NOT a good day. Emotionally and socially and I self soothed.  The only good thing was the 11,000 steps.

You are all doing so well and are an inspiration.