thursday Dec24

good early morning to everyone.  And welcome to our newest member!  Thank you for joking us.

1:39am here and there is a party going on across the street with accompanying big trucks revving up and revving down.  All of which makes the dogs bark.  No joy in whosvile at the present time.

Kairk has initiated a post about putting down in black and white our food suggested plan for the 25th.  Excellent idea. 

Down .5 and 9,889 steps.  Raw and bitterly cold.  You would think that shivering would expend calories.  And what about huddling under bedclothes trying to drown out the party noise.  Does huddling count?

one more sleep.  

Enjoy the day.

Kappuni sorry about the misspelling.  I meant ' joining '.   You are so VERY welcome. 

I kind of liked the idea that Kappuni had already pulled some sort of prank even tho I knew what you meant :) 

edited for my OWN spelling problem!

Good morning everyone. Carbon, what a night!  I'm at 114 this morning so all is well on that front.  

I've been awake since about 4 a.m. due to my building anxiety related to the arrival of unhealthy family members later today. At best, it will be a couple of days of navigating my way through their completely crazy, likely certifiable behavior and at worst there could be some direct hit inflicted upon me.  I must remind myself that second scenario is unlikely and while the first scenario is annoying as hell, it isn't life threatening so to speak!

I won't lie, I find these people super scary and I can feel tears welling up as I write this. Past traumas are clearly still with me and while my husand is truly the most wonderful partner anyone could wish for, he is not capable of protecting me from his toxic family. I'm well aware that his inability comes from his own traumas, which he has come to deal with that largely through denial. Today I wish I could do that too!!

But with that said, I set my own boundaries with them years ago and they have not had the nerve to intentionally cross them since. It's just their unintentional inherent craziness that feels dangerous/hurtful at times. So most of what I fear is only fear itself.  It's helps me to write this stuff down.

So now that I've taken my few moments to express my vulnerability, I'm putting on my big girl panties (okay they're really small) and I'm going to get through this! Can't say I have a super firm food plan, but the goal will merely be to limit gobbling of snack foods that are out in the open and limit my alcohol intake to lessen the liklihood of grazing. That means limiting my exposure.  

And hopefully things will be mildly pleasant and my anxiety level will settle after they arrive this afternoon. Thanks for being here.  Keepin' it real and all, but wishing each of you a beautiful day.  Stay strong!!

Carbon, hope your Christmas Eve is more peaceful!

Linda, well, I am sending you protection vibes -- it sounds like you need body armor. 

Weight now at 127. Do I need to remind you that my goal target is 125?    Even tho I feel broke, I am going to order a new scale today because I think this old scale is about to give up.  I feel confident in its accuracy for now because it still matches the scales at the doctor's. 

Hope everyone finds peace inside and out today.  

Shel

Soooo, sooo close Shel!

125.8 today, up a little bit more. Maybe it was a good thing I went below the lower red line right before the Holidays. I posted my food intentions on the other thread. Gonna try that treadmill again!

Paula

I am up .5 today. I'm guessing it's muscle repair going on, but who the heck knows. I also got in 3.5 miles on the elliptical last night. Feel very good about that.

Best news is I seem to be out of the funk in which I started the week. That's nice. 

I have a boat load to do today: bake the lemon pie, cook the onion soup, have to go to the bakery because they had sold out of baguette yesterday, and have to get gift cards for my two besties! I also really want to get to the gym today and should, but Ron suggested I not go so I didn't feel rushed. I'm thinking I will be better able to cope with the pressure of getting ready for a houseful if I do workout. I'll need to go within the next half hour, if I'm going to go at all. The gym closes at 11:00 am today. 

Realization hit this morning: Ron is home for the next three days. He EATS on holidays. I like to get on the eating band wagon with him, so I'm glad I realized the potential to be derailed. I can better prepare for it now. 

I want to wish you all a wonderful holiday and thank you all for being on this board. We are a great group and I'm so glad to have you all to check in with each day. Our group is a wonderful and essential part of my support system. 

Merry Christmas, everyone! 

wow, everyone seems to have great food control plans for the holidays.  I don't have much of one which is probably why i am up to 129 lbs.  I really haven't been indulging in holiday stuff ( well not much) but the scale doesn't lie  (hmmm, ever considered that scales do indeed lie just to mess with you).  guess i gotta get tracking again and see why i am inching up.  really need to get moving - as i sit here and drink coffee and look at the treadmill.

Linda I sympathize with you on the toxic family.  we have one such person in ours who just makes everyone miserable.  New Harbinger Publications has lots of self help books. I got one on how to deal with aging narcissistic elderly people.  Had some good tips like just not engaging in whatever they argue or complain  about and identifying the various types of bad behavior.   Anyway, this may not be your issue but I am sure this company has a book about whatever is wrong with these people.  Sometimes it helps to read the reassurance that you are not the crazy one and have a personal strategy. 

Tomorrow we go to friends for christmas dinner. There will be food bombs there but also decent options so i am not too worried.  I can make it through one evening without too much damage.  I always insist on cutting my own serving of dessert and my friends respect this. I am taking a healthy spinach dish and cheese crisps.  

Really wi**** would quit raining for a day or two.   diane