Friday Nov 20

morning everyone.

gosh darn if the scale is NOT moving.  Am beginning to wonder if it is not on strike or perhaps too cold.  -2c  here today (sorry don't know what that is in F) AND I know that you Maine and Alberta people are rolling your eyes but for us it literally is freezing.  I can put up with lotsa things except cold and then I get cranky.

A surprisingly wonderful day yesterday.  There were no speeches except the welcome one and the sweets were gobbled up.  Had made a photo PowerPoint and it had a large following.  Confession time though I had a cube of brownies about 1/2 inch square and immediately felt ill.  A good reminder that sugar is not a friend.

glad that the dizziness is no more.  I admire you class room people, motorbike people and horse back riding folks.  

Happy Friday everyone.

Oh Carbon that damn scale. If we keep up our end of the bargain it will reward us!  Personally I find it so easy to conveniently forget the days I wasn't on plan but the scale remembers and reflects EVERYTHING we do :-(

I've backed off another pound to 117 so now just one off from my number a week ago before my disastrous wine/food fest. I've been reflecting a lot on that and while I know what that wine is a trigger, I'm not ready to give it up.  Yet. 

2 degrees Celsius = 35.5 degrees Fahrenheit. Cold enough for me! 

Carbon, were you a stair step loser? Seems to me if you are counting calories, your macros are in line, the scale will go down. It will have no choice. If you are not measuring, weighing and tracking, go back to it to make sure your portions are accurate. I find that I underestimate protein portions (meaning I usually serve myself a smaller portion than I should have) and then WAY overestimate carb portions. Go figure, huh? LOL! I'm pretty diligent now about measuring my carb portions because of that. 

Scale rewarded me today with being back at last Friday's weight plus an extra tenth below that. So, it took 5 days of clean eating to make up for 2 days of indulgence. Not so sure it was worth it - especially since I seem to still be having some residual carb/sugar/sweet cravings. 

It's time for me to start thinking ahead to Thanksgiving Day. I need to create a plan of attack. I have some information that I need already: the time we are expected to arrive, ETA of actually eating (so I'll just add 60-90 minutes to that for reality because I know my sister in law!...LOL), and some of the dishes that will be served. We are bringing a vegetable, which will be prepared in a VSG friendly manner, and I will also make a no sugar added dessert for me and my type 1 diabetic brother in law (and anyone else who wants it - My RNY uncle will eat it, too, if he's there). What is going to be difficult for me is the spread of appetizers and the numerous desserts. Need a plan, escape route, strategy(ies) mapped out ahead of time to get me through. 

I am grateful that through therapy I have a true awareness and acceptance of the depth of my food issues and a newfound kindness toward myself when it comes to the difficulties I have with food. 

well up a half today. dang, thought i was back in the groove. really didn't eat anything bad yesterday. but i had a dream last night that i drank quarts of root beer!   now i know it was a dream because we have no root beer or soda in the house and no way could i drink any thing carbonated anyway. so maybe we gain weight from dream eating. Carbon, have any food dreams lately?  

My fitbit reports look like a comatose person. gotta get moving. thats the real issue. too much butt on chair time.   diane

 I had a huge post typed out and it fricken disappeared.... Insert lots of swear words!!!  Anyway...

154#

I'm on Thanksgiving Break and I'm a happy girl!  I'm still not feeling my best.  Coughing at night and not sleeping.  I did manage a strength training session this morning and a hair cut.  I had an amazing salad and soup for lunch.  I'm going to do some shopping tonight while Andy is at a HS football game.

Tomr we're going to a college football game...prob gonna freeze my ass off. 

Thanksgiving thoughts...Be kind to myself. Enjoy my family and friends.  Enjoy the food I've consciencely chosen to eat.  No guilt.  Get back on track on Friday and stay there until Christmas as best I can.  That's my two cents...