Tuesday Oct 20

Morning and thank you for your kind words of comfort.

scale the same but the two hour planned eating went very well, other than a swipe or two of dough and icing.

No walking to speak of but back to work today and that will change.

Canadian elections were yesterday and we have a new government.

Enjoy your Tuesday.

No big news here. Up .5 this morning. No reason at all. Clean, clean eating yesterday, so just a daily fluctuation I suppose.

Spent last night cooking to get a little more prepared protein in the fridge for the week. Made a tri tip and boiled eggs, chicken breast.

Had a session with the nutritionist yesterday. We both agree that I seem to be on a good and sustainable track. I had good recovery after a weekend of dog shows and club meetings and eating off plan for two days. I have "graduated" to a once a month check in. We won't meet again until just before Thanksgiving.

Hi All! Eating this past weekend was a *****aotic and not well thought out. I even shared a large popcorn with Jay at the movies, which even before surgery I usually didn't get. Yesterday was a bit better, as is today. Trying to think what's at the base of this sloppy eating. The things that come to mind include having been off course a bit during my recovery from surgery. My appetite was low at first, so got used to eating whenever, but in very little amounts. Well, the appetite came back, but the eating didn't substantially change for many of the days since. Also, self-sabotage has always been a biggie for me. I have my 4 year check up, though late, in early December. I keep thinking that I want to weigh less, as I was up at the last appointment. The more I tell myself I want to weigh X# lbs. by then, the more sloppy I get and then give myself the old (useless) line that it's just today and tomorrow will be clean. Well this scene, as you might have already guessed, repeats itself many more times, and then I'm trying to lose lots of pounds a week before the appointment. I need to get off of the self-sabotage merry-go-round and just stay in the moment.

Have a great day! Mary

I want to comment on your post Mary. I understand and have lived that exact same thing (weigh XX amount by such and such a date). I can tell you that for me that has never, ever worked. If anything, I always gained weight when I approached losing weight in that manner.

You know we talk about eating clean. But what you really have to figure out is what that means to you. I discovered that my clean was NOT 80 grams of protein,

So true Kairk! I have tried to stay away from projecting weight loss, as it always ends up with me not losing, and many times gaining. The old tapes are still there though, and they sometimes get louder, especially the more I struggle. Good point about what clean eating is. For me, it's doesn't include grazing and mindlessly putting something in my mouth, even if it's a "legal" food. It also means being mindful of my trigger foods and either staying away from them or again, being mindful of how much I am having and staying with that. I can do that with some foods, others not so much. When I start buying, planning, etc. for those foods, and they call my name and I answer, I know I'm not eating cleanly, even if I lose weight, as it will just start me on a slippery slope. Clean eating isn't perfection, but rather being honest and mindful.

Carbon, so sorry about the loss of your friends. No matter whether expected or not, losing someone we care about is hard. You're in my thoughts! Mary

hi all, 125.5, haven't seen that in a while. since my life goal is to be at 125 or below it feels good.

carbon don't know how you can bake without eating loads of the stuff. i will cook thanksgiving here but tell people if they want pie they have to bring it.

old doggy Liza had dental work yesterday. so she has to eat soft feed and is loving her daily scrambled eggs. she eats like a shark.

the sun is back after a day of gloom. always improves the mood. diane