primal urges

It took me a very long time, but I finally learned to remind myself that when doing those mental calculations, I needed to factor in not only the tempting yumminess I'm contemplating in the moment, but also all the other yummy things I'd find myself scarfing down for days afterward once that sugar hit my bloodstream, and all the calories I wouldn't be burning walking, or hiking, or jogging, since I wouldn't feel like doing any of that once the carb coma took over.  Most days that's enough to shut up my inner fat girl. 

well the devil possesed me on easter (isn't easter some sort of religious holiday- lol) but only long enough to eat 3 coconut balls and a thin piece of lemon cheese cake. and i liturally went into a carb coma - had to leave the table and lie down. of course wine had nothing to do with that. but its back to kefir today - my new favorite thing.   diane

Mmmm - Kefir.  I saw a nutritionist briefly who introduced me to it, mentioned that many folks find it's a natural way of reducing anxiety - I was all in for that!  One year I found holiday flavors - pumpkin, and cranberry (not together) - yum!  Do you drink it plain?

yep, i drink plain. i like it.  bot pumpkin sounds good. diane

I really like this thread.

I just wanted to pipe up with a little revelation I've had about myself. So I'm sort of a hard core addict type. I gave up drinking years ago because alcoholism runs in my family and I could see very clearly the path I was on. Not so good. Best to avoid at all costs, thought I. So bye bye went the booze. I also smoked for years and years. I'm not going to lie either. The ONLY thing I disliked about smoking was that it was going to kill me. I liked it, but it was starting to take it's toll, too, so the cigs had to go. I thank heaven above I never got into pills because, damn I'm sure I'd have ended up a pill popper - seriously, I read Valley of the Dolls a couple of years ago and seriously wanted to try some of those Dolls!

Brings me to my food addiction/issues. You know, when you compare a little dish of ice cream to smoking or having a ****tail, the ice cream doesn't look so bad. I can see how I've been rationalizing some of my crap food choices. Odd how the mind can work.

I've been having some serious longings for cigarettes lately, but that's absolutely out of the question. I decided to start having real coffee again (been off the caffeine for about 2.5 years). I think it's helping.  Sad thing is that after two weeks I'm not getting the buzz from the caffeine anymore. I like the buzz. Damn. What does that tell you? Yes, I'm subbing one behavior for another, but what the hell....

Cuz, believe me there have been some evenings over the past few months that sitting down with a pack of smokes, a bottle of vodka and a big ass plate of nachos has sounded mighty fine!

yeah, we all want to just dive into a bag of chips once in awhile  the odd thing for me is that i generally have no problem passing vending machines (stale over priced stuff)  but when under stress that urge reappeared so suddenly it was breathtaking.  so gotta be on guard.  i am lucky to not have a hideously stressful life but it doesn't take much to light up those old habits.   shoot, now i want nachos.  diane

Diane -- Please know that you are not alone!!  The old urges scares me too.  Devon & you are so correct with just taking one day at a time.

I too can relate.  I am experiencing pain from carpel tunnel, tendinitis, and feeling stressed about from work.  The sweets are are a familiar pacifier.  And with the kids Easter baskets in the pantry, it's so convenient to snack.  Yikes, this is a fat girl routine.  Added to the stress is a scheduled ultrasound of my ovaries on Thurs, due to swelling noted by my GP.  Oh great.  32 oz of liquid must be consumed prior to ultra sound (sleeve girls can't do that).  And I have to pay for that expensive ultrasound too?  Oh too much.  Where is that German Choc Cake that I read about?   Okay, I can handle this.  I'm not alone.  

I hope everything goes well with your ultrasound!! You can handle this. I'm so glad we're not alone in this.