Daily Maintenance Weigh In, Sunday July 14, 2013

151.4 - too many parties this weekend. Also did some stress eating.

Today is hopefully the last food-centered day for awhile. We have a Luau, then dinner with my step-dad, his succubus wife and my step sister. Always interesting conversations.

I'm running over to the farmer's market this am to put in an order for cucumbers that I can pick up next weekend. So, next weekend will be canning spicy dill pickles. They are awesome.

You all have a wonderful day!

Good morning all:

The last house guests left last evening.  Hopefully can get back to ' normal eating.'

163.   3 above goal.

Drinking water is the key.

enjoy the day.

BTW spicy pickles are the best.

So, I'm extremely happy about this, but also kind of... in shock? Scared? I dunno. I need to sit with this for a bit. I'm so freaking amazed and proud of myself right now.

Goal.

I'll post a longer post at some point today on the main VSG board. I simply cannot believe that is my weight. MY weight. ME. Candy. My weight.

Hey, it only took 2 years and 23 days. LOL

Awesome! I'm so happy for you!

Yep, let it sink in. Figure out what it means - if anything. Then, head on down the road.

Yeah. I mean, knowing it will happen and it actually happening is two different things. I'm still trying to figure out how I feel about it. Elated, of course, but there's something else that I can't figure out.

No matter, it's an amazing day. LOOK at my ticker! The ******* finally says "goal reached" About freaking time.

No, you are 100% correct. What's weird is that my original goal was 175 and I reached that (hell my ORIGINAL ORIGINAL goal was 250). I've been through so many of those things you say above already, even the 10 pound gain.

I dunno. I'm not sure where I am. I feel... almost... let down? Like there was no magic fairy that came swooping down and "poof" everything is great.

I mean, it IS great. Don't get me wrong.

Hmmm... I dunno. Obviously, I'll have some stuff to talk about at my next therapist's appointment.

I'm definitely going to do all I can to figure out the maintenance stuff. I did a good job of maintaining over the past few months, but hell, that's a drop in the bucket of my lifetime.

I'm the QUEEN of self-sabotage for sure. I know that too.

But knowing something doesn't mean jack **** ya know?

Love you and you can NEVER overstep. I'm always willing to look at what I'm doing and how I'm feeling and figure out what to do with that - or not. Sometimes you don't have to know.

Here's my original post:

I don't know how to say this without sounding like a not-it-all who hasn't been there so she doesn't know what the **** she's talking about. So, I'm just going to say it.

I've watched a lot of people get to goal over the last 20+ months. I've watched a lot of people get close. I've watched a lot of people come back after gaining a lot of weight back. I've never shared this before because I didn't feel like getting my ass served to me on a platter by the "you don't know what the **** you're talking about" folks. A trend I've noticed with all of them goes like this:

1. Elation - natural high for reaching something that is so damn hard.

2. Defiance - daring themselves (think, 16 yo with a '65 Mustang fastback road race kind of dare) to "test" the goal.

3. New Success - introducing things that don't seem to effect their weight.

4. More Defiance - It starts to get to the point where they are running across the highway during rush hour just to see how many times they can do it without getting hit.

5. Gain - Just a little, and hell they were planning on gaining a little because they went below their goal.

6. Oh **** Gain - In trying to keep the elation from the initial goal going, they suddenly or not so suddenly find themselves with a significant gain.

I've had a lot of time to analyze why I think this happens and I've decided that the base emotion is either fear or low self-esteem. In trying to find a way to bottle their initial feelings o*******n, people tend to sabotage themselves. I don't think that you have either of these, Candy. I'm only offering something I've noticed so that hopefully you can relatively breeze right through maintenance (HA! We all know that never happens).

Hopefully I haven't overstepped my bounds. I only offer this as a warning. Nothing else. I haven't been to goal and I have no idea how it feels. This is only my clinical opinion

Never mind about that post.

WOOT! Congrats!

That was a GREAT post. If you can find it, PUT IT BACK. So many need to read it.