Daily Maintenance Weigh In - Thursday June 20

154.2 this morning - back down a pound. Huh. Amazing what happens when you get your **** together and stop screwing it up.

Not in the best place this morning. I realized that we never went to get a new mattress so was obsessing over it last night, even after my Ambien I couldn't get to sleep. Going to buy a freaking mattress already and stop sleeping in the fat girl hole.

If ONE more of my fru-fru friends give me an "alternative treatment" to my back issues, someone is going to die. I'm not totally against alternative stuff, but dude. My discs are degenerated and slipped out. WTF do you think is really going to help that besides surgery long-term? Yeah. Shut the **** up.

We'd been looking for the source of the fruit flies in my house (and office!) for a few days. Finally found it yesterday. Potatoes we bought LAST WEEK went bad. Huh? Anyway... they're driving me nuts this morning. Why are those little things so hard to swat?

Tomorrow is my 2 year anniversary of my sleeve. FOUR goddamn pounds stand between me and goal. I alternate between being pissed and just not giving a **** LOL. I'm getting better with the "It is what it is" thing though. Honestly? All the pure crap that is going on, I'm happy to maintain for a while within a five pound range. I've been able to reign it in when I start slipping up. Hell, that's progress.

Ummm... random flow of consciousness much?

Oh, and for those that missed it, check out my new shirt. Hehehehe... I'm such a dork. Yes, yes, I look great. Whatever... it's all about the SHIRT people. The SHIRT is awesomesauce!

101.2 lbs today. 

That shirt looks all kinds of awesome Candy!

Have a good one, all!

Fiona

148.5# this morning.  I'm back down to my ticker weight from my self inflicted carb fest on vacation.  Getting my hairs done today!  

Candy, hope you find a new bed today:) 

150.4

I'm blaming the gain on the meds I'm still taking and the fact that yet another ******g fire has started. My hubby and I are driving our children into the mountains today for camp and I'm not a little ******g freaked out at what feels like I'm feeding my ******g kids to the fire. I've been to this camp for years and years when I was a kid. I worked there. I lived there. I know the gigantic steps they've taken in fire mitigation starting with cutting down every beetle  (EVERY tree. Every year) on the property. They also assisted with cutting down dead trees in the surrounding areas.

But **** me, I'm freaking out. They aren't allow to have phones (or any technology), but I am SERIOUSLY thinking about hiding my son's phone in his stuff.

Also, my son is coughing like a chain smoker. ******g great. I am the worst mother in the world--sending my kid off to camp this way.

Ugh. Edelu!!!! Swing the bat!!!!

I am not calm. I do not have any happy thoughts.

Okay. I'm better. I freaked for a moment. They have the ability to get every person out of that camp very fast. They have ample vans and buses.

It's all good.

No bat swinging here.  Y  We expected a freak out an right on schelule we got one, then we got the sane part of the progra,  See it's all good.  Do some lounging in a bubble bath with Adele, right now.  Yoyu only have a week.

146.2 this am, in my comfy spot. Charting weight 1x a mo on the same day in my cycle seems to show steady.. so long as my cycle stays steady.. started Vitex a month ago and must say it seems to be helping my peri-meno symptoms I was having, here's to hoping things get regulated and stay that way! I feel less psycho, less bloated (shins aren't as dent-able and I have ankles!) and things in other areas have improved too ;) I'll take it.

I love, love your attitude!

Get a new mattress!  It may even help your back a bit, and your sleep may even improve.

gail

Morning - thought I would check in briefly. Eating big time crap. Still in my mid range of maintenance weight, but it's creeping up. I just can't figure out how to deal with the emotions as I watch my husband so sick, knowing the likely outcome. I scheduled a counseling appointment 3 times and had to cancel due to stuff with him. But I need to get my head back on straight before this gets out of hand.

156 today.

Candy - you and the shirt look awesome! Silm - you would never send your kids anywhere unsafe - you're way too awesome a Mom to do that. 

Sorry if I'm a downer, but I check on all of you daily and love seeing your success!

Judy

I am so sorry that you are going through this terrible time in your life. I went through a similar episode years ago, and my mistake was not receiving counseling at the time. I would encourage you to do everything in your power to receive counseling, which might help you to cope more effectively with your situation than using food to numb your emotions.

Lots of (((HUGS))).

gail