Daily Maintenance Weigh In - Sunday 4/7

100.6 lbs today.

A confession:  I sort of fell off the rails yesterday and ate almost an entire chocolate bar.  It was a Cavalier brand bar, so made with stevia (not sugar, but still had carbs), but I ate it compulsively.  I started with one piece, which is normal, but then I had another, then another, then another.  In the end, I had one little section of it left but had had enough so I stopped.  This compulsiveness is throw-back behavior from my pre-op days and it scares me. I'm usually very compliant to plan.

Among other things, I suspect this has to do with my boyfriend being away for the weekend and my skipping one of my planned treats because of it.  It appears this particular planned treat can't just be a specific food (like a cookie or ice cream or whatever), it has to be a whole experience.  I think this means I have to go through the whole ritual of making a reservation, getting dressed up, getting to the restaurant...etc.  And it has to be done with someone whose company I enjoy.  Without the company, I can eat whatever I want but still it's not a treat.   With the right company, I can be very compliant but still feel satisfied.  Very bizarre considering I've always thought of myself as an introverted loner but maybe I'm not...?

Thanks for listening to this ramble.  It helps to write it out when I'm thinking things through.  I hope you all enjoy what's left of the weekend. 

Fiona

well fiona, this doesn't sound too serious. its important that you stopped when you had enough. maybe you were just plain hungry and had the wrong thing in front of you. sf chocolate is pretty darn good.

120.5 today. and i ate two little dove dark chocolates last night. hope i can keep to that limit.

diane

Yes Diane, not serious at all :-)  I was just thinking out loud.  Lately, there has been a rash of posts from vsg-ers who are further out, and they warn us to stay vigilant.  I think that was on my mind this morning.

Have a great day!

Fiona

Fiona, it happens to the best of us. The important thing is realizing it and getting back on track. I have thrown things out and stopped bringing certain things into the house, because I was eating them compulsively. Consider it more information. The demons are still there, but the awareness will help you.

gail

161.7, up 2 from yesterday, lots of swelling in my back and legs today. Ugh. But since I'm just looking to just maintain for a while, all good.

I HATE hydrocodone. Injection tomorrow, I hope it gives some relief.

I hope you get some relief too.  I'm really sorry this is dragging on and on for you.

Fiona

Candy, hope you get some relief. Pain meds are not fun.

150.8 - water retention - I think. I had a good eating day - still too many nuts.

Off to look at bikes.

fiona - sorry for the head **** chocolate bar. I hate it when i do that to myself.

Candy - pain meds make me loopy. I hope you get some releif soon.

Diane - if I ever grow up, I want to be like you.

slim, i am 61 years old going on 13... diane

Hell ya! Now I don't EVER have to worry about growing up. Woot!!!