Daily Maintenance Weigh In - Thursday 3/28

Good morning!

This week's weight 136.2

Hope everyone has a great day!

165.2 (wha? 4 pound gain in one day? I'm awesome!) Note to self: DQ blizzards are evil. So is hydrocodone.

Still struggling to get back fully on plan. I'll do well for a day or two and then slip off. I'm having some mental issues around this MRI I have today. It was exactly a year ago that I was going into the ER and ultimately the neck fusion. It's really screwing with my head. I hope this aching burning around my butt and hips isn't going to require a lumbar fusion. I'm not sure if I could deal with another Summer of recovery.

Sigh, I'm trying, just in a bad place right now. Today's agenda is therapy, finding a good support garment for this dress I bought, the MRI, post office, getting kids from school, stop by the store. THEN I can take some drugs and get relief. Ugh.

Has to be fluid for that big of a change in one day. Good luck with your MRI . Hoping that you feel better soon.

Let us know how things go. I know how you feel about being in a bad place. That was me a few days ago.

Once you get past the MRI, let's do a "who can lose the slowest competition." Also, I think we should do a "who can say "fuck" on the main forum the most" competition.

I plan to win both.

*hugs* Just do today.

ROFL. Girl, I can totally kick your ******g ass at the **** competition. Just ******' saying. ;)

Yeah. I'm just working on today right now. I just keep thinking back to those three months of recovery hell. Ugh. At some point today I have actual work to do too. I need a clone.

Fuck yeah!

Okay, so here's the thing. I yelled at my son this weekend about how when times get hard THAT'S when you have to use the tools that help to get you through. Breathing, yoga. Whatever works for you. While I was yelling, a dumb **** light went off in my head. It flashed "practice what you preach, *****" So, that's why I started the protein shakes. I just had to stop thinking about food - ******g, food, food, food.... I have this tool now and I decided to lean on it for a few days.

I know that's not where you are right now. Totally understand the stress you are feeling. I've been told that I may have to have shoulder surgery. Uh **** no. Not gonna happen. *crosses arms, closes eyes, shakes head, holds breath" Not.

Lean on your tools, hun. I plan on hearing good news from you, damnit.

Yeah, yesterday was kind of a breaking point for me. I kind of threw a really long hissy fit, starting with "fuck this, I'm going to eat perfectly" and ending in "screw that, I'm having ice cream". LOL. I'm just stressing out over nothing right now. I, of course, think worst case scenerio. When in reality it's probably going to be something in between.

Gah. I hope the shoulder thing clears up. Haven't we had enough freaking surgery? I mean, geez. It's not fair! *crosses arms too*

I'm leaning... today I'm aiming to NOT eat any recreational sugar. That seems to be my crutch this week. If I go over calories, oh well... but meat and veggies, meat and veggies. Food isn't going to fix my back. Right? LOL. Glad I have therapy in an hour... but first... allergy shot... check in with you guys tomorrow. Let's hope for good results!

good point. food won't fix your back or shoulder. in fact, it won't fix much of anything except chicken soup fixes a cold. d.

{{hugs}}

When will you know the MRI results?

Probably tomorrow. I'm really hoping it's bursitis or something.