Follow up to "getting close to maintenance" re: plastics, etc

So, I had an appointment with my primary doctor today. First, it was a totally different conversation than the one we had two years ago. LOL. "Your blood pressure is absolutely perfect (105/70), your labs look amazing". I also asked her about how much I should lose and plastics and stuff. She took a look and agrees with me that 150 is a good point to strive for and reevaluate. She said she wouldn't want me to lose more than 30 or so more pounds before plastics, but she's absolutely happy with the 159 I'm at now, even though it's technically a few pounds overweight. BUT she agrees that I should go for the 150, get a consult and see what they say. LOL, she was amazed at all the skin and how skinny my limbs are in relation to my torso. LOL!

I'm not kidding when I say it's a weird distribution of fat right now. I can circle my thumb to my middle finger half way up my forearm and can do the same on my mid thigh with both hands but my tummy is still really jiggly and flabby.

So, yeah. I feel better. I was starting to wonder if I wasn't seeing the real deal. You know how that goes. Especially because my sister told me that I was "crazy" for wanting to lose more weight, that I look perfect how I am and I'll be too skinny if I lose more. Yeah, I'm going to stop giving her updates and just say that it's going well from now on. She's double my size and, frankly, I think they are all just used to seeing me so big that I look "so small" now.

Anyway... so, I feel better. I worry that I'm just not seeing the real me sometimes because I struggle with it sometimes. I adore my husband, but I never know if he's just saying whatever to keep himself out of trouble of it he's laying it all out there. Ha!

Hi!

Good post.

I would think that most of us go through this.  I reached goal 6 months ago and the excess skin and jiggly stuff is still rearranging itself.  I don't 'feel' as thin as when I reached goal and am reevaluating it.   Like you my labs were very good.  And like you have people come up and say: ' You are too skinny.  Don't lose anymore.' 

Looking in the mirror I see this slim body kinda sorta but not really.    As mentioned in the Daily Maintenance post today am up three pounds above goal primarily due to salt.  When I look in the mirror today I see the 300 person I used to be.  Crazy but  true.

We plod on and continue doing what we need to do because the alternative is much too scary.

Totally know what you mean. I look in the mirror and see this thin healthy person and 10 minutes later can see the 375 pound woman staring back. I'm getting better about it, but it's a slow process. I just felt good that I was on the right path, I was starting to think maybe I wasn't being realistic...

I am glad you are feeling better!

For me I only started realizing how I look now.   It takes a lot of time.  I got shocked recently when I found an old ID and could not believe how big I was.  I couldn't identify when the change happened thinking back.

A lot of people when I was losing gave me the "you'll be too skinny" thing.  Mostly my mother.  At the end of the day, its really about where you feel the most comfortable - physically and emotionally.  Personally, from what I have seen you look gorgeous.  I want you to be happy more than anything and be as thrilled with your success as we all are for you.

Thanks, honey :) I feel pretty beautiful most days, so that's a nice change. I'm 38, I won't have the body of a super model, but I want to feel completely comfortable where I am. I figure I'll know when I'm done. My frame is actually small (ha! always thought I was large boned) so we'll see where I end up. I'm definitely thrilled and it felt good to have my doctor tell me I was on the right path.

My family just worries I'm trading one eating disorder for another, but I think I'm in a pretty good place right now, mentally.

I live in a new city since VSG.  No one here knew me heavy, so I never get the "you're too skinny" line, but I get it all the time when I see people who knew me heavy.

I'm hovering around 140 pounds (I'm 5'6" and I still think I have a somewhat wide set frame).  The lowest I got was 135 and, even I have to admit, that didn't look good on me.  My face was too thin and my ribs showed too much, even though my thighs still have excess fat.  I'm glad I tried going lower to figure out for myself where I want to be, weight wise.

You've lost an amazing amount of weight.  Congrats.

Thanks. I figure the next several months will be a chance to figure it out. The good news is that I can control my weight a little better. I think just having some sort of control is good.

Yeah. EVERYONE notices because I still live in the same place. LOL. It's sweet, but at the same time I just wanna say "yeah, yeah yeah... next subject!"

I still see a fat me. I really need to look at my monthly pictures again.

Glad you have a plan.

Yeah, the photos are what really drives it home for me too. HUGS... that's the hard part. My "fat days" suck.