Daily Maintenance Weigh In - Monday 3/4

Good morning. Belly-dancing class was a blast; I'm going to have to keep that up for sure. However it did use muscles I don't typically challenge that much and a couple of them are NOT happy with me at this moment. She gave us a workout. We did a lot of what she calls 'isolations', which is practicing specific moves over and over until your muscles throw a tantrum.

Today's weight: 138, of which a good deal is fluid.

Happy Monday.

149.2 - up 1/2 lb since last week. I'll take it. The puffy is a little better today.

A friend pointed out that I might be self-sabotaging. I think she's right. I've been bouncing around the idea of changing my goal number and I think I might have been letting that affect my eating choices. Our monthly WLS meeting on Thursday didn't help. They were talking about being happy right where you are. It's an entire new group of professionals - major upheaval in our old group - long boring story. Anyway, I said that I wasn't happy with where I am. I want to reach my goal. A man kind of called me out and said to me "Do you think wanting to get to goal is vanity?" I said absolutely. I have no idea what I will look like at goal and I want to find out if it is comfortable.

But, it's been knocking around in my rather roomy head and I think I've been dealing with some fear about getting to goal.

I've done this before. I think it's time to recommit. Get my tunnel vision back. Ignore the "mean-wellers".

So I mean well too, but have a slightly different message, which is to focus on the eating choices you think are sabotaging you and not focus so hard on a specific goal weight. Monitor your weight, and decide when YOU think you are done.

You've busted your ass for this. If getting where you want to be is vain, then woman: BE VAIN.

i agree, focusing on the goal weight is part of the head game/sabotage. Today I am just keeping the food healthy and WL-centered.

I will be vain. I don't care what others think. I think the man that called me out was a spouse - I'm not sure - but I don't think he's had surgery. Honestly, it's one of the things I don't like about this group. It's "open", or public so spouses and parents (everyone's an adult in this group) come and take over the ******g meeting. ****** me off, so I usually start being a snarky ***** - something you all know I excel at. So when the guy said that, I added at the end of my little shpeel (is that even a word?) "Fat is worse than Vain. I'd pick vain over fat any day." His wife laughed. He didn't. He just raised his eyebrows at me.

Good thing he was sitting on the other side of the room.

Morning all!  179.3 this morning. 

Mom, belly dancing class sounds great!  Glad you had a good time!

Slim, I too start to get into self-sabotage mode when I plan for more weight loss.  I am trying to work through this issue, so I can move forward.  For now, I am content with maintaining where I am, and when my head gets to a point where I'm ready to start wl again, then I'll go there.  Both my surgeon and the NUT are happy where I'm at, and I feel good, so it's ok for now. 

We do have to be in the right place mentally for the WL phase.

164.4# this morning for a loss of 2.7#!  It's about frickin' time...lol

@ Mom-Belly dancing sounds like fun.

@Slim-I wondered too if I am self sabotaging as I get closer to goal.  I'm pretty happy where I am but I , too want to see what I look like at 140 (maybe 135).  The whole month of February I lost 2#...unacceptable!  I have to get my head screwed on right!!!  And, that may never happen!

I lost  0 lbs in February. It's not the first time I've had a zero loss for a month.

I had to have a Come-to-Jesus meeting with myself this weekend and regain control over my thinking. I was letting the words and attitudes of others leak into my thinking. I think that's why I got so annoyed at another OH member. I just couldn't deal with his crap when my own crap was giving me fits.

I'm in a better place now and ready to recommit - again - to me.

Glad to hear things are falling back into place, Slim!

Mom, I'm so glad to hear belly dancing was fun!  Those isolations sound intense.  My muscles are aching today too, from climbing yesterday, but it's a good kind of ache.

100.8 lbs today.

March is going to be crazy month - I can already feel it.  Have a great day, all!

Fiona

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