Daily Maintenance Weigh In - Wednesday 1/30

Ok. Confession is good for the soul so they say.

I had some routine blood work done including all the cholesterols.    This time last year the LDL was a bit high and so was told to watch it.  All day I felt nervous and tonight when found out that all the cholesterols  are normal or below normal I went on a binge.  Figure that one out.

Had a mouthful of sugar and carbs before you could count to 10.   

6 digestive cookies, 2 ounces of ice-cream and icing off of a BIG piece of chocolate cake. 

WHY??? When the results were so good. Am I trying to sabotage it all in one gluttonous feast?

Of course now I feel most dreadful PLUS the little voice that rightly says:  " Serves you right. "  

For shame I say. For shame.

Sigh.

Thanks for letting me vent.  Have stopped!!!! the madness.

Self-sabotage was always my forte, so I can truly relate.  Good for you that you posted here and have stopped.  We will never be perfect.  But, if we keep moving forward, and not let the occasional mess ups take over, we'll be okay.  

Thank you.

And you are right.  But still it is darn annoying to be so human! 

180.1  this morning.  Lots of salty foods yesterday.  Today was in the upper 40's and the same for tomorrow, though there's a wind advisory, so it will feel a lot colder. 

I have been so hungry today, and don't know why.  I just wanted to keep eating, though I haven't given in for the most part.  I did eat a little more than usual at lunch, and still didn't feel filled up.  I did try to figure out if something was up with me headwise, but came up with nothing.  Oh well, I guess I'll have those days here and there and will just need to live with it.