Here I Am

Ach! I hear you! I posted yesterday on the main VSG board about similar - made some impulsive, poor choices. I know what's going on and can handle it, but it isn't always easy. I, too, was feeling resentful and child like about things. So, you are definitely not alone. I just keep thinking this is just one more day of keeping my weight off. Some days it's just plain tougher than others.

Big hugs!

Hi Happy! I've missed you. {{Hugs}}

When you feel like this is the best time to post, so you don't feel so alone with these demons. We all share them.

I've been having an occasional mental struggle, strangely, with my inability to sit down and hog out. I know going to Outback and having a third of a Bloomin' Onion, a 1000+ calorie entree and a huge dessert might not have been quite the best thing for me, but I honestly enjoyed it. I'm thrilled I can't do it any more (because I still would, there's no doubt in my mind) and I don't even choose those foods in small portions now, but my petulant foot-stamping child still resents it now and then.

I have found peace with the logging thing. For me it will probably be life-long to keep me mindful and aware and help keep me from slipping into old patterns. So long ago while I was still in the loss phase I worked through the process of getting myself to think of it like bathing and shaving my legs and brushing my teeth and laundry and all the other routine things we do to keep ourselves maintained - not fun, but not a huge deal either. Once I got it into my head like that it got a lot less annoying.

 Hang in there; stay connected. And have a lovely holiday.

sorry this is so late!  just wanted to say, love you!  i'm trying to start the new year in a way better place than ever as i am almost to my 2 yr mark (next week).  it helped so much to talk to you in oct.  taking it all in and trying hard to catch up with myself and get "clean".

You are most definitely not alone!!!  (((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))