Going even lower... suggestions, comments, etc..

I hit my goal and seem to be able to maintain (read... bounce the same 2-3 lbs) in the past few weeks at just about 1000 calories.  I have been pretty stationary as I sit and study.  But have been thinking of revising my goal.  Not a weight goal so much as a size goal.  Just looking for some thoughts and ideas.  

I am 4'11", and currently go 112-115 area.  I eat about 1000 cals a day, around 70g of protein (on good days, normal is now closer to 60) and stopped watching my carbs so much - while keeping them under 100g (if that makes any sense).   I haven't gained or lost - I guess that is the point of maintenance, huh?

I am currently in a size 3/5 in jeans.  Meaning that I have both and feel comfortable in both, but somedays like the tighter and some days the looser feeling in my jeans.  In my suits, my 4P fit great, and the 2P are snug.  My shirts are Small (some are XS).  I don't buy petite shirts, as I like the extra length.  And no matter what - I can still see and feel that roll of skin that passes for a belly.  

Now I fully intend on getting plastics in the future, but on a realistic view I do know that it will not be until after I graduate, pass the bar and get a PAYING job.  So at a very minimum, at least 1 year, possibly two.  As it stands right now, I have a nice closet full of clothes that I enjoy and that fit.  While I am fashion challenged, I am making an effort to try.  

Here's my thoughts, I am thinking that I would like to make a goal to get into a size 2P pants/suit/skirt, etc.  I know that the suit coat won't be any smaller, I am at my ribs under my boobs (which need augmenting - it sucks when your bones are larger than your titties, I'm just saying).  But I think it isn't a bad goal to go into the 2P solidly.  My dilemma is that I know when/if I have plastics I will be in a 2P (maybe even a 0P).  I have measured the hanging skin and know that if it is gone, I will move a size or two.  

Should I just stay the course where I am now and worry about sizes later?  What if I never get plastics?  What if I slip and gain back?  

I have had some family members make comments that I am too little already, and don't need to lose any more.  Some have even commented that I never should have had WLS to begin with, as I wasn't that big in there eyes.  Some so-called friends have even commented that I am going to be completely "fake" if I keep going.  That given some other surgeries and issues I have had in the past, as well as the WLS, I am becoming "less than" a normal woman.  Those people I have not been gracious to at all, and have told them to basically GFY.  

I guess I thought I would put the topic to an audience that has more experience than I do - and definitely more experience than 90% of my family and friends.  I hope that many of you chime in with your thoughts, ideas, concerns, etc.  

Thanks in advance,

~Angi

ps... this is long, but originally was a lot longer.  My computer track pad deleted about four paragraphs.  If the post is disjointed, please blame my computer.

Hi Angi,

Health wise, you are now in a place where the choice is all yours.  You get to decide what you want to look like and I am pretty sure that your body will cooperate.  I really don't care what your friends and family think about your weight.  The only important opinion is yours.  The good news, is that you are not stuck with your decision, you can change it any time and for any reason and you can gain a little or lose a little to better fit your self image.  It 4'11", I think you might have a few more pounds that you could drop.  But I really have not seen you and this is just based on height and weight.  I am 5'1" and I am 105 lbs.  I am also very small boned, and I don't know your bone structure. 

If you want plastics, you will eventually find a way to have them.  I am pretty sure of this.  It might take you another year or two, but you will find a way. You seem like the determined type to me.  I have lost all this weight, and I have had plastics and I can tell you that I don't feel like a "less than normal woman" in any way.  I feel pretty darn fantastic if you really want to know. I think those "friends" are just trying to put you down and are not a good support system at all.  This is all you, your body, your wishes, your decisions.  Do what will brings joy to your life. Period.

As always, you have a wonderful way of bringing things into perspective.  Thank you for your kind words.  I think that I am just moving away from the stress of the semester and going to enjoy my maintenance and my break from school for now.  I need to sit and think about things a bit.  My doctor's original suggested weight is still on my mind, but I also want to just get this maintenance in hand. 

Thank you again, you have been an inspiration :)

Hi my Angi,

I think Elina pretty much got it all down for you.  I think you look fantastic and I don't think you need to lose anymore BUT I am not you... just like all those people who tell me to stop losing but I don't want to.  I know I have gotten comfy where I am but for some reason in the past few days, I have been thinking about how I need to make the time to get back to my exercise kick and get these extra few pounds off that I want.  I am ready to "feel" smaller.  You know I've had a lot of personal issues going on this entire year and that I have blamed that for not focusing on my final goal but now that I am making some great positive changes in my life, I am ready to jump back on this band wagon for the new year.  I've just been trying to keep my head above water with everything including maintaining my weight. 

I say do things at your own pace.  I know how bad you want plastics (heck, I do to and we've talked about that) but maybe we can both get our bodies to where we want them to be and be as happy as we can in the meantime.  I do love you and think you are amazing my friend.  You are hard working & dedicated.  This is another reason why I look up to people like you and Alison because you get your **** done despite what life throws at you.  Love ya gurl!!!

Love you too woman!  We got this.  No one but us can rock it :)  Now just to stop and buy that lottery ticket today to get us our plastics lol!!

congrats on reaching your goal. don't listen to others - you decide what weight and size you want to be as long as its in a healthy bmi and your doctor is ok with it. i lost below goal by accident but doctor is fine with it and so am i.   and get the plastics if you want in a year or two. its your body and your life. if i were younger i would do it.

and good luck with the bar exam (been there done that)    if you ever feel tiny, wear high heels!!!!    diane

Rocking my heeled boots today!  lol  

Thank you for the kindness.  Sometimes it is so easy to let the bitterness of others soak into our minds, so that we don't see the good in our lives.  I try not to do that, but I admit, my weight has always gotten me in the head.