Weight gain = Shame and Fear

Love you sweetie! Thanks for always being a vote of confidence.

Lee, big hugs.  You can do this and I understand the anxiety.  You already received some great advice.  One thing that really works for me to shed a few pounds rather quickly is to just go on one of my soups for 3-4 days.  I eat a regular breakfast and then just eat soup whenever I am hungry, maybe 4-5 times a day.  Invariably, I drop 2-4 pounds.  I know this is not workable when you travel, but maybe before or after the travel?  I know it might sound like a crash diet, but because I really love my soups, it doesn't feel restrictive or punishing to me.  I actually like the sameness of it and it doesn't trigger me to rebel.  I know it's a short term solution, but I like it.  It also seems to take away all of my hunger and makes the stomach contract into a smaller shape.  Hugs to you beautiful lady.  I miss you and hope to see you this Wednesday.

Hugs back atcha! I won't be able to come Wednesday because I won't arrive bac****il after the meeting ends. The meetings are problematic because of my new job. Hopefully once I've been there for awhile I will be able to escape. I may try going to the Concord meetings as they are closer to Oakland.

I have my supply of soup in the freeer waiting for next Thursday. Thanks for the reminder of how effective it is!
xox

No recommendations.  Just here checking in as my alter-ego, "Shame Buster!"  Hugs to you, Lee!!  Panic is a not very helpful for me, makes me feel all is lost and starts the monkey chatter again.  Shame is the same way.  Shame is corrosive, isolating, counter-productive.  That I will struggle is just who I am.  The struggle is where we find our strength.  You will do great!

 

Happy, ShameBuster! I love it. You're so right on all counts.

Hey Lee.....

Welcome back to the real world !!!!

Travel in general has it's challenges for us "special" people......(former fatties as JennChap calls us)

I wouldn't trip to hard...... were in it for the long haul...... the long haul has many blips and we must navigate them.....

Come back and put your plan together and establish new normals for your current situation.....it will be a work in progress like everything else.

You know what's up ..... 

Shame not....... Fear is good !

frisco

Yay Frisco, fear is good! I think that my fear is a healthy one because it keeps me vigilant with my eye on my prize of staying in these jeans.

I'm doing good so far. Sunday buffet was reaonable meal with 4 oz red wine to nurse while working a room of strangers.

Monday. Quest bar breakfast. Lunch salad with Steak on it at Panera. Dinner at a fish house in the San Diego fish light district. Fod wasn't good. Pushed it around on my plate. Ate a few shrimp, drank a little red wine and called it good. No food besides quest bars in my hotel room, intentionally.

Today: lk down from 8-5, food provided. Taking a Quest bar for breakfast. Lunch, pizza and wings so mst likely not her quest bar. If boss stops at Starbucks I will pick up a salad, or a sandwich that I can pull part for meat and cheese. Dinner is provided at a pub. I begged for some ortofbsalmn on the menu. I should be good.

Tomorrow, lockdown again from 8-4. Quest breakfast. Mexican lunch so should be meat and salsa or se quest bar. At 170 calories, 20 protein I can live on thm for three days if necessary. Flight home at 5:30. Will find a salad, or a sandwich to dissect.

I have to make detailed pans because travel gives me amnesia that I was a former fatty. Thanks for letting me verbalize my plans. To some it might seem silly, but I know people here get it. Being up two pounds is a call for action, not a sit back and see what happens. I hate the number 146. In 2009 I hated the number 249.8 because it was so close to 250.

Lee, you have good plans and strategies- you will do great, even if you need to pick apart pub food for the good bits!

I think most of us understand the need for having plans and back-ups avail.. travel does the same thing to me. Away from my environment, I tend to loosen things up too much, so I pack all the "good foods" if nothing as a reminder that I CAN stay on plan if I wish. Take away the excuses and it's back on me the way to make that call or not. You have this!

what soup are you talking about? please do share

I have gained back too and I am scared too, you really amaze me!!! I have been reading your blogs and you have been totally made over and you look amazing!!! I hope to go to Dr Saucedes asap, Good luck to you!