Daily Maintenance Weigh In - Wednesday 9/12

Good morning and happy Humpday.

Today's weight: 140.8.

I'm now up a pound and a half in two days. Doesn't worry me because I know I haven't overeaten by several thousand calories in two days, it just puzzles me. I seem to have started a cycle recently: stable for a week or two, plummet down 3, back up 2 and stable again for a net loss of 1.

I looked back and in mid August for example and was hovering around 143. Dropped to 140.2, then bounced back up to 142.2 over a few days. I just went down to 139.2 and am back up to 140.8. Does this mean (please say it does) that I am finally stabilizing? I'd just as soon NOT drop back under 140!!

Hubs and daughter both running fevers over 100 degrees. Non-selfishly, I hate that they're sick. Selfishly, I do NOT have time to catch whatever this is.

How goes with you?

156 today
I am starting to crave those white carbs.
I bought white low carb tortillas, to make Ham sandwiches with.
I think I may have to get rid of those,also.

I have so many trigger foods,as in binge trigger.
but, this time I am trying to listen to my head.

I am so glad I have not felt "hungry" since the day of my surgery. I do get "head" hungry.

This feeling, as I try to describe and Analyze it, feels like the real feeling of stomach hunger needing filled. Needing that fullness. My head craving that feeling..
Question.. How do I create that feeling of comfort or euphoria without the binge?

Just ramblings...

A couple of thoughts:

For me personally, I find that introducing "substitutes" for the white carbs is not useful because it's psychologically like I'm letting myself have them.

As far as "create that feeling of comfort and euphoria" that's a BIG red flag to me. One of the reason many of us, especially me, ate so very much is that we relied on food for comfort and euphoria. It's a very real thing - when you use food that way your brain adapts to release chemicals when you eat comfort foods that do physically make you feel better for a while.

Short answer: find a way other than food to create that feeling. Do not rely on any food, healthy or not, for comfort or euphoria. For me, it's hiking or losing myself in a good book.

I used to be a avid book reader.
I haven't read very many books over the past 10 years.
I will work on that as a new way to create that comfort I am needing to fill with food.
So , I am taking your words and going to put them into use beginning today,

Going to enjoy one day at a time.... 1 lb. at a time...

186.2

 

Almost through with my course of anti-biotics for my strep.  Two days of support groups this week.

Final consult for my LBL next Monday.  I am so Excited I cant wait.  I keep thinking all the pain from this excess skin is almost over!  

Rob, do you get pain when you run, or is it all the time (rash) or some other pain? Just curious... I hope all goes great with your LBL.

My trainer was chatting with me yesterday for a few mins, comparing some notes on my progress and asked if I had considered more surgery to remove the excess skin. I told him yes- though not too keen on hopping on the table again.. but since getting back into weights and seeing the results so quickly, I'm starting to really WANT this stuff gone! He laughed. I think he got it. 

All of the above.

 

1.  When I run, even with compression garments, there is extra stress on my hips and back.  IF the shirt gets too large, then the abdomen jiggles and I get nauseous from the motion.

2.  When sitting I feel the extra skin on my butt and back bunch up and roll around under and behind me.  

3.  I cannot get comfortable when trying to sleep.  When sleeping on my back or stomach the skin spreads out on either side of me, when I try to roll over it layers on itself and chocks me up.  Then it pinches and wakes me up.  I will sometimes pick up my panni and layer it on itself to get comfortable.

 

In my case I have been heavy my entire adult life.  There is a 1 inch separation between my abdominal muscles.  I am never going to solve these issues without the TT at a minimum.  The LBL will take care of everything from the sternum down.  I will do a second surgery sometime later this year or next year for the upper body (Brach and Gyno)

I've been big all my life too, max weight was somewhere over 308 at one point.. As I'm leaning out, my leftover lower belly is shrinking...... and the skin is hanging lower, and lower. I also puddle in bed, but so far no pinching. I don't run, but I know it wouldn't be comfortable at all. Heck when I whisk something with short sleeves on it's uncomfortable (lots of skin on the arms.) 

I didn't carry a lot of weight in my arms - but my thighs are a disaster!  I have said in the past that it looks like I have giant patches of scrotum skin on my inner thighs.  The surgeon was careful to warn me that my thighs wouldn't be totally free of sagging unless he cut me so far down that the scars would be visible when wearing shorts.  I'm seriously weighing the cosmetic versus the functional aspect of that.

Other decisions I have already made

 

1.  Fleur-de-lis cut for the abdominoplasty.  I don't care about the scar I want the flat tight stomach.  Give me the anchor cut baby.  This will also help reduce all of the extra skin around the back.  IF I just did the circumferential cut then there would be rolls left around the back the further you get from the cut.

1a.  Muscle repair - with the 1 inch separation between my abs - this is the only way I am going to get the abs to do their job and hold my innards back.  Stitch those babys up!

2.  Inner thigh lift - except for how far down to go - I know I am getting this.

3.  Butt lift - Get rid of that extra skin, make sure when its gone I still have a butt.

4.  Gyno - reposition the nipples.  This will cost me sensitivity in them, but again I want the functionality improvements of a flat chest when moving and exercising

5.  Brach - Originally this didn't interest me, especially if I could get 1 - 4 in a single operation.  But since we have to do it in two - might as well get the whole Montag.

 

 Ditto on the legs.. On my wishlist: brachio, medial (hopefully) thigh lift, anchor LBL (I have the same issue skin wise, I have a fold from sternum down, like an accordion, plus back skin) and BL.. I'd like to avoid implants and just really join the TTC.. but I don't think I'd have enough flesh to even fill a B cup.. Dreaming at this point. You may do ok with the nipples?.. I've had two friends go for a lift and they both regained sensation within a year.. If I do this, I'm prob heading back to MX to Sauceda..