VSG Maintenance Group
hey everyone
I am glad I found you guys! I didnt know there was a maintenance group! so HI! 
I am 3 years (and1 month) out and I have daily struggles (like most of us?!). I am one of those super successful stories everyone talks about.. but with great fame comes great responsibility. Now everyone has these skinny girl supermodel expectations of me... it was easy at first.. I could eat just about anything and not gain a pound... year 2 was a blast and I went back to my bad eating habits... junk food galore... I took the bar exam and i lost a TON of weight studying... i got down to 114 lbs... I honestly looked anorexic.. and it was pretty scary (I am a tall girl - 5'8).. at 120 i am still pretty skinny... but i love being a size 2... practically all my clothes reflect that... but after the bar I gained some weight (rightfully needed).. and I stayed at about 123 for a while.. and that was fine.. i swore that if i got over 125 I would go on a diet and loose it... but I let it slide... I dont look bad at 130.. I was 130 for a little while before and everyone thought i looked amazing then! and now i am almost at 135!!! how did this happen?! i have been between 132 and 135 for months now!!! I want to do this whole acting and modeling thing and I am throwing it out the window... I have so many opportunities presented to me and I cant let them slip away! All this money my mom paid for my surgery can't go to waste and I swore I would never go back! No one in this aspect of my life even knows I was 250lbs once... everyone thinks this is just how I am... and its hard.. so hard... so I am trying.. really trying right now... eating super healthy and working out... just need your support, yeah? sorry for venting... you dont know how much I needed to write this down and get it out.... thanks for listening
I am 3 years (and1 month) out and I have daily struggles (like most of us?!). I am one of those super successful stories everyone talks about.. but with great fame comes great responsibility. Now everyone has these skinny girl supermodel expectations of me... it was easy at first.. I could eat just about anything and not gain a pound... year 2 was a blast and I went back to my bad eating habits... junk food galore... I took the bar exam and i lost a TON of weight studying... i got down to 114 lbs... I honestly looked anorexic.. and it was pretty scary (I am a tall girl - 5'8).. at 120 i am still pretty skinny... but i love being a size 2... practically all my clothes reflect that... but after the bar I gained some weight (rightfully needed).. and I stayed at about 123 for a while.. and that was fine.. i swore that if i got over 125 I would go on a diet and loose it... but I let it slide... I dont look bad at 130.. I was 130 for a little while before and everyone thought i looked amazing then! and now i am almost at 135!!! how did this happen?! i have been between 132 and 135 for months now!!! I want to do this whole acting and modeling thing and I am throwing it out the window... I have so many opportunities presented to me and I cant let them slip away! All this money my mom paid for my surgery can't go to waste and I swore I would never go back! No one in this aspect of my life even knows I was 250lbs once... everyone thinks this is just how I am... and its hard.. so hard... so I am trying.. really trying right now... eating super healthy and working out... just need your support, yeah? sorry for venting... you dont know how much I needed to write this down and get it out.... thanks for listening
5'8
I'm with you, sister...and, frankly, trying to find that "happy place" mentally. You see, the packing on of the additional pounds as of late (crept on slowly - about 5 lbs - then quickly, another 5 lbs) has left me in a bit of a pickle.
I feel fatter. I am a size 6ish right now but having been at a 2 for quite some time, and maintaining with ease, had me fooled into thinking " I got this!"
Apparently, I do not. I had for a long time believed that my weight issues were foremost, mental struggles of one kind or another. Now, having been through the highs (236 max) and the lows **** for a minute) I have confirmed this is all a head game.
Being bad, or being good - it all starts with my frame of mind. I am trying desperately to rescue myself from this "slump" before it spirals...but I am not there yet.
However, I am going to keep trying and will let you know as I progress...like you, I swore it would never happen to me.
And. I think we have a good chance of getting back to where we want to be. There have been several here that have had their fair share of ups and downs, too. And, god, was it not so much fun being a skinny mini? I want that back. Yup.
I feel fatter. I am a size 6ish right now but having been at a 2 for quite some time, and maintaining with ease, had me fooled into thinking " I got this!"
Apparently, I do not. I had for a long time believed that my weight issues were foremost, mental struggles of one kind or another. Now, having been through the highs (236 max) and the lows **** for a minute) I have confirmed this is all a head game.
Being bad, or being good - it all starts with my frame of mind. I am trying desperately to rescue myself from this "slump" before it spirals...but I am not there yet.
However, I am going to keep trying and will let you know as I progress...like you, I swore it would never happen to me.
And. I think we have a good chance of getting back to where we want to be. There have been several here that have had their fair share of ups and downs, too. And, god, was it not so much fun being a skinny mini? I want that back. Yup.
