Forgetting

 Ditto!  I definitely picked up on that line and it's my sentiments exactly.  I love that girl.  I just have to remind myself that I'm still her.  She is the one who made this healthy decision.  I'm her a year and change later.  I'm a healthier her.  I'm the person she wanted me to be, in a strange way of saying!

Yes, that is a neat way to look at it.  She must have been very courageous and wanted this really badly, for herself and for you, to go through what she did to get here.  Honour her by making the best of the gift she has given you both... 



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 aha, two years!! I feel like that is probably the minimum!

Happy, this whole thread is great but I especially relate to what you said. 

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Jackie

I think what you are feeling is normal and natural for many of us.  I remember making a similar post a few months after I reached goal.  I was having a hard time articulating these same feelings but they were there and quite strong yet elusive and hard to explain to people.  I no longer feel this way and I think it takes us a while to morn the positive attributes of being fat while acquiring a new understanding about how we have changed since losing the weight.  It is really not all just physical, it is emotional and psychological as well.  My body image, and self perception all had to change and my interaction with both my skinny friends and my fat friends all needed to be adjusted. Even the balance in my relationship with my husband had to be recalculated.  We are often not prepared to deal with all of these tiny and not so tiny changes all happening at once. It takes time, anywhere from one to two years before we feel fully comfortable in our new skin.  This is a phase, a part of the process, it too will fade in long term maintenance. 

After reading the above postings, I am once again reminded, that this is indeed a journey in many, many different ways. A journey of self-discovery and learning who we are without the fat covering that we used to wear. Part of the process is also developing new goals and behaviors that will move us forward in our journey. It is never ending.

 I love your post - you write beautifully.

but you said "especially this far out"

you aren't very far out, trust me. at over 3 years post op I am, in some ways, just adjusting. and have a ways to go yet!!

so your feelings are legitimate - of course! - but also understandable. you are still early out from my perspective.