Just need a place to vent it all out.. long

Ahhhh.. okay, first: my new med for ADHD was a disaster. I couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, and couldn't poop- and to boot I felt all fuzzy headed. True I was able to sit still better, and was more even keeled, but it was not worth it and I was advised to go off of it because...

I am having a tummy tuck on the 25th. I was supposed to have one 1.5 years ago, but I had a panic attack in the preop area and backed out. Now that i have been exercising, it became clear what a pain (literally) all the extra skin is when I run. My anesthesiologist recommended I discontinue before surgery- and that I speak to my psych (who is impossible to get an appt with) about switching in general.

My hubby is having surgery on Aug 26th. I get one month to heal before I have to start caring for him, so crossing my fingers to be complication free. He is having jaw surgery and will be wired shut for two months!

We are flat out swimming in debt. We cannot afford our month to month expenses and have fallen into the credit cards, hard. Since I am apparently f*cking unemployable, the only thing I could think of was to move. We live in military housing, which essentially costs us $2600 a month. We have looked at a few apartments that arre closer to $1000 a month, but are mostly limited because we haven't had enough money for the deposits they were seeking. We have started looking at one bedrooms just to try and make it work, because we are running out of time. If we do not move before my surgery it probably won't happen at all, as people around here 99% do year leases, and we are moving next August..

Sigh.. Oh, and my mom is pissed at me. We were supposed to go home to Philly for the holiday, but decided we couldn't afford to. We are trying to keep as much money around as possible in case of the the apartments we applied to is approved- and my daugthers 10th bday party is in less than two weeks.. so wayyyyyy to broke to travel.

I am so stressed beyonf belief right now.. and just needed to lay out all the reasons, because I always feel like I stress out for nothing..

Thanks for listening guys and gals!

Hey darlin keep your head up s light is in the horizon.  Sorry you are having such a stressful time.  Big time hugs your way.

Ms Shell

Thanks Shell! I am just so glad to have you all. Being in a military community, it's the time of year when all my real life friends are moving away.. OH helps me not feel alone!

Good because you are NOT alone...and hello I forgot to say kudos and good luck on the 25th...

Well that's definitely not nothing.

Sorry youare having such a stressful time. Our prayers and hugs for you.

I was stressed just reading about all the stress in your life. My thoughts and hugs are with you.


Gail

Yeah, I know what you mean about not feeling so alone....OH helps me to not feel so alone also.
We are all pulling for you. Blessings on you.

Yikes, seems like when it rains it pours. You have more stress than one person deserves. Can't offer a lot of advice except keep venting here. And many times a day say to yourself "yay I am not fat anymore"  Thats an upper for me and hope it is for you. Diane

No words of wisdom, just lots of sympathy. That is a LOT of stress--hang in there as best you can!!

Lizanne