change is hard....

Well today was the start of a new job for me.  I have been at the same hospital  (I am a RN) for 19 years and our hospital sold our dialysis unit.  So we became a new unit today...very stressful day and full of chaos.  (I don't do well with chaos)  They fed us all day...breakfast, lunch...it was like a food party all day!  When I finally got off 2 hours late today..I found myself having some homemade granola and a cookie....then I was so disgusted with myself.  I let the stress of a tough day bring me right back to my old habits.  This is the first time that I have done that ..and I am so disappointed in myself.  WTF!!!!   Just wanted to vent...it really made me feel like a failure.  Thanks for listening...

Patty

Well change can be incredibly stressful and this is like a whole new job. So who can blame you for a little stress eating. But tomorrow is a new day and nothing says you have to keep eating off program and if you only did that for one day, minimal damage was done. So if this is the worst thing you ever do, count yourself lucky. Our office used to have donuts all the time and baked goods and such. Then they decided to be more healthy so it was bagels and cream cheese and muffins (huge of course). Only minimally better.

Hopefully the food party won't be every day. And tell HR if they want to cater food to reward staff it should be healthy options since you are in health care.

And I hope next week is better in the new cir****tances.   Diane

Well - what's done is done. If you're anything like me, that food orgy would continue AT LEAST through the weekend. You have the choice to make sure it only lasts the one day. I know I am MUCH better at that now.

Just curious, do you know how much you ate (quanity) ? 

I've done the same thing, eaten over stresses (mine at home).  But after I got over the initial, why did I do that?  And  reflected on it, I was shocked at how little I over did over eat.   

I was also dissappointed in myself for the poor choices of carbs, but what a difference with a sleeve.  The amount was small and I was brought back to reality that I can't do this anymore. 

In someways I saw it as a lesson to myself and was so happy that I had this tool to help me STOP before too much damage was done.

Believe me, I could of done some damage in the old days. 

Thanks for sharing, I know I've been there too.

K

You know your post asked a question about how much I over ate..and then I thought about it and it was much less than it could have been for sure.  I ate about 1/3 of a large cookie and about 1/8 cup of really good (and I am sure really fattening) granola.  So even though it seemed like tons to me...compared to pre-op it really wasn't . that made me feel better...thanks!!  And yes it has brought me back to reality..I have worked too hard to let stress change that for me!

Have a great day

Patty

 
OK..... Don't even make me intervene........

So....let me understand this........

1.4lbs. to go and your eating crap?

Since were local buds now and we got you in the LapSF web of greatness (Yah!)..... I'm gonna lean on you a little harder and hold you to a higher standard.

You have done so well and worked hard and done good and you look great!!! 

See how I said all the nice things first !!!!

I'm gonna make a bold move here and suggest a new goal weight.......

11.4lbs more.... how does that sound???? (your pissed right now!)

We learn from Dr.C that statistical (his patients) can typically regain around 10lbs. over time. So many of us take it a little lower just for that reason...... I'm in the 150lbs range right now.......but I'm set up to and will accept 160lbs 3-5 years out......Although I'm gonna try my hardest not to gain the 10lnd.

frisco

Wow...Frisco you are tough!!!  But you got me thinking......

Do you think I could even do that now that I am over a year out and passed the honeymoon phase?
These past 10 lbs have killed me..and taken literally FOREVER!!!

and I have not been 145 bs since high school..or maybe even birth!!

but that 10 lbs of insurance sounds VERY appealing!!!  Do you think it is possible being over a year out?

I love honesty so your comments are very appreciated.

OX
Patty

 
PM sent !

frisco

I think mentally you are reacting to the fact that you ate a cookie. There is something about cookies. I've seen people on OH talk about eating cookies like they killed a man!

So I'm going to take a different stance than Frisco. So you eat a cookie. So freaking what. You can't get fat from eating a cookie. You get fat from eating too many calories. You get unhealthy from eating junk but only if you don't get in the good stuff.

The issue isn't whether or not you ate a cookie. It's whether you:

1) Went over your calories for the day
2) Didn't get in your protein
3) Didn't take your supplement
4) Went over your carb or sugar or fat allowance
5) Whether that cookie was part of a trend of eating crap and it's not just a cookie, but some pie, cake, ice cream, more cookies, candy, etc.

I ate a cookie at a Christmas party when I was less than 3 months out. I still got to goal.. I eat cookies now. I'm still maintaining and still lose weight even. The reason is that I hardly ever eat cookies and I have guidelines/rules about them that I follow.

I think it's completely unrealistic to think that we'll never have treats or eat badly ever again so I've figured out how to have occasional treats without permanently derailing myself. I've also figured out how to get back on track when I go off the rails a bit.

You will too!

I love the comparison of eating a cookie to killing a man!..it is true we think of it as such a horrible thing  (the cookie eating!)...some men deserve it!!  (kidding!)
I have to say the guilt of that cookie put me into a gotta be really good spill...and I agree with you, I want to be able to have treats every once in a while...but I really want goal right now!!  (whatever that magic number is..I am thinking of lowering it to get me that insurance)

Thanks for your comments..I really do appreciate them.

Patty