VSG Maintenance Group
frustration over weight loss
i have been trying to over come this frustration over my life and over everything else . i do not want to give up too soon like i always used to do . so i thought instead of pouring my heart out in food i should just come here and pour it in a blog .
because i have a plan this time and i want to see it through . i really want this to be a reality and i do not want to give up and live my life as this overweight girl who will always struggle with her weight and who Will always have to hear those words 'if only you could lose some weight , you would definitely look much better' . but they truly mean you would attract more people and you wont end up this lonely.
when you are 25 years and you realize that you have not really ever planned anything in your life. you just went with the flow and let everything fly by and pass you by . you gave up to the idea that you are invisible and you reacted and dealed with yourself that you are somehow worthless and so it's better to be invisible. but the rebel inside of me only slept for so little and soon i was erupted like a volcano only my flames were anger and deep sorrow over myself.
i realized though when i took the decision to do this surgery that i have over 80 kgs to lose and this is more than an average 5'2 girl should weigh so i actually had more than double my right weight to lose and i did it all to myself because i let everything overwhelm me and i surrender to all the sadness , frustration and heartbreaking cir****tances in my life .
it's my fault and i am to be blamed but since it's too easy for me to give and turn to food especially when i am feeling really low as i am feeling today.. i am trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel . i am trying to have hope and the strength to be patient and hopeful , that someday the scale is going to move normally and i would lose weight at a normal rate like everyone else .
because right now i am really struggling i was supposed to lose at least 5 kgs this week with this diet i am following , it what everyone else has lost when they followed such diet ,it's what is designed for and i had to be the one who is breaking this rule .. i followed all the rules and tomorrow is the last day and i have only lost 2 kgs.
i went to a dietitian a couple of months ago and he told me that i am not going to lose weight fast or like it is normally estimated because :
a- i have a low metabolism
b- my body is kind of stuck i do not have the enough balance between water , fat and muscle . he said as you lose more weight the fat percentage increase in your body and it becomes harder for you to lose weight
but i never thought it would that hard and that frustrating....
because i have a plan this time and i want to see it through . i really want this to be a reality and i do not want to give up and live my life as this overweight girl who will always struggle with her weight and who Will always have to hear those words 'if only you could lose some weight , you would definitely look much better' . but they truly mean you would attract more people and you wont end up this lonely.
when you are 25 years and you realize that you have not really ever planned anything in your life. you just went with the flow and let everything fly by and pass you by . you gave up to the idea that you are invisible and you reacted and dealed with yourself that you are somehow worthless and so it's better to be invisible. but the rebel inside of me only slept for so little and soon i was erupted like a volcano only my flames were anger and deep sorrow over myself.
i realized though when i took the decision to do this surgery that i have over 80 kgs to lose and this is more than an average 5'2 girl should weigh so i actually had more than double my right weight to lose and i did it all to myself because i let everything overwhelm me and i surrender to all the sadness , frustration and heartbreaking cir****tances in my life .
it's my fault and i am to be blamed but since it's too easy for me to give and turn to food especially when i am feeling really low as i am feeling today.. i am trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel . i am trying to have hope and the strength to be patient and hopeful , that someday the scale is going to move normally and i would lose weight at a normal rate like everyone else .
because right now i am really struggling i was supposed to lose at least 5 kgs this week with this diet i am following , it what everyone else has lost when they followed such diet ,it's what is designed for and i had to be the one who is breaking this rule .. i followed all the rules and tomorrow is the last day and i have only lost 2 kgs.
i went to a dietitian a couple of months ago and he told me that i am not going to lose weight fast or like it is normally estimated because :
a- i have a low metabolism
b- my body is kind of stuck i do not have the enough balance between water , fat and muscle . he said as you lose more weight the fat percentage increase in your body and it becomes harder for you to lose weight
but i never thought it would that hard and that frustrating....
On April 19, 2011 at 11:04 AM Pacific Time, free-spirit wrote:
i have been trying to over come this frustration over my life and over everything else . i do not want to give up too soon like i always used to do . so i thought instead of pouring my heart out in food i should just come here and pour it in a blog . because i have a plan this time and i want to see it through . i really want this to be a reality and i do not want to give up and live my life as this overweight girl who will always struggle with her weight and who Will always have to hear those words 'if only you could lose some weight , you would definitely look much better' . but they truly mean you would attract more people and you wont end up this lonely.
when you are 25 years and you realize that you have not really ever planned anything in your life. you just went with the flow and let everything fly by and pass you by . you gave up to the idea that you are invisible and you reacted and dealed with yourself that you are somehow worthless and so it's better to be invisible. but the rebel inside of me only slept for so little and soon i was erupted like a volcano only my flames were anger and deep sorrow over myself.
i realized though when i took the decision to do this surgery that i have over 80 kgs to lose and this is more than an average 5'2 girl should weigh so i actually had more than double my right weight to lose and i did it all to myself because i let everything overwhelm me and i surrender to all the sadness , frustration and heartbreaking cir****tances in my life .
it's my fault and i am to be blamed but since it's too easy for me to give and turn to food especially when i am feeling really low as i am feeling today.. i am trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel . i am trying to have hope and the strength to be patient and hopeful , that someday the scale is going to move normally and i would lose weight at a normal rate like everyone else .
because right now i am really struggling i was supposed to lose at least 5 kgs this week with this diet i am following , it what everyone else has lost when they followed such diet ,it's what is designed for and i had to be the one who is breaking this rule .. i followed all the rules and tomorrow is the last day and i have only lost 2 kgs.
i went to a dietitian a couple of months ago and he told me that i am not going to lose weight fast or like it is normally estimated because :
a- i have a low metabolism
b- my body is kind of stuck i do not have the enough balance between water , fat and muscle . he said as you lose more weight the fat percentage increase in your body and it becomes harder for you to lose weight
but i never thought it would that hard and that frustrating....
What "diet" are you doing? Do you have restriction when you eat? Looks like you've lost quite a bit. What was your original eating plan? Can you go back to that with protein first, etc?
Revision from Sleeve to DS (with re-Sleeve) on 10/10/17. Slow and steady ...
it is called the negative calorie diet i needed a kick start for the weight loss and it is mainly focused on this soup of cabbage and each day you are free to eat fruits , veggies and protein .. each day is different though ..
and i still have restriction ofcourse as long as i am not eating junk food i have good restriction
and i still have restriction ofcourse as long as i am not eating junk food i have good restriction
you have a lot of things in that post, let me address the ones I understand. at 25 years old you are half my age. wow. you know what? lots and lots of time left, there is no reason to let what has happened before spoil what happends next. every one of us has to start over, every single morning and that's a good thing.
do you think you are clinically depressed? if so, get help. if not, google it and read up - then get help. if yes and you are getting help or if no (I'm getting confused) just keep venting here if that helps you.
don't know about your metabolism, but not every dietician knows what they are talking about. I paid for one (since I wasn't in a program: went to Mexico for surgery) and a lot of what she told me went for the band and didn't apply to me. have you been tested for PCOS?
can you post what you are eating so vets can get an idea? the cabbage soup diet sounds...not good, but I don't know. do you track what you eat on the dailyplate.com or just paper and pencil? most people trying to lose have certain goals for and track protein, carbs, calories, etc.
tell us more about what and how you actually eat.
group hug!
do you think you are clinically depressed? if so, get help. if not, google it and read up - then get help. if yes and you are getting help or if no (I'm getting confused) just keep venting here if that helps you.
don't know about your metabolism, but not every dietician knows what they are talking about. I paid for one (since I wasn't in a program: went to Mexico for surgery) and a lot of what she told me went for the band and didn't apply to me. have you been tested for PCOS?
can you post what you are eating so vets can get an idea? the cabbage soup diet sounds...not good, but I don't know. do you track what you eat on the dailyplate.com or just paper and pencil? most people trying to lose have certain goals for and track protein, carbs, calories, etc.
tell us more about what and how you actually eat.
group hug!
once upon a time I had a group to talk about Binge Eating Disorder, and later one about Clean Eating.
PM me if you are interested in either of these.
size 8, life is great
