gaining weight only 6months out

OK, I know what I am doing is wrong and what I am not doing is wrong. I am having a head trip big time and just wonder if anyone else experience this and how they got by.
I have always been a bulk eater and I am doing it again. I know high protein and high veggies will fill me up but I keep going for things that slide through so I can see more. I know this is sick and I know if I just eat right my stomach would be full but I want to just eat more. I am ONLY 6months out and already starting to gain it back. SCARED and looking for some answers. I understand it is mental for me how did you get unstuck?
I have lost 100 pounds (55 before surgery), I love being skinner but my head is trippen on me HELP

I would recommend that you get some counseling to help you figure this out. You know the right things to do, but why aren't you doing them? A therapist could help you work this out, so that you can be successful. The surgery is only a tool, we have to do the work. As the saying goes, "They operated on our stomach, not our head."

If this happens to me, I will get myself to a therapist, pronto. I have come too far, to slide back to where I started from.  You can do this, and your program has resources for you, but you have to ask them for help.

Take a minute and figure out why you are eating? I try and ask myself, "okay Nicole, identify you mood." This normally helps me to figure out if I am about to eat because I am upset, bored, hurt, etc. I know that for years I ate instead of dealing with whatever emotion I was feeling at the time. For example, I love potato chips and I can eat them full or not. I don't deny myself chips, however; I try and fit them into my life as a treat, so I don't feel like it is something that I can never have. If I find myself standing with the bag open about to tear into them, I make myself identify how I am feeling and why I want to eat. This has helped me control my binges greatly. It is hard work but we all can do it. We have come to far not to. I also know that nothing feels better to me than to be able to shop in any store I want, to be able to fit in all chairs, to be able to climb stairs. It feels great not being the biggest person in the room. All of that feels better than any binge I have ever had. So take time and figure out what is going on, before it gets out of control.

I'm also six months out and in a completely different emotional world than I was even several weeks ago. All my **** is right there on the surface, everything about me that's emotionally stunted is making itself known and daring me to deal with it. As a result, I'm extremely uncomfortable right now and I know it's no coincidence that my feelings are coming to the surface as my body has gotten small enough for me to feel exposed.

This is just reality. I wanted to live in reality, so here I am. And here's what is helping me: I realized what I want most is COMFORT. Then I identified what food or beverage would give me that comfort without derailing my progress, and that ended up being a light vanilla soy latte. It's sweet, has 6 grams of protein, 70 calories, and is rich and filling. I have three, sometimes four a day. Half a coffee mug of light vanilla soy, half a coffee mug of espresso or dark, rich coffee. If I'm in a pinch, I'll go to Starbucks for a tall soy latte, which is about 130 calories and 6-ish grams of protein, but I like my home version better. Light vanilla soy tastes better to me.

For me, the bottom line is, this surgery and the journey it started is really about self-knowledge, and if I don't take the time to get real and respect myself, there's going to be trouble. We have an adult self and an impetuous child self. The adult has to get used to not letting the impetuous child drive the car. So, for me, this whole deal is really about finally growing up.

Awesome Plan !!!...I use my low carb yogurt with berries, vanilla protein coffee and protein hot coffee the same way but did not realize it till now....Thank You for bringing it to my attention

It's hard to break years of bad habits!  I've done some emotional eating this week myself due to some health issues my DH is having.  I gained 3 pounds, yet I know most of it is water weight because I still wrote down everything I ate and calorie counts were high, but not high enough to warrant a gain. 

Have you considered joining Weigh****chers or TOPS?  I belong to TOPS and weighing in weekly helps keep me honest. 

Otherwise, counseling is probably the way to go.  You are scared.  That's a good thing.  You are aware of what you are doing.  Now you have to take the steps to correct it. 

I went on a trip in my 5th month out and it has been all down hill from there....when the scale went up 10 lbs from my lowest (not even near goal) I knew I had to find the stength to get it together.  I did I lot of thinking  but it was a tread on the main board about the resposability to make the most of our second chances.  It really hit me where I needed it to...I know some have done great work and their surgery did not work out for them.  BUT that was not my story and I could not just let myself slide back into the hell I had been pulled out of by my surgon...so...just last week....I said no more...and that my friend was the hardest part....my tool is still there...and if I put the right things in it ...it still works...I'm not saying its easy...just that the decision is harder than the follow through....

I even had a birthday in the house this week  and yep I ate cake...three pieces of it....and then I told everyone to eat it before I cam back home from work the next day or throw it out...and it was no where near as hard as I thought it would be to get right back to my plan....

Girly..if I can get myself going again at almost a year out and six monthes of eating just crap and a ton of it....YOU can too!!!!!

I'm not on everyday due to a busy life...but I am makeing a point of checking as often as I can...I hope you will keep me posted how its going!!! 

thank you so much for understanding. I feel like I am drowning and don't know how to start treading water. I will not give up I just want it to get it right. there is so much fear of failing like I have done so many times. I knew this was tool but I was hoping I would get it right with practice. praying