Daily Maintenance Weigh In - Friday, Apr08/11

Daily Maintenance Weigh In - Friday, Apr08/11 

Surgery Date - June 12/09
Highest Weight - 230 lbs
Surgeon's Goal - 162.5 lbs
My Goal - 155 lbs lbs, BMI - 21
Lowest Weight - 142 lbs
Prefered Range - 145 - 155 lbs
Yesterday's Weight - 150.2 lbs
Today's Weight -  149.4  lbs
Gain/Loss -   -.8 lbs  

Surgery Date -  3/3/2010
Highest Weight - 380 Lbs
Consult Weight - 357 Lbs
Surgery Weight - 309 Lbs 
Total Amount Lost - 155 Lbs
Goal Range - 205 - 210 Lbs
Yesterday's Weight - 202 Lbs
Today's Weight - 202 Lb
Gain/Loss -  0 Lbs
 

130.5 lbs.  

I am really struggling here.  I woke up with 105.2 lbs. on the scale.  The crazy thing is I ate well yesterday, maybe it is still from the day before.  I am going to have a good eating day today.  I am recommitted to getting the 1.5 lbs. off.  If you are reading this and thinking I am crazy for caring about the 1.5 lbs., (this has been expressed to me lately by some who feel it is obsessive and counter productive to care about "slight" weight fluctuation), I don't want to hear about it.  In my reality, this could be the beginning of regain if I take my eye off of it.  I will not do that, hence the recommitted.  Carbs, are history, and let the journaling commence!

I know you may not want to hear this, but some walking may really be helpful, as well as the journaling that you mentioned. I am very scared of maintenance, since I am moving into it.

I think it is important to keep on top of it, but I look at how I am doing for the entire week. I pick one day/week and take that as my weekly weight. There are day to day flucuations of anywhere from .2 to 1 lb, maybe more, if I have had more salt that day. Is the 1.5 lbs for the week or over a period of 1-2 days? Sometimes, it may take more than one-two days of good eating for things to even out. At least in my personal experience this has been true. Everyone is so different.

Elina I don't think you're crazy at all. I totally believe  you have to stay on top of any fluctuations and adjust accordingly.

I was 134..4 so I have a gain of .2 which I think is from salt because I was eating peanuts in the shell yesterday. I am trying hard to get closer to130
where I was before I let things get out of hand.

Thank you for your support, it really helps.  I think you are right about the walking.  That is my nuclear option.  I always keep it in my back pocket.  If nothing else helps, I will pull that trigger.  I think I over ate the day before yesterday and maybe took in too much sodium.  But honestly there is no real explanation that makes sense, I am eating really well today and I hope the scale reflects it tomorrow.  Your words of encouragement mean a lot to me.

When I see a gain that I can't figure out (ie good eating day) I always chalk it up to sodium and it comes right off in the next day or two. I too obsess about small weight changes. I say my buffer is 5 lbs and I am ok at 110-115, but in all honesty, anything after 112.9 makes me unhappy. However, we have to remember that being women we do have so much going on with our body that we cannot always jump to the conclusion that we are doing something wrong. It takes 3500 excess calories to gain a lb, and if I am up a lbs but know I had a healthy eating day, I try to up my water and stick to basics and I am back in my happy place in no time. Elina, I see you as a Type A personality just like me. This I think is defiantly a good thing for maintaining!

You are so right, you hit the nail right on the head, I am a Type A personality and it drives me crazy that this is an area of my life I could never get control over.  Everything else in my life I would bend to my will one way or another, but I could never get my body to cooperate.  I have a lifetime of a history doing incredible things to lose the same 100 lbs. over and over and over only to see it come back again.  I have a pretty deep fear of history repeating itself.  Being able to speak about it here with you guys is the very best thing for me.  I don't feel as alone, I know many of you have similar histories and REALLY understand.  I know it takes 3500 calories to gain a pound and no I did not eat that much in one day.  :)  In a way, that makes it that much scarier for me, because it underscores that  as much control as I might have over it NOW, the ultimate control has been elusive and will forever be just a bit out of reach.  Frisco always says that he feels like he is walking around with a giant question mark on his back, I can relate to this.  Just like any other addict, I think that my release from obesity is earned one day a time and will never be guaranteed.  I really think that the first step in my regain would be to not notice or comment on a gain of just a few pounds.  This would mean that I am back in denial and obesity has a hold on me one more time.  Coming here and talking to you guys about it, makes all the difference.  Thank you for being there for me.

I'm with you Elina!!

I see how those 1.5 lb gains turn into 15 lb gains, and keeping on it is a positive in my life, not obsessive!

The 1.5 lb may be water weight or true poundage, the thing is, you are aware and doing all the right things!!!


Hugs

Donna